Gu Pan Sheng Zi

Chapter 47N.58
Ye Murong woke up when the sun shone into the room.He silently stood up and stared at me silently.

And I woke up long ago, or rather stayed up all night.

Ye Murong's oppressive feeling gradually approached, and his soft lips fell on the corner of my mouth, kissing me gently.

I opened my eyes, and Ye Murong's dark eyes were smiling, and the corners of his mouth were curved into a big arc, and he said with a smile, "Morning."

"Morning." I was about to sit up, but Ye Murong stretched out an arm to push me down, turned over and came up to kiss me.

I stopped him and said, "Let's talk."

Ye Murong's expression froze for a moment, then his face turned cold, he put his arms on me and looked at me and said, "You've woken up a long time ago."

"Yes."

The chill in Ye Murong's eyes gradually rose, like the light of the moon. After staring for a long time, he sighed, got up and said to me: "Let's go have breakfast."

Ye Murong didn't want to eat in the hotel, so he dragged me for two streets before finding a ramen shop that he was satisfied with.

I ate udon noodles, soft noodles and thick soup. On the streets of foreign countries, the bone broth went straight into the stomach and was warm.

Ye Murong seemed to have a particularly good appetite, he ate two bowls of noodles in a row, he ate very quickly, all his mind was in the bowl, he ate the noodles and drank the soup, and he didn't even look at his surroundings.

When he asked for the third bowl, I stopped him, suppressed the sadness in my heart and said in a calm tone: "Don't eat. You are already full."

Ye Murong stared at me fiercely, "It's not like you're full when you say you're full."

I couldn't suppress my sadness, and I was afraid that I would cry if I spoke again, so I could only look at Ye Murong pleadingly.

Under my watchful eyes, his domineering hostility gradually dissipated, and he slowly put down his hand that raised the face. He looked at the big bowl in front of him in a daze, and didn't look at me. He smiled wryly: "It's not that you said no. You can't love it if you love it."

He had already guessed it.

This is the decision I thought about overnight.He asked me, what should we do?Now I finally have an answer.

I said: "Ye Murong, your life is so wonderful, and the emotions related to you are all strong. I have loved you and hated you, very strong, and this has almost exhausted all my emotions. And now , I am no longer young..."

"Pan Zi!"

"Listen to me. It can be seen that you have changed a lot in the past four years, but I have changed even more. I am raising a daughter, and I deal with daily necessities, from pinyin to English letters. Teach her. I no longer care about matching clothes or what kind of perfume to wear. I only care about whether my daughter will get cold and whether the food is nutritious. Let’s put it this way, Ye Murong, I can’t afford it. I can’t love anymore. I just hope to live an ordinary life, maybe I will find someone, as long as I like it lightly, I don’t need to love too much, just live like this.”

"Pan Zi." Ye Murong grabbed my hand and squeezed it hard, "We can also live a normal life, you and me!"

I smiled bleakly, and looked down at his veined hand, "If possible, I would like to live like this with you. However, you are Ye Murong, and the word plain has nothing to do with you. You see, your emotions are always Intense, like love and hate. Ye Murong, if I were still 22-year-old Gu Panzi, and you treated me so affectionately, I would definitely love you with my heart. But, I am already 28 years old, and I cannot afford to love you like this. I can't afford to hurt you. So, I don't love you anymore, this is my decision!"

Ye Murong lowered his head and did not speak for a long time.On winter mornings, we sat in front of the bar of the ramen shop for a long time, letting the sadness spread.

After a long time, Ye Murong raised his head, looked at me with cold eyes and said: "This is your decision? Gu Panzi, you still refused to give me a chance and sentenced me to death. I said we can live a normal life, but you refused Not even giving me a chance. Is that fair?"

"It has nothing to do with fairness. Back then, you said we could go on, and asked me if I was afraid? I was not afraid, I was willing to try, no matter what the result was, I could bear it. But now, you said you can, but I don't have the courage to continue Try it, because I can't afford the consequences."

"How do you know the result must be bad?"

"Then can you say that the result must be good?"

Ye Murong sighed, "You look like this, even if I swear by the Jade Emperor, you won't believe it. What do you want me to do?"

"It's very simple, just give up. Ye Murong, you are as tired as I am."

"Gu Panzi!"

Little by little, I took my hand out of Ye Murong's, and he held it tightly, until the back of my hand turned blue when he pinched it.With my other hand, I opened his fingers one by one, ten fingers connected to the heart, and the pain of each finger was accurately transmitted to the heart.When I finally freed my hand, I told Ye Murong firmly with a clear voice, "Ye Murong, I decided not to love you anymore."

At this moment, behind us is the snow-covered Mount Fuji all year round.

It started in Tokyo and ended in Tokyo, I think, this is the end.

(End of this chapter)