concubines

Chapter 243 Despair
It's been three days, Zhou Shuxuan is supposed to go up and down, and it's time to take a rest, as if nothing happened, acting abnormally calm.

All the people who should be locked up are locked up, and he doesn't want to see any of them now.Seeing them would only upset him, and it was okay to pretend to be the same now.

On the surface it is one thing, but in reality it is another.After reading a few memorials, I couldn't stand it anymore, and threw the notebooks aside in annoyance, no matter how I pretended, I was deceiving myself

Whether he likes to admit it or not, this event has had a huge impact on his life, and some things have been completely subverted.

I calmed down to think about things, but I heard someone whispering in my ear.Looking back, she saw that Madam Xi was talking to Gao Fu.

"What are you talking about?" Zhou Shuxuan asked.

I started talking about something terrible when I was around him, but I didn't dare to say it very loudly, which made him habitually worried
Mother Xi knelt down and said, "Go back to the emperor, I want to ask Eunuch Gao for help."

"whats the matter?"

"My servant saw that there was a vegetable Buddha jumping over the wall in the emperor's lunch meal. The emperor didn't use a few mouthfuls. The servant wanted to beg that dish to be given to the servant. This matter is not in accordance with the rules, so I dare not speak up. Please punish the emperor."

It wasn't a big deal, he thought it was something, and was worrying for nothing.However, Mammy Xi has always been prudent in her work, so she would not know that it was against the rules and still do so.

"I know you are not a glutton, why do you want to do it?"

"The maidservant remembered that the empress dowager liked this dish the most, but the cooking was complicated and cumbersome, and ordinary empresses couldn't eat it, let alone the empress dowager who was not favored at that time. Moreover, the servants in the palace always underestimated and praised the high. Dare to skimp, even more expensive dishes. But sometimes the imperial dining room will cook for the late emperor, and the late emperor doesn't like seafood very much, so he often doesn't move a bite. The slaves used to come here often to beg for the late emperor's side. People, I want the Queen Mother to be more satisfied with the food. When the servant saw the dish today, he thought of the Queen Mother and felt a little sad."

It's about the past, but it's about the present.

Obviously what he said was irrelevant, but a string in Zhou Shuxuan's heart seemed to be plucked.

Zhou Shuxuan glanced down and said: "I think you are loyal, so I will give you a special case. In the future, you can directly let the imperial dining room make whatever you want to eat, and you don't need to ask for help. Go down."

Mammy Xi stood up and walked out, wondering if he understood.Now no one in the palace is allowed to mention Miaoli's matter, if it is mentioned, it will be a dead end.But they were really worried about Miaoli, they were locked there alone, and they didn't know how they were doing.His health was not very good, and he finally got some improvement, but if he didn't take good care of it, it would be over again.

The emperor was really cruel. After so long, no one came to take care of her. He really regarded her as a concubine who had been thrown into the cold palace.Even in the late emperor's Lenggong, there were several people who accompanied each other. Mother Xi was really worried that no one outside would know Miaoli's death.

Xiaohong waited outside impatiently, and when she saw her coming out, she hurried up to meet her and asked, "Nurse, how is it?"

Grandma Xi shook her head, "I can't guess what the emperor is thinking, if not, I can only ask Concubine Yi, she may still have a few words to say."

Xiao Hong only regrets that she didn't work harder at that time, and she was with Miao Li desperately, no matter how she took care of each other, she wouldn't be as anxious as she is now.

After Mother Xi left for a while, Zhou Shuxuan called Gao Fu over, "Have someone go and see what is sent to Qingquan Palace every day."

He can't be completely not worried, the feelings are always there.He liked her as much as he disappointed her.

I remember that when he was a child, he still lived in Qingquan Palace. Every day he ate stir-fried seasonal vegetables, boiled vegetables, and occasionally two pieces of tofu.Later, it was because the first emperor suddenly remembered that he was also a prince, so he was not so harsh on the diet of Qingquan Palace.

How could she endure such days, when she finally grew some flesh and couldn't go back to the days when the wind blows and she can run away.

Soon Gao Fu came back, wiped the cold sweat off his forehead, and said: "Return to the emperor, it seems that no one has sent food over for the past three days."

Zhou Shuxuan quickly raised his head and stared at him with deathly eyes, "What did you say?!"

Gao Fu felt cold all over, and he knelt on the ground, "This slave deserves to die, this slave is dereliction of duty."

He bears the name of the head of the Ouchi, and whatever happens is his problem.

Zhou Shuxuan just kicked his leg, "What's the use of pleading guilty now, if you don't send someone to deliver food right away. Then arrange a few people to serve her, and all those who served her before will go back. Go!"

Gao Fu stood up and ran out, fearing that he would die if he was too late.

Zhou Shuxuan stood up and wanted to run out like him to see how Miaoli was doing. He couldn't bear it without eating or drinking for three days.I almost stepped over the threshold and took it back, but it can't be like this.His heart is in a mess so quickly, what's the point of letting him face.

When Mother Xi and Xiaohong received the news, they didn't care about anything else, and ran away with the bundles they had packed earlier.

In the most orderly place in the world, where everyone follows the rules, the two of them didn't pay attention to their manners, and ran all the way to the gate of Qingquan Palace, and couldn't wait to push the gate open.Seeing Miaoli standing still alive, my heart was relieved.

Miao Li's hair was simply tied up, and her clothes were covered with dust.His eyes were red and swollen, and he was haggard everywhere.Holding a broken cup in his hand, he stared blankly at them.There is still half of her former demeanor, I don't know how she has spent these three days.

"Niangniang..." Xiaohong covered her mouth and shouted.

Miao Li seemed to be frightened, she shook her hand and the glass fell to the ground, shattered on the spot, spilling all the water in it.Miao Li squatted down and stared at the water, feeling sorry and distressed, wanted to cry but couldn't.

Seeing this scene, Grandma Xi couldn't bear it any longer, she went to squat down and asked, "Mother, it's just a broken cup, it's worthless."

Miao Li said in a floating voice, "I've only caught a little dew since the sky was still dark. I'm really thirsty."

For three days, no one in the palace seemed to care about her life or death. They didn't want to imprison her here, but to trap her here to death.

Xiaohong wiped her tears and ran out to find water for her, unable to say a word.

"The emperor has already sent someone to bring food over. Your majesty just bear with it, and it will be fine soon." Mother Xi helped her to stand up while secretly wiping her tears. She was too old to see such a miserable situation.She thought the worst would be to send some leftovers over, but she didn't expect it to be like this

He held it in his hands as a treasure before, but now he doesn't even care about life and death.Didn't the emperor think about these things?How much she was favored before, how many people now want to take the opportunity to kill her to avoid future troubles.

Miao Li took advantage of her stand to stand up, and finally stood still, only to feel dizzy in front of her eyes, she calmed down to wake herself up, but she didn't have the strength to speak.

After walking a few steps inside, Xiao Hong carefully returned with a glass of water, and quickly handed it to Miao Li.

Miao Li couldn't wait to take it, raised her head and drank it all. The water flowed all the way into her stomach, and she felt that she was alive again, but she still felt hungry, and everything she saw seemed to be eaten.

Xiaohong comforted her with a deep cry, "The food delivery people will be here soon, I have seen them just now."

Miao Li tried her best to endure the discomfort of her body, and sat down on a stool beside her. She had a little energy, and asked with a little lack of strength: "Why are you here?"

"The emperor finally realized with conscience that you have suffered for so long by letting us come and serve you." Xiaohong's voice trembled, enduring the pain in her heart, and she didn't pay much attention to her words.

Miao Li nodded slightly, as if she knew it, and tried not to speak if she could.

Now she doesn't have the energy to think about things, so naturally she doesn't care if her conscience has discovered it.

I have been tortured by hunger for the past few days, and I feel that I am no different from a beast, and I can't control any love.She wanted to commit suicide several times, but there was an inexplicable desire to survive in her heart. She didn't know whether it was brainwashed by Jie Bizhi's words or some other reason. She just wanted to live.

At the beginning, when I was so hungry that I couldn't stand it, I grabbed the edible weeds on the ground, chewed them, and swallowed them abruptly.The cold palace floor is covered with stone bricks, which block the soil of life, only a few weeds in the cracks of the bricks, there is no difference between eating and not eating.

But she wanted to live, very, very much.But no one in this huge palace seemed to want to survive. When she knocked on the door, the only response to her was the shaking of the lock.There seemed to be no one guarding her outside, no one passing by, and no one would come to rescue her.

If outside, maybe some people would feel sorry for her and give her a leftover steamed bun, but no one in the palace would feel sorry for her.In addition to those who want her to die, there are those who are afraid of being involved in trouble by her.

In the empty courtyard, outside of her, there was only overwhelming despair.

She rummaged through the entire Qingquan Palace, trying to find something to eat, even moldy pastries, but she found nothing, so she could only sit on the steps and cry in embarrassment.There is no decency at all, only animal instinct at the moment of life and death, and there is no such thing as human decency.

When she woke up from hunger in the middle of the night, she realized that love is not a necessity of life, but food is.In just two days, she no longer wanted to remember what that person looked like.

There are so many ways to die, but she was given such an unbearable one, which tortured her to death.Maybe someone was watching her where she didn't see it, taking in all of her pain.

It's like how much pain she gave him, he will give her back as much pain.

Soon after the meal came, Miao Li devoured several bowls of porridge, and wanted to eat more, but Mammy Xi held her hand, and forcibly pulled the chopsticks out of her hand. "Your Majesty, I can't eat any more."

If you don't eat for a long time, people will not be able to bear it if you suddenly eat too much.

Miao Li hugged her and cried bitterly, "But I'm hungry, I'm hungry, I'm really hungry."

(End of this chapter)