love you before love after love

Chapter 195

Leng Yan stood beside Qu Zhijie and Xu Feifei, "It seems that I came out late, who is Yuze's mother? Do you know her?"

Xu Feifei shook her head, "Anyway, we don't know each other, who knows if you do."

His cold eyes turned to Qu Zhijie, Xu Feifei pressed his elbow on his waist, Qu Zhijie hurriedly nodded in panic, "I really don't know him, who knows."

Leng Yan looked at the strange reaction of the two people, his brows furrowed slightly, but his heart has long been restless. Although many years have passed, even if the looming figure just flashed by in an instant, there is still an unignorable familiarity.

And Xu Feifei's reaction seems to confirm the impossible thought that flashed in his heart.

Leng Yan maintained his calm appearance, and stretched out his hand to Qu Zhijie, "Where's your phone?"

Qu Zhijie didn't understand, so he handed his phone to Leng Yan. Leng Yan took Qu Zhijie's phone, glanced at it, and quickly remembered the number that Shan Yuze dialed just now, and threw the phone away. Returning to Qu Zhijie's hand, "I'm going back."

Leng Yan said, striding towards the parking lot to pick up his car.

In a short while, Leng Yan's car was speeding past the two of them. At such a speed, the two of them couldn't help worrying about his safety.

Xu Feifei said worriedly: "Do you think he saw it?"

"It shouldn't be. Xia Sha had already left when he came out."

"Perhaps the brain has opened up."

"But Xia Sha is already married. This blow is probably more cruel than having no news about her."

After Qu Zhijie finished speaking, both of them couldn't help letting out a long sigh.

Every intersection became an obstacle for Leng Yan to catch up with that car. Leng Yan returned to his apartment and found those old childhood photos. Even he himself felt that Shan Yuze was so similar to himself , but why?Leng Yan didn't understand, how could it be possible, didn't he clearly say that Xia Sha had a miscarriage in that accident?

This must be just a coincidence, Leng Yan said to himself like this, but his heart was still boiling, if it really didn't matter at all, why did he mail the child to himself, and it was still a birthday surprise.

Leng Yan couldn't calm down, he kept pacing back and forth, his heart beating violently.

Unable to continue guessing, he took out his mobile phone and dialed the number.

"Beep~beep~beep~" Every sound made Leng Yan's heart tense, because he was afraid, hoping that the woman he missed was really there, but he was also very afraid, afraid that if it was really her, he should Say something to her, afraid of hearing that voice, he has become irrelevant in her mouth.

The phone rang many times, but the other party didn't pick up the phone. He smiled coldly and bitterly. He was obviously a man, but at this moment, he felt the urge to cry.

In the past few years, he always imagined that at a certain hour on a certain day, Xia Sha would think of him, call his phone, and tell him that she regretted leaving, that she missed him, and that she wanted to come back.

So in the past years, Leng Yan's phone number has not been changed, and it has been kept switched on at all times. He even thought, if Xia Sha wants to change his mind, whether he should taunt her, stimulate her, and then accept her.

That's right, in these years, even if there were grievances, even if the hope became more and more elusive with the passage of time, but no matter how many times, Leng Yan never changed, that is, the end of every answer is hope. Reconnect with Xiasha.

Just when he was in despair and thought that Xia Sha would not answer his call, a voice that had haunted him for many years struck Leng Yan like a lightning strike.

"Leng Yan, are you okay?"

Leng Yan controlled the mist gradually rising in his eyes, "Do you think I will be okay?"

Xia Sha was silent on the other end of the phone. This questioning made her feel more distressed than any other words. In the past few years, she has never had a better time.

"You must be living well, right? Otherwise, why would you be reluctant to come back?"

"Do you hate me?"

"Hate!" Leng Yan raised his jaw, controlling the tears that were about to get out of control.

"Can you forgive me?"

"Let me see you first, and then decide whether to forgive you. Where are you?" There was urgency and uncontrollable desire in the cold and strict voice.

"Guess." Xia Sha's voice didn't seem cold and strict, but it was much calmer at this moment.

"Your uncle's Xia Sha, if I could fucking guess where you are, I would have arrested you long ago and shut you up in a small dark room. You have been missing me for so many years?"

There was a brief silence, and Leng Yan thought Xia Sha was hesitating, thinking that she wanted to avoid seeing him again, "Xia Sha, tell me, don't let me find you out myself."

Suddenly the sound of the piano came to mind on the phone, and the familiar "The Moon Represents My Heart" slowly flowed out from the other end of the phone.

Although there was no language, this piece of music seemed to have given him the answer he wanted. The sound of the piano not only passed through the phone, but also penetrated the thick walls.

Leng Yan rushed out the door frantically, and quickly pressed the door code of the next room. It has not changed for so many years, and it is still Xia Sha's birthday.

Xia Sha's back, with her back facing the direction of the door, expresses her fingers affectionately, she wants to express her feelings to Leng Yan.

In the corner of her eyes, there are also tears, there are sorrows for the separation in the past, there are also memories of the happy memories of the past, and there is also a kind of comfort, comforting that the people she misses, like her, have deep thoughts.

Just when she hurriedly left just now, Xia Sha was still hesitant and worried. She was afraid that after so many years, her cold and strict heart could still accept her. After the divorce certificate, she came back to pray for his forgiveness and told him that she wanted to stay with him.

However, the so-called waiting a little longer was impossible because she had been waiting for too long, so long that she was about to suffocate. Xia Sha found that the closer she was to him, the more she couldn't restrain herself. She wanted to see him, but Don't know how to make each other meet, so she came here, this place full of their memories.

But she didn't want to, just after she came, a cold call came in. Xia Sha didn't know if it was suitable now, and whether it would be a kind of harm to their relationship that had been separated for a long time. She was afraid that it would be fragmented and unable to bond. Struggling and hesitating, in the end I still couldn't control my urge to hear his voice.

Reason, in front of love, has become a luxury.

The moment Leng Yan saw Xia Sha, tears and joy appeared on his face at the same time. His eager steps slowed down, and he walked slowly to Xia Sha, hugging her tightly from behind. Xia Sha's shoulder.

Xia Sha's hand stopped, and she leaned gently in his arms. How long has it been, the familiar smell on her body, the nostalgic dependence.

Xia Sha raised her arm, grabbing Leng Yan's wrist, "Can you forgive me?"

"How can I forgive?" Leng Yan hugged her tightly, afraid that Xia Sha would disappear in front of him in the next moment, just like three years ago.

"Will you pay me the rest of my life?"

Xia Sha held Leng Yan tightly in her hand, very afraid that he would reject her.

Leng Yan snorted coldly, "Give me the rest of my life, do you think I can get my heart back? I have been hurt for so long, can I be forgiven just by saying please forgive me?"

Xia Sha pursed her lips, "Is there nothing to discuss?"

Leng Yan's hands tightened again, "Except for this life, give me your next life and the next life."

Xia Sha smiled wryly, turned to Leng Yan, and gently stroked his face with her fingers, "If what I said is not enough?"

A cold hand was placed on Xia Sha's face, and her thumb gently smoothed her tears, "No matter how many lives, I want to possess you."

"Is it really that easy to forgive me?" Xia Sha thought that there would be questioning, blaming, unfeeling or other things that would continue to hurt each other between them, but the two of them remained calm as if nothing had happened. Xia Sha even doubted, did Leng Yan really forgive herself so easily?

"Don't you want to ask why I am so unfeeling and why I suddenly changed my mind? You are not afraid that I will be..."

Cold and strict fingers pressed Xia Sha's thin lips lightly, "It's good to be back, being together is more important than anything else."

Xia Sha pressed her face against the cold and strict chest, feeling his powerful heartbeat.

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"Let me just say, Xia Sha must have had a reason to be proud of her love when she left Leng Yan, otherwise how could she be so heartless." Xu Feifei cried and laughed as Li Minshu told a few people about the ins and outs listen.

For this reason, the knot that Xu Feifei had accumulated in her heart for many years was finally completely untied.

Although she has always believed that Xia Sha is not that kind of person, the fact is that only she knows the feeling of being unable to argue for her and persuade herself.

But after crying and laughing, Xu Feifei still pouted dissatisfiedly, "I said Minshu, you have worked so hard to hide it from us, you clearly know it all, why did you tell us the truth until now?"

Li Minshu sighed, "If you were me, would you say that? With your cold and strict temper, Xia Sha will sacrifice for herself?"

"Then don't tell Leng Yan, you can always tell us?"

"You are an actor and I can trust you, but..." Li Minshu's eyes turned to Qu Zhijie, and the meaning was self-evident.

"All the bad things about relationships are caused by me." Qu Zhijie pointed to himself, and suddenly felt that he was the root of all evil.

"Then what should we do now? Shall we tell Leng Yan first, what if Xia Sha looks back to him, and he becomes stupid again, gets angry with Xia Sha, and shuts Xia Sha away?"

Li Minshu said: "But Xia Sha is currently going through divorce. If this marriage cannot be divorced, it will be a troublesome thing in the future. I think we should wait a little longer. When Xia Sha regains her freedom, just look at the two of them who have been married for many years. Are you afraid that they won't be able to get back together?"

(End of this chapter)