sleepless tonight

Chapter 315 Who to choose

I suddenly discovered that Tang Xin's marriage values ​​were somewhat similar to mine.

This scares me a bit.

I thought I was a maverick.My marriage values ​​are different from those of the general public. Most people succumb to the secular marriage values ​​and stick to certificate registration.

But I am different. I think that if there is love and affection between two people, there will be no relationship even if they don't get a certificate. I even said that I have been looking forward to it. If Su Ran, Tong Wangjun, and Logan agree, maybe we can do it together. After receiving the certificate, several people lived happily together.

Love is enough, no matter what other people think, as long as you are happy and satisfied.

I only thought about this kind of thought in my heart, and never said it out. I even felt that my view of love and my value of marriage were very lofty.

Those people beside me are all pedantic and stick to the status quo. Only I can see through it. Even if they object, it doesn't matter, because they are all pedantic, can't see through, and haven't seen the true essence of marriage.

But now, in Tang Xin's body, I found a marriage value similar to mine, and her marriage value behavior is actually disgusting to me.

I was struck by lightning, and suddenly felt that my previous thoughts were naive and selfish.

I hate Tang Xin's behavior. I think her behavior is very irresponsible and disgusting. I even wanted to slap her twice to show Yu off.

But my concept is somewhat similar to hers in some aspects. I hate her behavior. Doesn't it mean that my behavior should also be hated by me?It's just because I was in a dark place under the lights, I didn't notice it, and even felt that my marriage values ​​were correct.

contradiction.

In fact, from beginning to end, my marital values ​​are the product of my self-indulgence.

I don't know how I got out of the villa, and how I got to the classroom. I didn't pay attention to the class all afternoon, and all I could think about was what Tang Xin said.

I don't know what to do.

On the surface, I am stronger than Tang Xin, at least I have not meddled in other people's marriages, but this is only the appearance, in fact, I have hurt many people, Tong Wangjun, Tang Wan, and even Su Ran may all be killed by me. harm.

I didn't go back to E City. After class in the afternoon, I drove the car to the riverside alone, found a place to squat down, and smoked silently.

Looking at the turbid river water and the ships and ferries slowly passing by on the river, I was very confused.

The incident between Tang Xin and Zhou Kai had a huge impact on me, and it caused some changes in my values. I was originally firm and something happened to shake me.

The problem that I always wanted to avoid and didn't want to face appeared in front of me again, but I didn't know how to make a choice, and I didn't know how to face it.

I am not ready yet.

Tong Wangjun, Su Ran, Logan, who should I choose?
Is it still like now, vacillating among the three people, swinging back and forth all the time, or stepping on several boats?

As long as there is love in my heart, I don’t care about other worldly concepts, just follow my heart?

But if I really do this, wouldn't I become a person like Tang Xin?

Can I do it, can I do that?
I'm at a loss.

I really wish I hadn't met so many women, I really wish I only met one woman, no matter if it was Tong Wangjun, whether it was Logan, no matter what happened to Su Ran, it didn't matter, I only needed one.

But now there are three people.

It was already very late, and I had run out of cigarettes, so I stood up reluctantly, although I still wanted to squat here, to hide here, not to face, not to choose, but I Know it's impossible.

It is impossible for me to hide here all the time, it is impossible to escape all the time, no matter what the result is, whether I choose or not, there will be a result in the end.

My cell phone rang, and Tong Wangjun called me: "Aren't you coming back today?"

"I won't go back, I'll go back in two days." I said, "How is your business going, are you busy? If you don't have time to pick up the children, just tell my mother and ask my mother to pick up the two children. "

"I came here in a hurry. To start a studio is not to start a company. There are only two or three people. The procedure is much simpler than starting a company." Tong Wangjun said, "By the way, Mom came here today and brought chicken soup."

"You don't have a good appetite now, if you can't drink chicken soup, don't drink it." I said.

"I drank more than half of it, and it was not greasy at all. The chicken soup tasted very good. When I was pregnant with Ake and Xiaole, my mother always made chicken soup for me. The taste was very good, and it was better than those made in hotels outside The food is even more delicious. I kept half of it, and A Ke and Xiao Lele shared it when they came back." Tong Wangjun said.

"It's fine if you like it." I nodded, "Xiao Le is still used to it in school, is there any problem?"

Chen Le went to kindergarten on the first day, and the problem of not speaking was still unsolved. I was worried that something would happen to her at school.

"There's no problem. I'll be fine when I come back." Tong Wangjun said, "Don't worry too much."

"Check to see if there are any scars on Xiao Le's body, such as needle holes or something like that. He and she can't speak, so pay more attention." I reminded.

"You don't need to remind me. I checked her when I bathed her just now. It's fine. There's nothing wrong with it. Don't think too much about it. After all, such things are rare." Tong Wangjun said.

"You have to pay attention to the few." I said, paused for a while, and organized my wording, "You should invest some funds in the early stage to open a studio. If there is anything I can help, please let me know. you are welcome."

"No, I can do it myself." Tong Wangjun refused.

"What are you going to do with your studio?" I asked.

"It's better to advertise. After all, I'm familiar with this and it's easy to use. I've accumulated some customers when I was in the company. I have these resources and I can take advantage of them." Tong Wangjun said.

"Even if you want to open a studio, you must have a place to work. Where do you work, you will spend money on renting a house, water and electricity, and buying equipment. You really don't have to be polite to me." I really want to help Tong Wangjun. If you have to give something for her, you will feel better.

"You don't have to worry about these. My former colleague still has some savings, and the daily expenses of the studio are actually not too big, so she can support it." Tong Wangjun said.

"Is it okay for her to pay alone? She won't have thoughts in her heart, right?" I asked, "Don't be embarrassed, I still have some money with me."

"The relationship between me and her is relatively good. Don't worry, it's okay. The money she invested will be returned when the studio makes profits." Tong Wangjun just didn't ask me for money.

I sighed, and didn't persuade her anymore: "It's good that you know what's in your mind, go to rest early, pay attention, don't be too tired."

I hung up the phone, and I said I felt in my pocket. I wanted to smoke a cigarette, but my pocket was deflated. Then I realized that I had finished smoking just now. I turned around and got into the car, but I didn’t want to go back to the villa. start the car.

I don't want to see Tang Xin. Whenever I see her, I think of Yu Lu. I am a little hesitant. I don't know how to tell Yu Lu, whether I should tell Yu Lu about this matter.

Reason tells me that long-term pain is worse than short-term pain. Since Zhou Kai has already had such a thing with Tang Xin and has a relationship, it is tantamount to betraying Yu Lu. It's okay if I didn't see it, but since I found out, I should Tell Yu Lu.

But I was afraid, I was afraid that Yu Lu would not be able to bear this kind of pain, I was afraid that Yu Lu would do extreme things.

But is it really good to keep it hidden like this?

Yu Lu is almost thirty, and she has no children yet. When she has a child, she suddenly finds that Zhou Kai doesn't have her in his heart. How should she deal with herself at that time?
Time is much crueler for women than for men. When a woman loses her face, has children, and her body is out of shape, there is nothing attractive about her, and her options will be greatly reduced.

Sighing, I picked up my phone and made a call.

(End of this chapter)