sleepless tonight

Chapter 174 Regret
"By the way, where is A Ke? I've already bought the piano. Why haven't I seen her?" Xu Heng looked around and asked.

"In the room, he is angry." Tong Wangjun pointed.

"Angry? What's the matter, is it because you didn't buy the piano, or because you said her?" Xu Heng looked at me, then at Tong Wangjun, "A Ke is only eight years old, and she has only learned the piano for a short time. That's good enough, you can't be too harsh on her."

I don't know if Xu Heng did it on purpose, he was guessing the reason for Chen Ke's anger, but I always felt that his tone was a bit wrong, as if it was intentional, he deliberately guessed in the side direction, and deliberately guessed wrong.

"It's not because of this, it's because her father reprimanded her, saying that there was lipstick in her schoolbag, and she shouldn't accept other people's gifts, so she ran into the room and hid." Tong Wangjun explained.

Xu Heng sat on the stool by himself, stroked the piano with his hand, played it for a while, and then turned to look at me: "It is normal for classmates to give gifts to each other in noble schools. This is a basic social interaction. What’s abnormal. You can’t understand the way of learning in aristocratic schools with the way of learning in ordinary schools. In aristocratic schools, academic performance is not the most important thing. The most important thing in schools is to cultivate students’ comprehensive quality, social, Etiquette, art, learning, etc. are the real quality education, which is completely different from the quality education that we see in ordinary high schools that sells dog meat."

"I don't care about quality education or not. All I know is that A Ke is only eight years old. There shouldn't be lipstick in her gift. This in itself is abnormal." I said.

"What's abnormal? I don't know if you have heard a saying that different people will have different perceptions when reading the same book. For example, Jin Ping Mei. If you read Jin Ping Mei and feel compassion, it means you have a heart of Buddha. If If you feel fear after reading Jin Ping Mei, you are a gentleman; if you feel joy, you are a villain; if you want to follow suit, you are a beast." Xu Heng said calmly.

"You are angry when you see lipstick in A Ke's schoolbag. In fact, the reason is the same. I think the reason why you are angry is not because someone gave A Ke a gift, but because someone gave her a gift of lipstick. You think it is abnormal, you think that an eight-year-old girl should not be a gift from others, but in my opinion, there is nothing abnormal about giving lipstick, it is just an ordinary gift, you really think too much. "

"It doesn't hurt to stand and talk. A Ke is not your daughter, so you can say that. Lipstick is not something a child can use at all. What kind of person would give lipstick to an eight-year-old child?" His explanation It was far-fetched at all, and I wasn't convinced.

"Okay, let's go. I asked you to come to accompany A Ke and Xiao Le, but you reprimanded A Ke as soon as you came. I got a double bachelor’s degree at the time, and I understand psychology, so I’m sure I’m more aware of children’s psychology than you are. Don’t always put your own thoughts on others. Children’s thoughts are very simple, how can they have what you imagined? So dirty?" Tong Wangjun said to me.

She wanted to drive me away, and I actually didn't want to stay here any longer, so I knocked on the door of the room: "A Ke, Dad is going back, will you go back with me?"

Chen Ke's school is on vacation for two days. I can take her back and send her over tomorrow.

I waited at the door for a while, but Chen Ke didn't answer me. I turned the doorknob again and found that the door was locked from the inside.

"Then dad will go back first, and come to see you next time." I glanced at the door, but there was no movement inside, and Chen Ke didn't want to talk to me.

My heart hurts a little, Chen Ke would never do this, but now she closes the door and ignores me, and doesn't answer my words, could it be that I was really wrong, shouldn't she be reprimanded?

I glanced at the lipstick in my hand, put it on the table, and clapped my hands at Chen Le: "Xiao Le, hug me."

Xu Heng was playing the piano, and the music sounded. Chen Le was listening beside her. Xu Heng picked her up and sat on his lap. Chen Le's little hands were carelessly pressing on the piano keys, very excited.

I stood up, sighed, and walked out the door.

Tong Wangjun just glanced at me and didn't follow me out. I closed the door, fumbled in my pocket, and took out a cigarette to light myself.

"Uncle Xu, you're here." I heard Chen Ke's voice, she left the room and seemed to run to Xu Heng's side.

"Come on, come here, sit here and let Uncle see what you have learned in school and whether you have improved on the piano." Xu Heng greeted my daughter.

"I'll bring another stool over." Tong Wangjun cooperated beside him.

A needle seemed to be stuck in my chest. I was in severe pain. I stood at the door, exhaling smoke slowly. I wanted to hear some more noises. I wanted to hear Chen Ke’s question. I wanted to hear Tong Wangjun’s words. Explain for me.

But no, nothing, only laughter and the sound of music from time to time, Tong Wangjun did not explain to Chen Ke, did not ease the relationship in front of Chen Ke for me, Chen Ke did not ask me, but smiled and played there. Competing with Chen Le for the piano, talking and laughing with Xu Heng.

The laughter inside is accompanied by the sound of the piano from time to time. I imagined that scene, it should be very warm.

It's a pity that it has nothing to do with me. It seems that I came here only to pay for the piano and to help move the piano.

I've become borderline.

Suddenly there was a voice in the room, very close to me, I ran away in a bit of a hurry, and hurried down the stairs, afraid of being discovered.

Out of the community, I suddenly felt some irony, why should I run away?Inside is my daughter, my ex-wife, why should I run away?Xu Heng is just an outsider. In front of Tong Wangjun, Chen Ke and Chen Le, I should be closer than Xu Heng, but why was I the one who ran away?

Unknowingly, it seems that I have become an outsider.

I always thought that Xu Heng was an outsider to Tong Wangjun, Chen Ke, and Chen Le.

I reached into my pocket with my hand, the cigarette had already been smoked, I kneaded the cigarette case into a ball, and threw it into the trash can.

I walked casually without a goal. I bought a cigarette in a small grocery store, but I didn’t smoke it in my hand. I didn’t go back immediately. After walking a certain distance, I went around to the Tongwangjun community and found a place to sit. down.

I'm waiting, waiting for Tong Wangjun to call me, Chen Ke may think of me, think of my father, and want to see me, so I take out my phone and look at it from time to time.

But time passed by, and the sky gradually darkened, and my cell phone didn't ring.

"Did something happen to the young man, do you want to help?" Someone was talking to me, I looked up, and a sanitation worker was standing in front of me, she was still holding a few hot buns in her hand, and handed them to me Smiling, "I see you have been sitting here for a long time, most of the time, take the buns and eat them, I just bought them and they are still warm."

"No, thank you." I smiled awkwardly.

"Hold it, fill your stomach, and you'll feel better. There are no hurdles in life that you can't overcome, so let's take things lightly." The sanitation worker stuffed the buns into my hands, "I still have to go to work, It's cold today, so go home early."

I stood up, looked at the sanitation workers who were cleaning the streets, and looked at the buns in my hand, finally decided not to wait, and was ready to go back.

I raised my head and glanced in the direction of Tongwangjun Community. After watching for a while, I took the buns into the subway station and got on the subway line to the train station.

Although some things are reluctant to part with each other, they seem to be drifting away.

On the side, with some gray hair, there was a 60-year-old sanitation worker wielding a large bamboo broom, sweeping the street with difficulty but hard.

At this age, she should have enjoyed her life at home, but she was working against the cold wind.

Who doesn't want to enjoy life, be happy, and have grandchildren, but life is destined not to be so happy, and everyone has more or less regrets.

There may be many regrets in life, but there are more responsibilities waiting for me.

The third branch has already opened. I rushed back at this point, and it should not be closed yet. I just went to see how the business was doing.

(End of this chapter)