Promise to the Rainbow

Chapter 16 I want to melt your heart bit by bit (1)
If you are an ice cube, then I will be your sunshine!

I want to become air and fill your world little by little.

At that time, you will never be able to leave me!

1.
The sky is blue and white, and the clouds slowly float in the sky reflecting the light of the morning glow.A few crisp bird calls suddenly came from the originally silent world, which heralded that a beautiful morning had arrived.

That night, I was like a lonely rag doll, lying on the hospital bed and drying up my tears.It turns out that the kind of real sadness is not mixed with other emotions, and it does not feel humiliated or lost, only the heart hurts like being torn apart.My eyes were dark, and my ears were silent, as if everything had lost its vivid colors and pleasant sounds.

With two swollen fish bubble eyes, I walked home from the hospital slowly.A few sparrows flew over my head, and cotton candy-like clouds quietly dotted the sky.The morning sun spreads a refreshing aroma to the earth.But all this looks so bleak to me.

This time, I seem to be really lost in love.

"Hey, isn't that girl who looks like a walking dead in front of me the same as Fujisawa Nana who has a crush on me?"

Suddenly a voice came from behind me.

I turned my head slowly with a heavy head on my back, Kunozawa-senpai was looking at me with a sly smile.

"Hello senior." I had no strength in my body, and now I just want to go back to my home, put on a quilt, and have a good sleep.Perhaps only in this way, the heart that seems to be bleeding non-stop can stop the pain.

"Come on, help me carry these things home! As long as you help me, maybe I can accept your confession! Don't you like me very much?" Senior Kunozawa raised his head slightly, pointing to the big and small bags beside him Said the plastic bag.

Seeing Kunozawa-senpai's arrogance, I suddenly felt nauseous.Compared to the rejection of confessing to that dead ice face now, the rejection of confessing to the senior last time seemed so painless.

"I'm giving you such a chance, don't take it!" Senior Kunozawa's eyes shone with victory, and the sly smile on the corner of his mouth continued to expand.

If it was me in the past, I would definitely carry the bag and walk forward!I will also feel infinitely honored for my seniors to give me such an opportunity.

But now...

My mind, heart, eyes, and every corner of my body are filled with the figure of that guy Hiroshi Sato.

The way he rescued me in front of his classmates, the way he encouraged me, the way he cared about me and worried about me, the way he gently fed me soup...

These endless memories, like being poisoned by poppies, are engraved in my heart and cannot be erased.

"Fujisawa Nai? Are you so moved that you can't speak?" Kunozawa-senpai couldn't help asking when he saw that I was still in the same place.

"No, I just want to tell the senior that I don't like you anymore, goodbye." Leaving this sentence behind, I took my half-emptied body and continued walking towards home.

I have no strength in my whole body, it seems that every cell is aching, I want to cry, but I don't know how the tears flow out, I want to clear all the memories about Hiroshi Sato from my mind, but I don't know where to start.

This feeling made me unable to see the direction of the road ahead, and walked home in a daze.After opening the door, the kitten came to greet me immediately, and the cry seemed to be full of concern.

"Little guy, are you worried about my sister?" I squatted down and touched its round head, but Sato Hiroshi's figure appeared in my mind again.

He also stroked the little guy's forehead gently that day, standing quietly in the room like a white angel, did I fall in love with him from then on?
Or last night, he fed me like a big brother next door and took care of me tenderly. Was it then that I fell in love with him?

No, no, I definitely didn't say those words on a whim, so when did I fall in love with that guy?

Maybe when we first met?Maybe it was when he helped me like a patron saint again and again?perhaps……

There are a lot of possibilities, even I can't tell clearly, such feelings seem to have been brewing for too long, like carefully aged wine, exuding a fragrance, but the taste is extremely sour.

Huge question marks were pressing on my head. My head was so heavy. These messy questions filled my small brain. I dragged my feet and lay down in a daze. on the bed.

Ok!Still my bed is the most comfortable!
There was a large pile of clothes on the soft bed.It seemed that the exhaustion from last night was completely released at this moment. I put my body in the most comfortable position, lying on the bed like a dead body, motionless.

Now it is only at home that I can find the last bit of security that remains, and it is only here that I can put all the horrible things behind me.

But why, the pain in my heart has not diminished at all?

Hiroshi Sato, what kind of magic did you cast?
Ugh!
The eyelids seemed to be very heavy, and the sleepiness from a sleepless night immediately appeared. I slowly closed my eyes, lay on the soft bed, and the sleepiness suddenly hit.

The world in front of me darkened. Although the bright sunlight outside the house poured into the room without hesitation, everything around me seemed to be sinking into another quiet darkness.

I don't know how long it took, black feathers suddenly fell from the sky, and slowly fell to the ground to pile up. The sky was still falling with strangely colored feathers. Slowly, I felt that I was about to be overwhelmed by these black feathers...

The ensuing sense of suffocation surrounded me little by little.

"what!"

With a scream, I sat up from the bed in embarrassment, it turned out to be a dream!

However, the feeling in the dream is so real, those falling feathers, like the past experienced by Hiroshi Sato, are falling down one after another.

The bright sunlight shines into the house through the thin curtains, and the blue sky outside can be vaguely seen, but such a beautiful blue sky does not attract my attention at all.

Why do I feel like I've slept for a long time, but the sky is still so bright?
Alas, my mind must have gone berserk again.

I grabbed the phone and looked at the time and date on the screen, opening my mouth wide enough to fit a light bulb in.

omg...

It turned out that I had slept for a day and a night, no wonder my head was dizzy and painful, and my arms were so sore that I couldn't lift them up.

It is said that sleep is the best medicine for a broken relationship, but I can even dream about my past with that guy, how can I recover from this state?

Ok!Go find something to eat!
This is the only way I can think of right now, I open the refrigerator and cupboards to bring out a large pile of hoarded snacks.I don't care about recovering from any serious illness. I sat on the bed and chewed angrily.

Wow!
Delicious!Only when I eat can I feel full of happiness, but as the snack bag gradually empties, the relaxed mood immediately weighs on a heavy stone, and my heart is as heavy as a mountain.

Hiroshi Sato is like a terrible spell, always lingering in my mind, and his figure will be recalled at any moment...

I casually piled the trash aside, and went to bed with my notebook in my arms.This is the life I am most familiar with, maybe it is the most suitable for me to live alone at home as a house girl...

I don't want to join any choir, and I don't want to be the focus of attention of all the girls in the school...

Before I knew it, I lived in this garbage-like house for several days. Every day, I was alone with my laptop, playing games and watching animations, ordering takeaway when I was hungry, and throwing the laptop aside when I was sleepy. Lie in bed and sleep.

Only such a garbage dump can make me feel safe, as if everything outside has nothing to do with me, although even the uncle who delivers the food is frowning and looking at me and the home behind me...

"Ding-dong-ding-dong-"

Huh?Who will come to see me at night?

Could it be, Hiroshi Sato?
"Pounding—"

Thinking of this, my heart, which had been stagnant for the past few days, was suddenly filled with vitality and kept beating...

With an uneasy mood, I slowly moved to the door, gasping for breath, hoping that my restless heart would calm down.

If it is really him, how should I face him?What should I say?
"Whoa--"

My forehead was immediately covered with a row of black lines, thinking of the embarrassing scene I was about to face, my face became extremely embarrassed.

"Ding-dong-ding-dong-"

The man outside seemed patient, and despite my struggles, he rang the doorbell again.

This is not like Hiroshi Sato's style.

"Snapped--"

I slowly opened the door, but I didn't expect that the person standing outside the door turned out to be Tian Haiyou!
sweat!
I foolishly brewed it in my heart for so long, but it wasn't that guy Sato Hiroshi...

Thinking of this, my heart seemed to have fallen to the bottom, and that feeling of loss hit me instantly.

Am I still looking forward to meeting Hiroshi Sato?How could he come to me?Didn't he already reject me?

woohoo-

It was me who was too naive. How could that ruthless guy care about my life?

"Nanai!" Tian Haiyou called my name loudly.It just pulled me out of my wild thoughts.

"Yu, why are you here?"

"I can't reach you by calling your mobile phone these days, what happened to you?" Tian Haiyou asked anxiously, his tone full of concern.

"Ha, haha, it's nothing..." I rubbed the back of my head in embarrassment, and stumbled to prevaricate Tian Haiyou's question.

faint!
Do you want me to tell Yu that my confession failed?And that guy with Hiroshi Sato?

That way Yu will despise me to death!No no no!I absolutely can't let Yu know.

My expression became a little lonely at that moment, but I couldn't escape Tian Haiyou's piercing eyes at all. He immediately relieved the impatience just now and asked, "Nai Nai, is there something wrong with you?" happy?"

"No, it's nothing. I just feel that it's too hot outside and I just want to hide at home." Although I tried my best to hide it, the silence and depression of the past few days seemed to be suddenly released, and tears crawled to the corners of my eyes.

woohoo-

"Nai Nai, don't cry, I won't ask about anything, okay?" Tian Haiyou was startled by my sudden tears, and he kept comforting me.

Ugh!
If Hiroshi Sato can be as gentle as Yu, then even if I reject me, I won't be in such pain, right?

I held back my tears, twitched the corners of my mouth and forced a smile, followed Tian Haiyou into the living room.

Ok!I can't make Yu worry about me anymore.

After all, this buddy who has played with me since I was a child is the best for me. At this time, I am afraid that he is the only one who remembers my existence, right?

Tian Haiyou stayed with me until late at night before going home. Although he strongly asked to help me clean the house, I flatly refused.

As Tian Haiyou walked out of the door, the room suddenly became quiet again. Such a quiet world made me fall into memories.

Hiroshi Sato's smile and frown reappeared in front of my eyes inadvertently, like a spell that I couldn't avoid or escape, deeply entangled me.

How can I forget him?I'm going to go crazy if this goes on!
The night was getting darker and darker, like an endless ocean slowly swallowing up the clear sky, and a crescent moon hung alone in the sky, as if it would shed tears at any moment.

2.
It's another sunny morning, and I've been at home for a whole week without going out.

I seem to be suffering from obsessive-compulsive disorder, trying to force myself not to think about every bit of Hiroshi Sato, it seems that the pain will be less, but how long will this kind of life last?

"Chirp chirp—"

A few sparrows outside the window were chirping happily, seeming to be talking about me, a decadent guy.

"Ding-dong-ding-dong-"

The doorbell rang suddenly, it must be Tian Haiyou who came to accompany me again.

The only one who has been by my side these days is Yu, he seems to be worried about what will happen to me, he comes to my house to report from time to time, cooks some delicious meals for me, chats with me, even though my face is always gloomy It can rain at any time, and he stays by my side without any complaints.

I don't know which lucky girl will be Yu's girlfriend in the future. Such a gentle and considerate boy is so much better than that guy Sato Hiroshi!
But why do I prefer Sato Hiroshi?

"Ugh--"

Thinking of this, I involuntarily sighed deeply and walked towards the door.

The moment I opened the door, there was an unexpected person standing outside the door.

Teacher Akizawa!

sweat……

Thinking of my messy hair and the room like the garbage pile behind me, the teacher Akizawa in front of me seemed to be the last person I wanted to see.

I don't want Mr. Akizawa, who is full of hope for me, to see me like this!

"Oh? Nana, aren't you happy to see me here?" Sensei Akizawa noticed my strange expression and asked sadly.

"Damn, of course not! Teacher Akizawa, please come in!" I immediately explained, although I tried my best to raise a smile on my face, but when I turned around and saw the messy room, my expression froze immediately.

How did Mr. Akizawa come to my house?And still at this time?
Teacher Akizawa nodded like a child, and walked into my house with cheerful steps, but just as he stepped in, a terrible scream sounded immediately.

"My God!"

Well, Mr. Akizawa must have been shocked by my room.These drowsy days have made my room n times more messy than before. Anyone who sees it will be shocked, right?

"Teacher, I know my room..."

I was trying to find a good explanation for my horrible room, but what I just slipped out of my mouth was interrupted by Teacher Akizawa.

"Nai Nai! Your room looks like an artist! I really like it! I love this kind of messy beauty! No wonder your singing voice is so beautiful." Akizawa teacher sincerely praised.

artist……

faint!
Mr. Akizawa's way of comforting people is even more special than his dressing style.Facing such an extremely messy room, it was hard for him to say such words against his will.

I kept my smile in embarrassment, and said, "Teacher Qiu Ze, you don't have to comfort me, I must have let you down, right?"

"How could it be, Nana, why do you look unhappy?" Teacher Akizawa asked with concern, frowning slightly, with a few wrinkles on his face.

I didn't expect Mr. Akizawa to care about me besides Tian Haiyou.

Huhu——

My heart became warm at that moment, as bright as the spring sunshine outside the window, as if looking at Mr. Akizawa with a smile on his face, all troubles disappeared without a trace.

It seems that every time I am in front of Mr. Akizawa, my little thoughts will be clearly seen.

"This, it's something unhappy." I said hesitantly, but the reason for my unhappiness was that I really didn't want Teacher Akizawa to find out.

"Hey, is our Nana unhappy because of Hiroshi Sato?"

God!

Is Teacher Akizawa a god who descended from the sky?so amazing!It's impossible for Hiroshi Sato to tell Mr. Akizawa. Could it be that my performance is so obvious that even Mr. Akizawa noticed it?

woohoo-

I really want to dig a hole to get in, so if Mr. Akizawa finds out about my failed confession, I will definitely be embarrassed!

Why am I not a mole?
When I came up with such a strange idea, my face was as red as a ripe cherry, and I didn't know how to answer Teacher Akizawa's question for a while.

"Nai Nai, why are you silent?" Mr. Akizawa stared at me with a pair of round eyes and tilted his head.

"This, that, that's not the case." I argued weakly.

Listening to my justification, the smile on Akizawa's teacher's face deepened a bit, and he patted my shoulder, as if he wanted to comfort me, "Okay, no matter why Nana is unhappy, I want to talk to you What about the story of that guy Hiroshi Sato!"

About Hiroshi Sato?

I don't know why, listening to Mr. Akizawa's words, Sato Hiroshi's figure came to my mind again, such a cold and lonely appearance, like a bottomless sea, but I don't know when it will be stormy.

"Does he have any secrets?" I couldn't hold back my curiosity, and asked at the risk of being caught by Mr. Akizawa.

"Huh? It seems that Nana doesn't know anymore. It's a long story."

Mr. Akizawa seemed to be trying to whet my appetite, with a long ending, as if he was not in a hurry to tell me.

sweat……

Of course I don't know!

Maybe it's because we don't know anything that we are so alienated?
My curiosity was immediately aroused, and I hurriedly asked, "Tell me quickly."

It seems that my expression suddenly full of vitality satisfied Mr. Akizawa. He pursed his lips and said to me with a smile: "Since Nana wants to know so much, I will tell you."

woohoo...

Fortunately, Teacher Akizawa didn't continue to play tricks, otherwise I would die of anxiety.What secrets does Hiroshi Sato have?
"Why is Hiroshi Sato so indifferent? This has a lot to do with his previous experience. He lost his parents since he was a child, and his grandfather has always raised him. But when he entered university, his grandfather also passed away. Yes. The reason why he joined the choir was also his grandfather’s wish. His grandfather always wanted him to be a good singer! Don’t look at his usual ice-like appearance, but his heart is actually very warm Yes, he just doesn't know how to get along with others. He doesn't know how to give happiness to others, so he will habitually refuse."

A gust of wind blows gently, and the hair around my ear flutters with the rhythm of the wind. Teacher Qiu Ze's words seem to slowly fly into my ears from a distant valley, faintly visible.

The heart is like a hidden cloud, suddenly the child's warm palm lightly touches the water vapor, and accidentally turns into a cloud of smoke.

3.
It turned out that Hiroshi Sato was such a lonely person.Because he is lonely and doesn't know how to get along with others, that's why he always looks cold. Perhaps, he doesn't want to be like that either?
So, my confession that day was because he didn't know how to respond to me, so he left?
(End of this chapter)