love you before love after love

Chapter 140 The trip to Yunnan
Xia Sha patted Xu Feifei on the shoulder, brought her back to the room, and settled her down on the sofa.

The size of the house is not large, but the decoration is good. It looks warm and comfortable. The room is still a bit messy. There are no wine cans and cigarette butts on the floor as Xia Sha imagined. Xu Feifei is wearing a loose dress that is completely different from her usual style. Not to mention any beauty.

"What happened?"

Xu Feifei buried her head in her hands, and unconsciously groped for the cigarette case under the coffee table, took out a cigarette, just turned on the lighter, then put it down after thinking about it, and scratched her hair at a loss: "I I’m pregnant! I just found out, and it’s been more than a month. The doctor said that if you don’t want it, this is a good time to have an abortion!”

Xu Feifei is an entertainer, and the meaning of this pregnancy is different from that of Xia Sha. What's more, she was pregnant before she was married. Coupled with the scandal some time ago, Xu Feifei is likely to quit the entertainment circle completely.

"what do you think?"

"I don't know, I'm scared!"

Xu Feifei took out a tissue and wiped her nose, "I don't have the courage, nor have I thought about being a mother, but this is Zhijie's child, and I am a little bit reluctant. Xia Sha, give me some advice, what should I do?" How to do?"

"How can I put it? Raising a child is not about raising a pet. When you give birth to him, you have to be responsible for his whole life. You must raise him well, teach him well, and accompany him through every important period of his life. If you want , you must have such awareness, sacrifice and dedication.”

"I don't seem to have this awareness, and I haven't figured out who to be responsible for. I'm living a mess myself. How can I let him live well. But I also feel that I'm killing people. Otherwise, you can go to the hospital with me tomorrow!"

"Have you decided?"

Xu Feifei shook her head, "I don't know, but I think it's better for me. Maybe it's not a good thing for children to have a mother like me."

"Okay, I'll accompany you tomorrow."

Xia Sha didn't say anything more, after all, it was Xu Feifei's own life, and it was her right to live how she wanted to live.

She wanted to ask Xu Feifei if she wanted to discuss it with Qu Zhijie, but now Xu Feifei was determined not to be with Qu Zhijie, so it was impossible for her to discuss it with him.

"Qu Zhijie has been looking for you in Yunnan since the day you left, and vowed not to go back if he can't find you. I think he is still looking for you somewhere in Yunnan."

Xu Feifei's shoulders trembled, and she intentionally avoided Qu Zhijie, "Did you tell Leng Yan? I don't want Qu Zhijie to know my location."

Xia Sha shook her head, "No, the two of us..." Xia Sha smiled wryly, "We're divorced!"

"What? Because of that Li Yu?" Xu Feifei didn't expect that she disappeared for a month or so, and the two of them came to this point.

"It's not entirely because of Li Yu, there are other reasons, but he should have registered his marriage with Li Yu by now!"

"It's over so soon?"

Xia Sha nodded, "We left yesterday, and they went to the Civil Affairs Bureau to get a marriage certificate today. It's really fucking annoying!"

Xia Sha couldn't help but swear, and vented her inner emotions with Xu Feifei, the only one she could talk to.

Xu Feifei gritted her teeth, "Men are indeed more unfeeling than us. At that time, we loved each other to death. If we had a spare tire, we would immediately lose them. I really shouldn't be too obsessed with being infatuated and give birth to that bastard man Qu Zhijie. "

Xia Sha heard that Qu Zhijie was shot innocently, and said something nice for him, "Don't beat him to death with a stick, Qu Zhijie is still very infatuated."

"Women like to lie to themselves. What is infatuation? It's not the product of their unwillingness when they haven't played enough."

Xia Sha didn't argue with her, so what right did she have to say in this situation!Although she couldn't live with Leng Yan, the speed of his marriage really chilled her.

"Then you're just taking advantage of them? Watching them get married? If it were me, I'd have to scare them off!"

"I'm going!"

"Oh?" Xu Feifei asked with great interest, "How did you do it?" In fact, she never thought that a woman like Xia Sha would put down her face and do such a thing.

"I took a man and went to get a marriage certificate!"

"..." Xu Feifei looked at Xia Sha with admiration in her eyes, "You are so ruthless, you can even think of such a trick. Who did you get?"

"A little policeman, who took my statement back then, is a nice guy, but he is a little bit fond of money. It's not a big problem."

"It doesn't sound impressive enough! Doesn't this kind of lower your social status? Li Yu must not laugh at you?"

Xia Sha smiled helplessly: "I didn't think too much about it at the time, and after talking about it for a while, where will I arrest people?"

"Isn't there still Leng Zihan? That Tang Yelei is also fine, acting is always fine!"

"I'm not trying to act, I'm serious. He really deserves it, and I'm not here to pretend. I'm living with someone. Leng Zihan and Tang Yelei are obviously not suitable."

Xu Feifei looked at Xia Sha's appearance and felt that she was also in a state of being deeply stimulated, so let's put this topic aside and talk about it after calming down.

"Where's the marriage certificate? Let's see what the policeman thinks!"

"Just the point, I was urged by your phone call, wait until I get back and find some time to do it!"

Xu Feifei felt relieved when Xia Sha said that she didn't pick it up, and was afraid that she would do something stupid on the spur of the moment.

"You should thank me for the phone call, or you'd be a fool, you know? There are many good men in this world. With your conditions, it's not difficult to find another one! By the way, what statement did you say just now? ?”

"Leng Xiaoyi died! He had a heart attack. We were talking at the time, so he died indirectly because of me!"

"...No wonder the divorce."

Xia Sha didn't want to talk about this topic anymore, "Don't keep talking about me, you are avoiding Qu Zhijie, do you plan to live alone to the end in the future? As far as the shadow in your heart is concerned, you will have problems with anyone."

Xu Feifei looked at Xia Sha, Xia Sha didn't say anything, she really didn't think of this level, now she is in love with Qu Zhijie, and she can't bear to let him be humiliated with her, but leave him, and meet someone she likes in the future , Do you want to have this experience again?
Find one you don't like?But I simply cannot live in a marriage without love.

Do you really want to die alone forever?Xu Feifei felt a little scared just thinking about it!
Feeling down to the bottom, "Let's go to rest."

In fact, both of them are quite tired psychologically, and sleeping has become the only way for them to forget their sadness.

Xu Feifei didn't wake up until after ten o'clock in bed the next day. Xia Sha had already prepared breakfast for her, and the two of them had a simple meal.

Xu Feifei changed her clothes, "Let's go!"

The two entered the hospital and paid the operation fee. Xu Feifei entered the operating room nervously, looked at the lights above her head, and said, "Take off your pants."

Looking at the instruments in the doctor's hands, Xu Feifei became very nervous. When the anesthetic was about to penetrate her body, she jumped off the operating table and ran out of the operating room.

Xia Sha was waiting for her at the door, and saw her come out: "It's over so soon."

Xu Feifei lowered her head and walked out quickly, "Let's go, I'm afraid, I don't want to do it."

The two stood down in a corner, "You really don't want to do it?"

Xu Feifei shook her head: "You didn't see the things in the hands of those doctors, and even made me take off my pants and split my legs. Think about how disgusting those things are in your place!"

"Then have you made up your mind to raise a child?"

Xu Feifei breathed out, "I thought about it too. You said something right yesterday. Even if I leave Qu Zhijie and meet another man, I will still encounter the current problem."

"So? Do you accept Zhijie?"

"No, I don't want to look for it anymore, I'll just settle on my own, but it's really lonely to be alone, so let this little guy be with me!"

Xu Feifei rubbed her belly and smiled for the first time in a long time.Once some things are let go, they will become different.

Seeing Xu Feifei's appearance, Xia Sha couldn't help laughing, "It seems that the two of us can have an obstetric examination together in the future, and exchange parenting experiences together!"

Xu Feifei looked at Xia Sha in surprise: "What do you mean? You can't be?"

Xia Sha smiled and nodded, "One month older than you!"

Xu Feifei snapped her fingers, "Then Leng Yan still divorced you? Are you still human!"

"He didn't know I was pregnant."

"I find that you, a woman, are really cruel sometimes! Forget it, they really don't deserve to know, so let them have fun, and we will raise children together."

Xu Feifei looked at Xia Sha, "Why are you still wearing yesterday's clothes?"

"I was at the Civil Affairs Bureau when you called yesterday. I came here directly, but I didn't take anything!"

"When we go shopping in a few minutes, you have to buy clothes that you can change and wash. But there are no high-end shopping malls here, but most of the people living here are ethnic minorities. I think the clothes of Dai women are very beautiful. Why don't we take advantage of the lack of big belly? When you can wear it, be beautiful for a while!"

Speaking of shopping, Xu Feifei became interested again, "Let's go!"

Pulling Xia Sha, I found a shopping mall, where you can find ethnic minority clothes everywhere, but the two of them still like Dai women's clothes the most. On the body, in this place, it doesn't feel awkward at all to wear it.

"Although the weather here is hot, there are many interesting places. I will show you around, and the drive is very short!"

Xu Feifei glanced at the time, let's go to Jiruo Ancient Village first today, where the customs of ethnic minorities are particularly strong.

"it is good!"

The two rented a car, went to the ancient village first, and listened to the local people talking about the customs of the village.

"I heard that women are in charge of the house here. In the past, men used to sleep on trees. When women want to use them, they can poke them with a stick so that they can enter the house and have sex. It's so cool!"

"..."

(End of this chapter)