sleepless tonight

Chapter 586 Why Are You So Violent

I didn't intend to tell Su Ran the reason under such conditions. I originally planned to tell her alone when I was with her, but the situation has become like this, and I can't help it Time to pick.

I want to tell Su Ran that I want to clear up the misunderstanding with her, and I don't want to be troubled by misunderstanding all the time.

There have been misunderstandings between Tong Wangjun, Tang Wan and I. At that time, because I had some scruples, I would have asked about many things on my own initiative. The misunderstandings could be resolved and the answers could be revealed. It was because I had too many scruples and kept silent. Inquiry, resulting in some regrets.

I don't want the relationship between me and Su Ran to become like that between Tong Wangjun and Tang Wan. I really love Su Ran very much, I don't want to argue with her, I just want to have a good time with her.

"What's your reason?" Su Ran looked at me.

"Do you know why I shaved my head?" I pointed to my head and said to Su Ran, "I had to cut all my hair because I was sick."

"You need to cut your hair when you are sick. Could it be that there are too many lice on your head, or you have rotten sores?" Shen Chong laughed, "Don't use these naive lies to deceive Su Ran's feelings. Your trust has almost been worn away by you, and you still use such lies to test her IQ, who are you lying to?"

"Can you fucking be quiet, I'm talking to Su Ran, why are you interrupting?" I turned my head and glared at Shen Chong, "You have nothing to do here, you can get out."

"Chen Jin, just say what you say, and give reasons when you say it. Can you not be so rude? The matter between me and you has nothing to do with Shen Chong. Don't vent your anger on others." Su Ran said.

Shen Chong smiled, stood aside, and did not leave.

I ignored him, and continued to say to Su Ran: "You know why I went to E City to pick up Xiao Le, and when I was about to send her to Tong Wangjun, I told you that I would not come back that night, but later I secretly I didn't tell you when I came back."

"It's because I'm sick and need to take medicine, but I don't want you to find out, so I did that. I don't want you to worry about me, so I avoid you. Shao Siqi has long since left Jiang Xiaoning's house, and I When I brought Xiao Le over there, it was just me and Xiao Le, there was no one else."

"You're sick, why don't you tell me directly and keep it from me?" Su Ran asked me.

"Because I'm afraid that you will be worried, and that you will feel anxious and disturb your life after knowing that I have the disease, so I just want to wait for my illness to recover before I tell you," I said, "I have finished the operation. Immediately afterwards, I came to see you by plane from Wuchang, just to tell you about this matter."

"You hid me and didn't tell me the truth, all because you were sick?" Su Ran said.

"That's right, it's because I'm sick that I have to hide it from you." I nodded, "Should you trust me now?"

"What's wrong with you?" Su Ran asked me.

Su Ran didn't choose to believe me, but asked me what disease I had, and the indelible suspicion in her eyes hurt me a little.

It seems that I explained clearly, and Su Ran didn't choose to believe me right away, she was still puzzled.

My heart stings again, and many things have changed.It's a little hard for me to understand why this happened. It's completely different from what I expected. I originally thought that as long as I told Su Ran the real reason, she would immediately believe me without any hesitation. They may even feel sorry for me, thinking that in order not to worry her, I endured the torment of illness and the pain of being misunderstood, which is great and loves her.

But the result turned out to be like this, I was too wishful thinking, I misunderstood the problem, and my thinking was too simple.

"I have lung cancer." I still told my illness, "After the surgery, I went through chemotherapy, and now I am basically cured, but I also lost a lot of hair, so I simply cut my head bald."

"Aren't you here to be funny?" Shen Chong spoke again, "Lung cancer? You will get lung cancer at such a young age. You don't do hard work, and you haven't dealt with dust and other things. How can you get lung cancer? Even It's a lie, and there is no way of deception like yours, do you regard Su Ran as an idiot?"

I was really angry, turned around and punched Shen Chong on the nose: "Fuck you, you're not me, and you haven't experienced what I have experienced, how can you be so sure that I don't have lung cancer , how can you be so sure that I'm lying?"

Nosebleeds flowed from Shen Chong's nose, and the bridge of his nose was broken by my punch.

"Are you okay?" Su Ran asked Shen Chong, "Your nose is bleeding."

"It's okay, it's okay, I probably talked about his sore spot, that's why he became so angry." Shen Chong stepped back and said to Su Ran, "Don't touch me, there is blood on my nose. Your body is all dirty, it's not easy to wash off."

"Where's your tissue, I'll wipe it for you." Su Ran took out a tissue from Shen Chong's pocket, opened it, and helped Shen Chong stop the nosebleed.

"Leave him alone and let him bleed to death. This person is so annoying just like Xu Heng. Don't look at him usually serious and pretending to be a gentleman. Know how dirty. I'm talking to you, but he kept muttering on the sidelines." I pulled Su Ran, "Come back to Wuchang with me."

Su Ran turned around and looked at me: "Why are you so violent? Talk as you say, why beat people and implicate innocent people?"

"It's not about my violence, it's about him needing a beating." I said, "Didn't you hear what he said? How can he conclude that I'm lying? I don't know what's wrong with me. Would I shave my head for no reason, would I lie about having lung cancer for no reason, would I curse myself?"

"I'm just stating a basic fact. People who get lung disease either contract it from their occupations, or they are elderly people, like the kind of people who are five or sixty years old, or even sixty-seventy years old. This kind of disease." Shen Chong wiped his nosebleeds, and continued, "You are not even 60 years old, and you say you have lung cancer, who will believe it?"

"Shall I show you the medical records?" I said.

"Those things can be faked. Nowadays, many office workers will make fake sick leave notes in order to ask for leave. There are even such things for sale on the Internet." Shen Chong said, "If I didn't poke your sore spot, why would you get so angry and do it? Hit someone?"

"I don't want to talk to you, I don't like you very much." I don't want to talk to Shen Chong any more, and classify him as the kind of person I don't like. What I care about is Su Ran, "tell me back Let’s go to Wuchang, I checked just now, and there are still air tickets, let’s go to the airport now, buy the air tickets and go back to Wuchang together, I’ll take you to see my parents.”

"You really got lung cancer?" Su Ran didn't answer my question, but asked me instead.

"You don't believe me?" I coughed twice, and my chest hurt a little.

"That's right, I don't believe you, just like what Shen Chong said, you are so young, you don't smoke very much, and you even quit smoking for a while later, and you haven't done anything hard, why? Will you get this kind of disease?" Su Ran nodded.

I let go of Su Ran's arm.

I looked at Su Ran, and after a while, I let out a long breath.

Sure enough, many things have indeed changed, and I didn't give the reason as I thought. If I tell the reason, things will get a turn for the better, and even be sublimated.

The seeds of distrust have been planted. Even if the contradiction in the middle is just a misunderstanding, even if the reason for the misunderstanding is revealed, the rift can never be repaired.

What am I still doing?

I looked sad, turned and left.

"Aren't you going to show me evidence, medical records or other things?" Su Ran stopped me.

I didn't look back, and my voice was very low: "Is it useful? I told you this, and you don't believe me. If I show you the medical records, even if I show you the wound on my chest, will you believe me?"

(End of this chapter)