Xiaoshou, be good, open the door

Chang Fei's legs gave way, and he knelt down on the ground, reaching out his hand to grab a trace of the air that Pei Che had breathed.

The pain, the pain I have never experienced before, the whole person is like being hollowed out, floating around with nothing to rely on.

Seeing Chang Fei curled up on the ground like a dead body, Chang Chuang felt distressed and angry at the same time. He wanted to put Chang Fei on the bed, but found that his body was cold and his face was livid. Chang Chuang was frightened and reached out to grab the bed Chang Fei was wrapped up in the quilt, and he went downstairs into the traffic jam and drove back to the hospital.

Chang Fei woke up again with a needle in his hand. He tried his best to open his sore eyelids, and called softly, "Pei Che, Pei Che."

When Chang Chuang heard that Chang Fei had woken up, he hurried forward: "Fei'er, what's wrong with you? Do you want some water?"

Chang Fei stared at Chang Chuang for a few minutes before he realized who he was. He grabbed Chang Chuang's hand and cried out, "Brother, he doesn't want me anymore. I've been chasing him for so long, and he said he would just dump me." Don't even look at me for the last time, and ran away with the golden stick, brother, I feel bad."

Chang Chuang now understands it, the veins in his temples are throbbing, if Pei Che is in front of him now, he probably can slap him to death, no, he can't slap him to death, this brat can fight himself desperately, see This energy is terrible.Wait, I seem to have overlooked something, oh, it was Pei Che's idea that Chang Fei wanted to come to Qingdao when he co-authored it, why didn't he think of it when he and his father pooled up 500?

As soon as Chang Chuang opened his mind, there was a lot of wind and clouds in it.When the nurse came in, she saw Lao Gao Yihei, a big man with a constipated face and clenched fists, as if he was going to hit the handsome guy on the bed. The nurse was a little scared, but the handsome guy aroused her heroic pride in saving the beauty. She boldly said: " You, what are you doing, you still want to beat everyone when they are sick?"

"I, what am I doing beating him? He's my brother." Chang Chuang yelled at the nurse angrily.

The nurse was so frightened that she changed her medicine and ran out, thinking that this elder brother was terrifying and inhuman, and that handsome boy was so pitiful, he was tortured by a big black bear, and he must not have been born by the same parents.

Chang Chuang calmed down a lot now, he patted Chang Fei on the back: "Fei'er, just run away, I'll find you another one, what did you say about Pei Che before, you said he polluted the air alive and wasted land when he died If you throw it into the sea, the fish will die in pieces. Brother will find you one that doesn’t pollute the environment.”

"Brother, can I please go out, I want to be quiet for a while."

Chang Chuang looked at Chang Fei's pale face and nodded, before going out, he turned back and took away the sharp tools such as fruit knives in the ward. After seeing that the bag containing the salt water was made of plastic, he went out with confidence. He didn't dare to go far, so he squatted at the door like a big loyal dog.

Chang Fei half-lyed on the bed, watching the transparent liquid flow down from the slender tube little by little, slowly dripping into his body, and then play the role of the medicine to kill the virus. Is there a medicine that can kill love? Those nerves that worried Pei Che were also killed, since then, there will be no such person in Chang Fei's world?

Fuck, Chang Fei rubbed his face vigorously with his free hands, isn't it just to be shaken by someone for a while, thinking about the sea of ​​people who were thrown away by the second master back then, what's the big deal, standing in a row in Zhongshan Park, rough old man One, when he recovers, he will be a good man again, but when will this big bleeding hole in his heart heal?

Paralyzed, dare to dump Lao Tzu, Lao Tzu is worse than that golden stick, his height and appearance are stronger than him, no, I can't just be a bastard like this, I want to see Pei Che, even if he treats him like a piece of shit, Ask to understand!

Chang Erye put away the sad and melancholy literature and art mode, and turned on the second-hand rogue mode. He shouted at the door: "Old Chang, come in quickly, Er Ye knows you are waiting at the door."

Chang Chuang limped in and yelled loudly: "You little bastard, Chang Chang is our father, can you stop calling me that?"

"Old Chang, why are you lame? Yes, Lao Chang is our father, and I should call you Da Chang."

"Damn it, you still have a duodenum."

"Brother, brother, it's okay to be the head office like this. Brother, I ask you something, and you must agree."

"Bullshit, talk about it."

"I want to eat, good abalone porridge and bird's nest porridge, I want to recover my strength as soon as possible. And check the details of Daewoo International for me, whether Jin Dongjin has returned to Korea."

"Hey, you are pretty good at eating. The abalone porridge has been ordered long ago and will be delivered later. Don't need to check Jin Dongzhen. I am not unfamiliar with him. The country he returned to yesterday was written in the newspaper and will be delivered to you later. Buy a newspaper and read."

Most of Chang Fei's energy had weakened just now, and he asked in a low voice, "Did he leave alone?"

"No, it's said that I went to the airport with Pei Che."

"Brother, what do you mean by going to the airport together? Shouldn't they board the plane together? Please check for me, does Pei Che have any exit records?"

"Fei'er, what exactly do you want to do?"

"Nothing, I just want to know where he went?"

"Pei Che has a green card, he can go anywhere he wants, he is an American citizen, you don't know that?"

"Is he not Chinese?"

Chang Chuang patted Chang Fei's head fiercely: "Mom must have eaten pig's brains when she was pregnant with you, which caused your current IQ. You don't know anything, so you keep pushing towards Pei Che. You don't know the bottom line." Son, you are in a relationship, are you helping to count the money after being sold? Do you know who Pei Che is? Where is his family? What do your parents do? How many brothers and sisters are there?"

"Looking at him, he is Chinese, and his accent is an authentic Beijinger. He never talks about those trivial things, so I don't ask. I just love this person in front of me. What he looked like in the past has nothing to do with me. "

"You are so unreal, do you think that love that no one knows can last long?"

Chang Fei shook his head and said, "Brother, don't talk about it, can you treat me as a fool?"

"What, it's nothing. I can find someone to go to the airline and ask where he took the plane yesterday."

"Brother, you are so kind, you are such a great brother." Chang Fei wished he could jump up and hug his brother to bite him.

"Little boy, is it only now that you think of your brother?"

"No, keep it in your heart all the time, brother, you'll be a good person to the end, call out Pei Che's personal resume for me to have a look."

Chang Chuang took out his mobile phone and made a crackling call, then said to Chang Fei: "Use your mobile phone to check the email, the resume has arrived in your mailbox."

Chang Fei hurriedly clicked through the pages, and only then did he realize that the flesh-and-blood Mr. Pei he likes is like a legend in this email.

"Brother, why are two years blank in Pei Che's resume?"

Chang Chuang came over to take a look. It was Pei Che who gave up the opportunity to study in science and technology. He was in the middle before entering Harvard. What did he do for two full years?

"Fei'er, Pei Che entered the junior class of the University of Science and Technology at the age of 14, and you still wet the bed at the age of 12, how can you fall in love with the gap between you two?" Hey, isn't Pei Che straight?Did you give someone a break? "

"Brother, you still say I'm stupid. Look at your reflex arc, it's really long. What's so great about his high IQ? It's been said in the newspapers. People with high IQ have low EQ, and low EQ? Pei Che has low EQ? Damn it , brother, can you help me find out what he did during the two years when he was 18-years old?"

"This is very difficult. His resume is very valuable. You must fill in everything you can. You see, there are also comments from Harvard College tutors. If they don't fill it out, they must have been specially approved. Could it be that Pei Che was shut down for two days? Is that impossible?" Chang Chuang was nagging, when his cell phone rang, and the airline received a message saying that Pei Che's plane arrived in Beijing at 10:30 yesterday morning.

Chang Fei slapped his thigh, "Fuck, this is back to my old den. It has his home address on it. I don't think I'll bet on him. If you dare to lie to your second master about eloping with the golden stick, let's see if the second master will not let you know." You tie up and fuck hard until you don't have the energy to run.

Chang Chuang looked at Chang Fei, gritted his teeth and grinned foolishly for a while, thinking that this younger brother is all over, let his parents have another one!

Chang Fei was in such a stupid state until when he was drinking porridge, he raised his head from the porridge bowl with rice grains on his mouth: "Brother, Pei Che didn't elope with anyone, so I'm not considered dumped. Isn't it broken love?"

Chang Chuang took out a tissue and wiped Chang Fei's mouth fiercely: "Eat yours, look at that coward, I am the one who despises you because of Pei Che."

"Haha, you're not him. By the way, brother, you don't object to my falling in love with him?"

"Chang Fei, if you can kidnap Pei Che as our old Chang's daughter-in-law, brother will give you a Maserati."

"I don't want it. It's too coquettish. Pei Che definitely doesn't like it. Brother, you are so vicious. You want Pei Che to be a bully for our family so that you can lead your wife and children around the world?"

"Why not? But you have to be capable. Hey, Fei'er, you are too old, so you can't have a long-term heart? Since there is no third party, why did Pei Che leave you? What happened between you two?"

Chang Chuang's words pierced Chang Fei's pain. He had already injected anesthesia into the lesion and tried to ignore it, but Chang Chuang's needle was very painful, reminding him that the anesthetic would always go away, and he did not fundamentally If the upper part is resected, the disease will never get better.

There was a knock on the door, and Chang Chuang opened the door. Doctor Lin stood there in a white coat with bruises on the corner of his mouth, smiling softly.

"Doctor, come in quickly, fuck, Chang Chuang, you are really hard on your hands." Chang Fei shouted as he stood up.

"Lie down, it's okay, I will learn a few tricks with Brother Chang, right, Brother Chang?"

Chang Chuang secretly cursed in his heart that he is a thousand-year-old fox, you hit me much harder than I beat you, but you only hit me where I can't see people.

The smile on Chang Chuang's face was very stiff. He put his arm around the doctor's shoulder and said, "Yes, we don't know each other without fighting, haha."

The atmosphere was delicate and awkward, Chang Chuang found an excuse to go out, only Chang Fei and Dr. Lin were left in the ward.

"Thank you, doctor. If it weren't for you, I would have died."

"Shouldn't the life-saving grace be promised by a body?"

Chang Fei smirked to cover up his embarrassment, Lin Jingyan sat on the side of the bed and touched Chang Fei's forehead with a cool hand, feeling Chang Fei's resistance and retreat, he said lightly: "Just try to see if you still have a fever, and don't inspect the goods. "

"Doctor, that, I'm sorry, my brother beat you."

"It's okay, I beat him up too. Your brother looks big, but he's not well trained."

After the doctor finished speaking, Chang Fei didn't know what to say, and the room fell silent.

Chang Fei felt vaguely disturbed by such silence, and he whispered, "I didn't commit suicide."

"I know, I was confused at the time, but if you take cephalosporin with liquor, no one will believe that you didn't commit suicide. Do you have any medical knowledge?"

"It's really not there, it's just sick and taking medicine indiscriminately."

After another silence, Dr. Lin stood up and said, "By the way, I'm here to tell you one thing."

"what's up?"

Doctor Lin stretched out his hand to tug the quilt for Chang Fei: "Chang Fei, Pei Che came to the hospital a few days ago."

Chang Fei raised his eyelids: "He asked you to see your butt?"

"He's on a psychiatric number."

"Psychiatry? Doctor, are you kidding me? Pei Che is normal."

"Actually, it's not a big deal to see a psychiatrist. Modern people's lives are stressful, and sometimes mild depression can be adjusted with drugs. But today I occasionally saw his electronic medical records, and the diagnosis given to him was insufficient ca in the brain. , high da metabolites, low hva, low 5-ht..."

"Fuck, don't tell me these things, I don't understand, just tell me what the disease is."

The doctor took a deep breath and whispered, "Bipolar disorder."

Chang Fei looked at the doctor puzzled, his lips trembling a bit: "What kind of double, single, what kind of emotional disorder, I don't understand."

"Simply put, it's major depressive disorder or mental illness."

Chang Fei's hands tightly grasped the quilt, his lips trembled, and his words were particularly erratic: "Doctor, you don't need to do this, even if there is no Pei Che, I wouldn't like you."

The doctor stepped forward and grabbed his arms, looking into his eyes: "Chang Fei, you have to accept the fact that Pei Che didn't come to see a doctor, he came to prescribe medicine, and he knew exactly what medicine he should take. Mazepine, amitriptyline, and imipramine, he didn’t get it for the first time, his medical records stated that the first onset was at the age of 18, and he lived in the Vanneck Mental Sanatorium in the United States for 2 years.”

In turn, Chang Fei tightly grasped the doctor's arm, his nails dug deep into his flesh: "Why, Pei Che is an elite, an MBA from Harvard, and he used to be the most powerful investment consultant on Wall Street, let me tell you Looking at his resume, he is all glittering. If such a person is mentally ill, then I am mentally handicapped? Doctor, you are wrong."

"Chang Fei, the affective disorder may be caused by the personality disorder suffered the most during adolescence. I talked to the doctor who saw him. He said that Pei Che is a patient with very strong willpower. He recovered after his illness. There was no problem with normal study and work afterward, and the reason for the relapse may be that he suffered from the same troubles as the previous cause, which never brought back bad memories before, and was always afraid of going crazy when he was afraid and agitated."

"You mean to say that his illness may be due to falling in love with me?"

"This factor cannot be ruled out."

"What will happen if you get sick, go crazy?"

"Typically affective disorders eventually lead to suicide."

"suicide!"

Chang Fei violently tried to lift the quilt to get out of bed, but he lost all strength and rolled on the ground with the quilt. He struggled in a ball of cotton, but he struggled tighter and tighter, like a silkworm trapped himself in a cocoon.

"Chang Fei, Chang Fei, are you okay, give me your hand, don't panic, it's okay."

Chang Fei stopped struggling and looked at Dr. Lin with dull eyes, as if he didn't know him.

Doctor Lin held him in his arms: "Chang Fei, breathe, breathe quickly, it's okay, you have to be brave, Pei Che is waiting for you to save him."

"Pei Che, Pei Che, Pei Che." Chang Fei held the name between his lips, as if reading it with his whole soul, gradually nourishing the cold words with warmth.

"Chang Fei, look at me, I am Lin Jingyan."

Chang Fei pushed Doctor Lin away and smiled wryly: "Doctor, you think I'm stupid, I'm fine, I finally know why Pei Che doesn't accept me, no, I don't know, I just know roughly, so I'm going to Looking for him, I want him to forgive my naivety and ignorance, forgive me for asking and entangled, I thought that love is the simplest, just eat and sleep together, but I never care what he thinks, my brother said I was a brain-dead, and I didn't give in at all. "

Chang Chuang went down to smoke and came back, saw Chang Fei lying on the ground, about to hit the doctor with his hand, this time the doctor reacted quickly, grabbed it and sneered coldly: "What nonsense, put him on the bed."

Probably today the doctor was wearing a white coat and looked more authoritative. Chang Chuang didn't dare to talk anymore. The two of them worked together to put Chang Fei on the bed. Chang Fei took the doctor's hand and said, "Doctor, is there any medicine that can be used?" Let me get better quickly, I'm going to find Pei Che."

"What's going on here?" Monk Chang Chuang Zhang Er couldn't figure it out, the boy was fine just now, why he was so manic after going out for a while.

The doctor went out and led a nurse in. The doctor said to Chang Fei gently, "Chang Fei, be good, the nurse will give you an injection, and you will recover after this injection."

Chang Fei's pupils were wide open, and the whites of his eyes were covered with red threads. He looked like a kitten in a state of extreme panic. When he stretched out his hand, his muscles were so tense that the needle couldn't get in.

Dr. Lin massaged his muscles and coaxed him in a low voice. Gradually, Chang Fei relaxed, and the nurse inserted the needle. Seeing that the liquid medicine in the needle tube decreased little by little, Chang Fei felt a little bit of coolness creeping up from the blood vessels until it reached the In the brain, the active nerves there were paralyzed, and he suddenly felt very tired. He clenched his upper and lower teeth, desperately trying to open his eyes, but he couldn't resist the darkness that dragged him into the whirlpool.

"Did you give him a tranquilizer?" Chang Fei seemed to hear Chang Chuang say this in the distant clouds.

"Well, he's too excited, you have to calm him down, otherwise your nerves and heart will be overwhelmed."

Chang Chuang covered Chang Fei with the quilt and turned his head to ask, "Doctor Lin, what did you tell him, he was so excited."

Dr. Lin sat on the chair wearily: "I told him that Pei Che suffers from emotional disorders and may commit suicide at any time."

Chang Chuang's face was as dark as a cloudy sky: "Doctor, if my guess is right, you also like my brother, but isn't this method too despicable?"

"Brother Chang, I like Chang Fei, but what I told him is also true."

"Are you kidding? People like Pei Che would commit suicide. I wouldn't believe it even if you killed him."

"Brother Chang, you don't have to believe it. I can't show you the patient's file, but Chang Fei really wants to get well soon and find Pei Che and send him to the hospital for treatment. Otherwise, no one knows what will happen?"

Chang Chuang frowned, suddenly felt that his little prince's love was scrambled.

The doctor sighed and said, "Brother Chang, please help Chang Fei, he really loves Pei Che, I finally surrendered."

"This kid has been very nervous since he was a child. He has nothing to worry about. I don't know why he likes men. Maybe it's innate. At first, I thought it was the children of the Zhao family who brought him down, but after thinking about it, maybe It was he who brought him down. He came out because he fell in love with someone, and he just wanted to be with Zhao Wei, which scared me, thinking that he had an affair with Zhao Wei. The people around him all these years He came and went, and didn't have anything to do with anyone. I thought he could find a woman to marry after he had had enough trouble. Now, seeing him treat Pei Che, I realized that this kid still has this side. I misread him. "

"Brother Chang, maybe Chang Fei hasn't even understood himself. He's still young, and he still has a lot to learn about the road ahead. Pei Che is his most serious subject. Help him, don't let everyone have trouble with it." Pity."

The doctor and Chang Chuang chatted a lot about Chang Fei. When he came out of the ward, he remembered that he had missed an appointment. After checking the time, it was past 9:[-] pm. He thought about calling, but He was tired physically and mentally, so he didn't bother to say anything, he put his phone in his pocket and shook his head as if he had forgotten it, and then went back to the dormitory.

Chang Fei did not sleep soundly this time.

He had many dreams, all kinds of dreams, and Pei Che was in every dream. Although the process was different, the result of each dream was that Pei Che said goodbye to him, limped and disappeared into the In the dark night.Chang Fei was in a hurry, he yelled, but the sound of the exit was blown away by the wind and he couldn't even hear him. He wanted to catch up, but his legs were limp and he had no strength at all. Every step he took was like stepping on clouds superior.

Pei Che, why can't you just stand there and wait for me, even if you crawl, I will catch up with you!

Chang Fei broke out in sweat, opened his eyes to see an empty ward, and there was no sign of Pei Che at all.

It's strange to say that he was sweating all over. Chang Fei felt lighter. Although he still didn't have much strength, his head was no longer dizzy, he was no longer crying or fussing. , Wait until it's over, even if it's in the corners of the world, he will find Pei Che back, and tell him that he is not his disease, but a medicine, a good medicine that can cure his disease.

When Chang Fei stood in front of the family building of the faculty and staff of that well-known university, his heart was beating wildly. He knew that the answer he wanted was inside that door, and he would brutally tear open the bloody wound that had already scabbed.

The author has something to say: I’m going to put on a frying pan today, is there anyone looking for me desperately?In fact, Mo Mo's life is not important, but the happiness of Mrs. Chang Fei and Mr. Pei is important. You said Chang Fei is a happy child, why do you have to look at Pei Che as Shen Jingbing, haha, she is Shen Jingbing who has given up treatment ah!Don't worry, this is a sweet pet article, a little abuse is harmless, if you really want to smash Momo, please use the monthly pass!