Low-key life, high-profile work

Chapter 11 Accepting injustice and calmly facing life's unsatisfactory (3)
In the first month of unemployment, Gu Bai was so anxious that he couldn't sleep every night, and he became much emaciated.One day, some friends who cared about her asked her out and encouraged her, saying, "Why do you insist on challenging what you are not good at? Since you have failed so many interviews and there is no professional counterpart job, why don't you do something else?" What about you? Don’t you like writing? Maybe this is the way.”

Gu Bai was originally fond of literature, read a lot of books, and his writing skills are also good.At first, she didn't have confidence in herself, but then she thought, instead of being idle and worrying, it's better to calm down and write something, maybe it can be done.Thinking about it this way, Gu Bai started to write with the mentality of giving it a try.

The turbulent life in Bei Piao gave Gu Bai a deeper understanding of life and another understanding.From graduation to work, scenes emerged in her mind. Taking herself as the prototype and combining her own thoughts, she wrote bit by bit the rough journey of a young man.

Before I knew it, three months had passed.For the past three months, Gu Bai got up before five in the morning, spent two hours submitting his resume online, and then devoted himself to writing, sitting in front of the computer until two or three o'clock in the night.

The interview and writing became the epitome of Gu Bai's entire life in the past three months.For Gu Bai, these three months were hopeless three months, because she was looking forward to the opportunity of the interview every day, and the notice of being hired every day, but day after day, her wishes came true.These three months were another three months of extreme hardship. Because she hadn't found a job and had little savings, Gu Bai couldn't even bear to eat all day long. She was so hungry that she couldn't bear it, so she only took a bite of a biscuit to satisfy her hunger.In the scorching summer, she endured the scorching heat in a small room of a few square meters, and had to fight against the cockroaches running around the room.

Three months later, Gu Bai's novel was finished.While looking for a job, she posted articles online.Soon, another month passed, and there was no news of either the submitted resume or the submitted manuscript.Gu Bai's heart was extremely disheartened, and she was about to lose the last bit of confidence in life.

At this time, a strange call came.

"Hi, hello, is this Ms. Gu Bai? I am the editor of the publishing house..."

The editor said that he was very satisfied after reading Gu Bai's work, and hoped to talk to her about the future cooperation.Gu Bai was so excited that he burst into tears.It turns out that life is not hopeless. When you think life is hopeless, you may suddenly get a huge gift.

Sometimes people's fate is like this. When will they lose something, and when will they suddenly gain something? Who can predict?
When Shakespeare was young, he offended a local rich man. In order to avoid revenge, he fled to London.For a person, being forced to leave his hometown with his wife and children is unfortunate; for Shakespeare, fleeing brought him a turning point in life.At that time, drama was burning all over London like a big fire. Shakespeare was lucky to get acquainted with drama, and his talent also found a place to be used.

Van Gogh cut off his ear in pain during a mental attack, but who knows that his mental pain is precisely because he loves life too much.Van Gogh once said when talking about his creation: "For it, I risked my life; because of it, half of my sanity collapsed. But it doesn't matter..."

Van Gogh's life died prematurely because of art, but his spirit of strong desire for freedom and almost crazy enthusiasm and love for life has remained forever in the burning "Sunflower", the spinning "Sunflower" In Starry Night, they turned into eternal stars and symbols of eternal life.

Dostoevsky was a superstar in the Russian literary world in the 19th century. His "Crime and Punishment" won him a worldwide reputation, and "The Brothers Karamazov" was hailed as the greatest novel in the history of literature. novel.Someone once commented on Dostoevsky and his works: "Dostoevsky devoted his life to studying the relationship between man and God, often swinging between heaven and hell, shuttling between divinity and demonity. Bipolar, until he was nearly 60 years old, and finally wrote "The Brothers Karamazov", erecting a peak in the field of human spirit."

Dostoevsky was obsessed with morbid psychological descriptions. When readers read "Crime and Punishment" and other works, they are often unknowingly brought into a spiritual world that is capricious, full of contradictions, complicated, and almost crazy. .A pioneer and mentor of psychological narrative, he had a profound influence on Faulkner, Camus, Kafka, Kurosawa, Freud, and others.When people stood looking up at his achievements from a distance, how many people knew that this great writer was actually an epileptic patient?This painful illness has plagued him since he was 9 years old and has been with him throughout his life.The torment of epilepsy made Dostoevsky feel very painful, but it also gave him the opportunity to have a deep understanding of this morbid life.It was from the perspective of a patient that Dostoevsky saw a morbid feature of the times that was in harmony with epilepsy, so he wrote such a great work.

No one is perfectly happy, and no one is forever unhappy.In the face of all kinds of misfortunes in life, what we have to do is not only to obey and accept, but also to try to reverse the situation.What doesn't belong to you, you can't catch it no matter how hard you try; what belongs to you, it will fall on top of your head.Maybe everyone has their own destiny, whether to lose or to gain, destiny has its own judgment.The important thing is to work hard for it, and fate will naturally reward you.

Wisdom
"When misfortune comes, fortune rests on it, and fortune comes from misfortune." Maybe we can't grasp our destiny, but we can learn to face it optimistically when we are unlucky.Don't worry, wait patiently and strive for it, you will get what you deserve.

Treat suffering as a poignant date
Sometimes, fate is like a piece of transparent glass, the brighter it is, the more shiny it is, the easier it is to break.

He and her have been in love for 5 years. They hit it off, talk about marriage, and are full of good expectations for the future.

He said: "Wait another year, when I have saved enough 30, we will go to a secluded place to buy a house and land. Let's leave the noisy city and go to live in seclusion in the mountains. Raise chickens, farm, have children, and have a kind of hug life in nature."

She said, "Okay! I hate the hustle and bustle of city life. Then I'm going to buy a loom and make clothes for you and the kids myself. I'm also going to be a really good cook and make me The person you love the most eats the most delicious food." After she finished speaking, she leaned into his arms and giggled, her smile was so beautiful, it was so beautiful that people were intoxicated.

He continued to work hard, and he wanted to save up to the 30 as soon as possible.Behind the 30, there is a wonderful life!For this goal, he worked tirelessly all day. Sometimes his body was too exhausted and he felt that he could not hold on anymore, but when he thought of the beautiful life, he worked hard again.

However, fate's temper is always so weird and unpredictable.Just when he and she were about to realize their good wishes, he suddenly got a serious illness and needed 30 yuan for a kidney replacement, otherwise his life would be in danger.

This sudden misery was like a bolt from the blue, frightening both him and her.Dark clouds covered his and her heads, and for them, the whole world was gloomy, without a ray of sunshine or warmth.

After a few days, she, who has always been optimistic and cheerful, never showed a smiling face again.She was only in her twenties, and she had been spoiled and raised since she was a child. Her shoulders were too weak to bear such a heavy burden.Not to mention what to do with the 30 yuan surgery fee in front of him and a large amount of health care expenses in the future, even if he has borrowed all the money, can he find a suitable kidney source in time, can the operation be successful, and can his illness continue to grow day by day? Well, whether he can fully recover in the future is an uncertain issue.

She knew in her heart that very few people with this disease could be cured in the end. The hundreds of thousands of surgical and nursing fees were just a last-ditch effort because they were unwilling to give up like this. In comparison, this fight is so weak.She was heartbroken, half for him and half for herself.

She was worried and didn't know what to do.She couldn't bear to leave him, and felt it was a sin; without him, she really couldn't imagine how she would face that terrible future.Both her parents are old and retired, and they still count on their daughter and son-in-law to provide for them.She usually relies on him for everything, without him, she can't get any ideas.She is only in her 20s, is she going to waste her prime time taking care of a patient and earning money to treat him?
She has never said these words to him, and she finds it a little hard to say.Although she was often condemned by her conscience and secretly scolded herself that she shouldn't think about these issues at this time, she couldn't do it.

His illness is getting worse and worse, but his heart is clear.He knew she was in a difficult situation, and felt very uncomfortable in his heart.He loved her and didn't want her to suffer, so he said to her: "I can't give you a happy life, I'm really sorry. Don't feel sorry for me, I can take care of myself, you go." She listened silently, tears Lianlian, her heart is full of guilt.Two days later, while he was asleep, she quietly packed up her things and left.He woke up, looked at the empty room, and a tear fell down.He said let her go, but in his heart he hoped that she could stay.He used to fantasize that the love between him and her was different from other people's, that it could last forever, but he didn't expect love to be so fragile.

Although sad, he didn't hate her at all.Because he knows that to love her is not to bring her to destruction when disaster strikes, to love her is to make her happy, let her be free, and let her live the life she really wants to live.

After she left, he was admitted to the hospital, receiving treatment while waiting for a kidney source.His face was pale, his nausea and vomiting became more and more serious, and his convulsions became more and more frequent.He often had hallucinations and saw her walking in from the door in a white dress, holding up a bowl and saying to him: "Hey, eat. Eat well, and you will get better." As she said, she spooned the food in the bowl A spoonful was delivered to his mouth...

When he regained his senses, he heard his stomach growling, and there was no sign of her in the house.Sometimes, he would ask the nurse, "Did someone visit me just now?" When the nurse said "No," he couldn't help feeling a little disappointed.

(End of this chapter)