sleepless tonight

Chapter 144 Slap
"Still bloated?" I asked Tong Wangjun.

"Well, it's very uncomfortable. Xiao Le is two years old, and she still feels the same way. Occasionally, she seeps out while running." Tong Wangjun nodded, and was also very troubled by this matter.

My breathing was a little heavy, and my voice trembled: "How about I rub it for you?"

Tong Wangjun didn't look at me, and didn't answer my words, just nodded his head.

My hand pressed it quickly.

The breath in the quilt suddenly became charming, and I smelled a faint milk fragrance.

Tong Wangjun's breathing also became heavy, and she let out a soft hum, her legs stirred gently under the quilt, as if giving me a signal, I jumped on it.

The rationality in my mind has been completely washed away by hormones, and I lowered my head to explore.

Tong Wangjun lightly pushed me twice and then stopped struggling. I wantonly snatched the food that originally belonged to Chen Le.

My hand slid down Tong Wangjun's waist, touched a piece of clothing that was in the way, and pulled it down vigorously.

Although it was the first time in the true sense, there was no need to learn many things on purpose. Under the control of hormones, I knew what I should do next.

Tong Wangjun didn't resist, I successfully got rid of the last obstacle, and I was about to fulfill my final dream.

"Are you responsible?" Tong Wangjun said suddenly.

I froze for a moment, stopped moving, and looked at her, a little puzzled.

Tong Wangjun's face was very flat, he lowered his head, and met my eyes: "I'm ovulating."

Ovulation period means possible pregnancy.

My expression changed, and I became weak all of a sudden, and my reason returned to my mind in an instant: "I'm sorry."

"If you are willing to take responsibility, you can continue, I will not stop you." Tong Wangjun said.

The look in Tong Wangjun's eyes made me dare not look at her, I got off her body in a panic, and I was speechless for a long time.

"You don't dare anymore?" Tong Wangjun seemed to be sneering, with resentment in his smile, "Are you reluctant to part with Tang Wan, or are you reluctant to part with Su Ran?"

"Stop talking, I'm sorry." Tong Wangjun's resentment didn't make me feel angry, but made me ashamed. I didn't know how to deal with it, and I was so ashamed.

"Why don't you say it? Don't you want to know why I divorced you? As I said, it's not because you don't make progress, nor because you gamble, but because you have another person in your heart. Responsibility married me, but you still think about Logan." Tong Wangjun cried.

I was a little at a loss and didn't know how to comfort her. I never thought that Tang Wangjun divorced me because of this.I originally thought she wouldn't care about my feelings for her, because my combination with her was an accident, not to mention feelings, so how could she care if I have other women in my heart?

"What you said is true? But didn't I force you? Don't you mind at all, would you care if there are other women in my heart?" I said suspiciously.

"It's true that I was forced, but after all, we got a marriage certificate, and I was pregnant with a child. I gave birth to a child before we were married, and I gave birth to a child before the legal marriage age. Do you know how scared I am? For a long time, I didn’t even dare to tell my family, but I just endured the anxiety in silence.” Tong Wangjun sobbed softly, and seemed to have a lot of grievances in his heart, “For you, your parents are worried that you will be punished by the criminal law. Kneeling in front of me and begging for my forgiveness, I agreed and said that you are my boyfriend. But do you know how much pressure I was under? I went to school with a big belly and suffered strange eyes from others , and you, drinking every day, eventually got into gambling."

"But you are not useless, at least you know how to care about me. When I vomit, you will ask for care, make breakfast for me, buy some fruits every two days, peel them and put them on my bedside, and occasionally walk with me Walking, you even went into the delivery room to accompany me when I was giving birth in the hospital, hugging my daughter every day and refusing to let go, I am also a person, how could I not feel anything about these things?"

"But in the end I found out that the reason why you did this was not because you liked me, but because of responsibility. You thought of Logan in your heart, and felt that you were forced to marry me out of helplessness. I was sorry for her and let Logan down. Your chances of going to college were ruined, so you gambled, drank, succumbed to depravity, and punished yourself in this way, it is useless for me to persuade you, and it is useless for your parents to persuade you."

"Looking at you depressed and drunk every day, you can't even find your way home. It's winter and you haven't come home yet. I'm at home with two children, and I still worry about you. I'm really about to be overwhelmed. Yes. After thinking about it, since you miss Logan so much, then I will give you freedom and no longer bind you."

My heart is very heavy. I didn't expect Tong Wangjun to have such feelings for me. She divorced me because of this reason. She divorced me to fulfill me. I turned my head and looked at her: "I'm sorry."

In addition to these three words, I don't know how to express the emotions in my heart.

I can only say sorry to her.

"I'm sorry? I just know I'm sorry. Can you say anything else? You divorced me, but you didn't stay with Tang Wan, but you got closer to Su Ran. You and Su Ran also know each other. It's only two months, so it seems that you don't really love Logan that much in your heart, drinking and smoking is just an excuse, just an excuse for not wanting to be with me." Tong Wangjun said.

"I lost my memory, and I don't remember many things." I said.

"The memory you lost is only about me. What does it have to do with Logan?" Tong Wangjun said disdainfully, "In the end, you just want to run away from me because you don't want to bear the pressure and take responsibility. Scumbags, see one and love the other."

My heart hurts, Tong Wangjun's words hurt me deeply.

I wondered, is what she said true?I'm really a scumbag, love one when I see one?
Tong Wangjun, Tang Wan, Su Ran, these three women are constantly changing in my mind, and I don't know who I really like, or all three of them, but this is against morality, and I might really be a scumbag.

"I'm sorry, I'm just a scum." I didn't have the face to face Tong Wangjun again, I got off the bed and put on my coat and went out silently.

Walking to the field outside the village, I took out the cigarette in my pocket and lit one for myself.

I put on the coat, but because of the smoke in it, the stimulating smell spreads in the lungs, which can slightly relieve the discomfort in my head and the pain in my chest.

Smoking and smoking, I suddenly cried and slapped myself hard.

I'm really not human, I always feel that I don't accept gifts from my friends, and I don't call them easily when I have difficulties. I am loyal enough. As a friend, I consciously don't cause trouble for them. I endure any pain by myself. That's a friend, I'm good enough, I'm a good person.

But in fact, as Tong Wangjun said, I'm just a scumbag.

I drink, smoke, and gamble just to evade responsibility and pressure. Maybe I haven’t seen myself clearly all this time, but Tong Wangjun has seen me through and knows myself better than myself.

I was thinking about what to do in the future, how should I face Tong Wangjun, Tang Wan, and Su Ran.

My head hurts a little, I didn't think of a solution, my head was a mess, I didn't have a clue, the more I thought about it, the more I had a headache, I just smoked a cigarette dully in the end.

When it was a little bright, I went home quietly again, opened the door and put on my clothes.

"Are you going out to smoke again?" Tong Wangjun asked me, she was still awake.

"Go to sleep for a while, I'll go down and make breakfast, you'll get up and eat later." I said.

"You don't need to be under so much pressure. Since you and I are divorced, you don't have to be responsible for me. You don't have to worry about the two daughters. I can take care of them myself." Tong Wangjun said suddenly.

I don't know if she cares about me or ridicules me, even if it's the latter, I can't get angry, because my guilt and hurt to her are nothing compared to this ridicule.

I really hope that Tong Wangjun will beat me hard, so that I may feel better in my heart.

"Let's go back early today, and go back after breakfast." I said, "Hurry up and sleep for a while, and you still have to drive."

"What are you doing so early when you go back? What's your business?" Tong Wangjun asked me.

"Go back early and help Ake buy a piano together." I said.

(End of this chapter)