Farmer's Manor Fish and Rice Fragrance

Chapter 251 Departure (2)
"Ah, no, I just thought about it for myself, and I don't think it's necessary." Qian Xi was quite frightened, Ning Shi didn't understand the world, and if he could guess it, she would be too dishonest. "I just heard what you said, and I think what the elders said makes sense. You go so far alone. After all, friends are not relatives. The future is unpredictable. Let's think about it for a while."

Ningshi's eyes drooped, but her frowning brows did not relax, they were still tightly knit, obviously very unhappy, "No matter what they say, you don't have to mind, this is my business, I will consider it."

In a word, the distance between them has been widened, and the relationship between them has also been put aside.For a while, Qianxi didn't know what to say, and if she persuaded him again, she would appear to be affectionate.

However, if she just left like this, she didn't... Complete the task, at least, she felt that she was perfunctory and going through the motions, so she thought about it again, and tentatively said: "Ningshi, don't be angry, I know, I will let you Go, I won't let you go for a while, it seems that I am going back on my word, I am a person who listens to the wind and rain, and listens to whoever makes sense. My attitude is not very firm. At first I felt that the opportunity was rare, and I thought it would be better if you had someone to take care of you. But think about it carefully, according to your personality, you don't need to be taken care of, after all, your legs are inconvenient, and you will suffer a lot in the future."

"I'm not afraid of suffering. No one will know what will happen in the future, and you don't have to take it to heart. You should not participate in this matter." Ning Shi indifferently rejected her "good intentions", with a big welcome mean.

Qianxi stood there awkwardly, feeling even more depressed early in the morning.

"Then, I'll go downstairs first." Although unwilling, she could only help Basang get here.In other words, in fact, she herself is also very contradictory, half wanting to keep him, half wanting to push him away, since he won't let her take care of him now, then everything will be decided by God.

Going down the stairs with a heavy heart, Basang came up to the stairs nervously and asked with his eyes.

Qianxi shook her head apologetically, "He said, he has his own ideas, so don't let me take care of them."

Basang's face darkened, "He must have guessed that you are not sincere."

"Mom, I really tried to persuade him."

"Then tell me, what did you tell him?"

Qianxi briefly told her what Ningshi had said to her, but Basang's face was particularly ugly after hearing it, she sighed, and said coldly: "Don't you know that all Ningshi needs is a word from you? "

Qianxi's face was dazed, her heart beating violently.

"Forget it, let's go cook." Basang waved his hand in despair, turned and left.

Qianxi pondered Basang's words, with a lot of thoughts in her mind.

In the kitchen, Chiren was already cooking, and seeing her leaning over, "Have you gone to persuade elder brother?"

"No persuasion." Qian Xi was dejected.

Chi Ren blinked and nodded, "According to brother's temper, the more you persuade him, the more he will leave, because he knows you are not sincere."

"I am sincere..."

"Are you planning to accept Big Brother?" Chi Ren's smirking face, eyes hinted at sarcasm, "Qianxi, can you stop being so hypocritical, if you like Big Brother, just keep him calmly, you If you don't intend to accept his words, why bother to persuade him hypocritically? Not to mention a pure-hearted person like eldest brother, even a person like me will be angry. "

"..." Qianxi was dumbfounded, speechless by Chi Ren's accusation.Her chest was heaving and falling, she was really in a dilemma! "It was your mother who insisted on letting me go. I just tried my best. I will try my best for what they love in the end!"

"Yes, you are just asking for your own peace of mind!" Chi Ren is rarely so sharp and aggressive, "Qianxi, although I like you very much, I especially look down on you, selfish! Hypocritical!"

"You..." Qianxi held her breath in her throat, unable to speak.

"You can't even ask yourself what's in your heart." Chi Ren threw her a sentence, threw the rag, and left the kitchen.

Qianxi turned her head to stare at his back, that thin and thin back, with a little resentment and sadness.She couldn't get angry with him, and she didn't want to argue anymore.What he said was right, she was selfish, hypocritical, even a little contrived, she wanted to be greedy and to be a good person, she was an out-and-out villain.

She also knew that she didn't know her own heart at all.Between emotion and rationality, she herself has been beaten to the point of bleeding, and she is in terrific pain.

This day passed unknowingly in such chaos.

In the evening, some cool wind finally came from the mountains, blowing away the haze of the day.

Basang was clearing the barley on the open space in front of the door when he heard the faint sound of a wheelchair. Basang looked up and saw Ningshi grinding his wheels and leaving the gate.

"Ningshi? Why did you come out alone?" Basang straightened up quickly, clapped his hands and walked forward to help him push, "Where do you want to go to get some air?"

"Mom, let me tell you something." Ningshi's expression was very serious, but also a little indifferent.

Basang was a little nervous, turned around, and squatted in front of him, "Son, grandma knows what you want to say, so can you really not stay with grandma? Grandma will miss you, miss you..."

Ning Shi was slightly moved, raised her hand and lightly pressed the back of Basang's hand, and said softly: "Grandma, I am not born in the world, so there is no need to force it."

"Ningshi, are you still blaming grandma for sending you to the monastery?" Basang asked bitterly.

Ningshi shook her head lightly, "How could it be? I have a predestined relationship with the Buddha, and in this life, I will be devoted to Buddhism. Maybe I will be in pain now due to secular feelings, but time will dilute all this. Grandma, it's hard to be able to go home. This time, I will spend some time with my family and Qian Xi, and leave a good memory, I feel that this life is already enough.”

Seeing Ningshi's desolate expression, Basang felt a great pain in his heart, "Child, people can't live by memories alone. Although you are a living Buddha, you are also a man. You have left the monastery and can start a family at any time. You If you like her, just say it boldly and ask for it, I believe she will soften her heart."

"Grandma!" Ning Shi interrupted her excitedly, his face flushed red, his chest heaved heavily, he didn't even dare to think of such words. "I won't do that. I'm a Living Buddha, and I will always be. I have violated the precepts by having secular feelings for her. How can I make more mistakes? Mom, I don't want to keep this feeling, because there are She, I always feel guilty about the Buddha, I want to get rid of my ambition, so staying away from this place is the best way. The Central Plains has a vast land and rich resources, which has great advantages in promoting Buddhism. This is my wish for many years. Central Plains, I will regret it for the rest of my life, so going to Central Plains is a matter of killing two birds with one stone, and I hope Grandma can make it happen."

Hearing that he was so firm, Basang burst into tears, holding his hand tightly, unwilling to let go, "Grandma hasn't been by your side for so many years, I really don't want you to leave."

(End of this chapter)