sleepless tonight

Chapter 551 But She's Gone

I looked at Su Ran, and I hoped that Su Ran could return to her previous appearance. The most attractive thing about her was not her appearance, but her temperament.

Femininity comes first, appearance comes second.

Su Ran's generosity will make people feel ashamed. Compared with other women, this advantage on her body is like the warm sun in winter, which can make people feel comfortable all over and want to be close to her.

But now, just because of Shen Chong's few words, Su Ran's temperament has changed immediately, and her advantage has disappeared, which makes me very disappointed and terrified.

Why does one person like another person?

There can be no reason, whether it is because of appearance, money, power, fame, or something else, after all, there must be an attractive element in it to be liked by others.

If there is nothing at all, then there is only a transaction between the two people.

Kind of like a clubhouse.

Su Ran and I are obviously not in the same situation. Su Ran’s tolerance attracts me, and her loneliness makes me want to care for her. But when her tolerance disappears, can I still maintain my original intention towards her? ?Can I still like her like I used to?

The two loved each other desperately at the beginning, but there were some accidents in the middle, and the relationship deteriorated. In the end, they broke up. There are always some reasons. The biggest possibility is that one party's personality has changed, and the other party cannot accept it. together.

There are many cases of this kind of situation in life. Two people who were passionately in love have only known each other for a month or two, and they stick together every day. They can't wait to find a rope to tie their hands together. I also want to go together. I can send hundreds of text messages a day, and I feel uncomfortable when I don’t meet each other, like an addiction.

But after the two people got married and lived together for a period of time, they got to know each other better, and the originally hidden personalities were exposed. At this time, there were problems in the relationship between the two people, from small to big quarrels, Even to the final fight.

Faced with such a situation, can we simply say that a certain person has changed his mind, which is why this phenomenon occurs?
In fact, it’s not a change of heart, it’s just a better understanding of each other. Although the person I knew before and the person I know now are the same individual, they have actually changed, their personality has changed, and their habits have changed. It can be said that apart from the body, they are already two completely different people.

It's quite normal to have quarrels if we don't get together.

I'm very afraid, afraid that Su Ran will change, I'm afraid that after she changes, my state of mind will also change.

"Actually, what Shen Chong said is not unreasonable. I know he is deliberately provoking us, so I don't just listen to what he says. I listen selectively." Su Ran also looked at me, " I love you too, but I'm a little worried, worried that you will appear in the situation that Shen Chong said, and you will be with other women."

"But when I was with Tong Wangjun before, you didn't say you were like this. Shao Siqi, I, and Liu Shuang really have nothing to do with each other. There is nothing between us. Shen Chong is just looking into your eyes. Sha, you have to recognize this.” I said, “I hope you are still the original you, the original tolerant person, don’t change because of other people’s words, I like you, I love you, because of you Tolerance and generosity are because you have these unique temperaments."

"If I don't let you have contact with these opposite sexes, will you stop loving me, or if I remind you that if you don't contact these opposite sexes, you will stop loving me?" Su Ran suddenly said this In a word.

I took a deep breath, not knowing how to answer Su Ran.

"You have to answer according to your own heart, don't tell lies." Su Ran seemed to see my thoughts and reminded me.

"I don't know, but I'm very afraid that you will become like that." I said, "The reason why people are human, and the reason why people are different individuals, is because everyone's personality is different. , then this person will be different from the person I met at the beginning.”

"But you, in my eyes, are no different from the original you." Su Ran told me.

I froze for a moment, Su Ran's answer made me a little overwhelmed, and I didn't know how to deal with it.

"I'm going to take a shower." Su Ran didn't talk to me about this anymore, went downstairs, went to the bathroom, and closed the door of the bathroom.

I looked at the translucent glass door, and saw Su Ran's figure reflected on the door. I was thinking about one thing, so my cognition must be right?
If a person's personality has changed, does it mean that the feelings for this person will definitely change?

At the beginning, I thought it would change, but what Su Ran said just now gave me a feeling of enlightenment, it seems that my cognition is just my cognition, not necessarily everyone's cognition, and Not necessarily right.

To be more precise, my cognition may be correct for me, but it may not be correct for others.

I stood at the door of the bathroom, looked at it for a while, and finally went back to the room.

This is the first time that Su Ran and I have some conflicts.

At first, I thought that there would be no conflicts between Su Ran and me. Even if there were some small frictions, we would disappear if we said a few words to each other, and it would not involve issues of outlook on life like it is now.

Sure enough, everything is taken for granted by me. When they are not together, no matter how suitable the two people look, no matter how eye-catching, but when they really come together, live together, and live together, conflicts will still break out.

This night, I didn't sleep well and kept guarding the door.

Although the door was closed, it was not locked. I expected that Su Ran would come in and have a heart-to-heart talk with me, but she didn't come. I heard some movement outside. Su Ran was walking around after taking a shower. After walking by, she paused for a while, but she still didn't push the door open or knock.

She kept walking, and I heard her coming upstairs.

I turned off the lights in the room, and the lights were always on, originally to guide her and want her to come in.

But she is gone.

There was no point in keeping the lights on. I sat on the bed and kept thinking, what should I do?How should this problem be solved?

Do I want to cut off contact with friends of the opposite sex as Su Ran wants, or stick to myself, let Su Ran change, and make her the same as before?

With silence, with cold war, to make Su Ran return to his previous appearance, to make Su Ran ignore Shen Chong's words?
Should I change myself, or follow her?
I don't know how to solve it, I'm stuck in a dilemma.

I felt a little pain in my chest, and I was so panicked that I beat it twice with my hands. I lit another cigarette and only smoked halfway. The pain in my chest became more intense. I extinguished the remaining half of the cigarette. I opened the window and took a big breath of the outside air, and my chest felt a little more comfortable.

This night I suffered from insomnia, and my chest hurts from time to time. I fell asleep in a daze, but woke up from the pain again, and it didn’t get better until seven or eight o’clock in the morning. It was already dawn , I just got up.

Su Ran's car outside the villa is no longer there, she must have gone to the company, I simply ordered a bowl of noodles for myself.

After taking two bites, I couldn’t take it anymore. I kept coughing, and my chest hurt so badly. I curled up on the ground, and when I coughed, my throat felt a little sweet. When I spat out, I found blood on the saliva.

When I coughed in the past, this would happen even when the cough was severe. I didn't pay much attention to it.It may be that the throat is inflamed, so there is blood.

But the pain in my chest was really unbearable. Without looking in the mirror, I knew that my face must be very ugly.

After squatting on the ground for more than 20 minutes, I got better before I stood up, went out, got in the car, and drove to the hospital.

The pain in my chest made me a little worried, and I wanted to go to the hospital for a checkup or prescribe some medicine.

(End of this chapter)