Concubine Tang through space

Chapter 35

Su Lin came back to the villa just in time for lunch. When she was eating at the same table with Li Shimin, she thought about finding a suitable time and finding a safe way to get out the prescription. She really didn't have the funds to secretly refine it by herself. She really wanted to try the effect of the Yangling Pill, and she also wanted to get more of the Jiedu Pill and Guyuan Pill for Li Kuan to keep.

Thinking of Li Kuan, Su Lin's heart stagnates, some yearning is a little bitter, some worry is a little bitter, some reluctance is a little bit blocked, some relief is a little bit gratified and uncomfortable, etc. All kinds of feelings come to her heart. The sentence may not be entirely correct, but everyone who raises children will definitely understand the difficulties, kindness and love of parents to some extent.

Before raising a child, I only felt that raising a child was a lot of pressure, and I had all kinds of worries. I was afraid of being bullied if I was stupid, and I was afraid of being bad if I raised a smart child. After I really raised a child, I realized that what she knew before was only one-sided and vague. Leaving aside the material wealth that children will have, Li Kuan does not need to worry too much about food, clothing, housing and transportation. He only talks about the things that children come into contact with, feel and remember, and learn in detail every day. , taste, etc., for fear that something bad will be learned or even subconsciously remembered by him, and it will explode one day in the future, worrying will become a kind of instinct like eating and sleeping.

Unconsciously biting the chopsticks, Su Lin ate slowly and went through her plan again, but no matter how worried, who will live for whom will always be in a specific situation and a specific environment. That boundary, their respective worlds and choices are different, and they don’t need to be guarded, so they don’t need to stay together. If they are all normal people, if Li Kuan is taken away from Tang Li’s house by her one day, he will hide his name in the countryside. Well, it doesn't matter if she goes deep into the mountains and becomes a savage, she will slow down her cultivation and try her best to cultivate Li Kuan, but if the environment she and Li Kuan stay in is as quiet and safe as it is now, that is, under relatively normal and ordinary circumstances, she will She will stay but will not accompany and protect Li Kuan for too long. At most, she will wait until Li Kuan is more mature. Regardless of whether Li Kuan is married or not, if she is willing to go with her, she will naturally take her with her and do her best to help Li Kuan embark on the road of cultivation. , Li Kuan is willing to stay and get married to enjoy the honor of the prince. She will leave everything she can and then let go.

Eight months of pregnancy, nearly six months of care, and a total of 14 months of getting along, her relationship with Li Kuan is second only to her and her parents in the previous life, but it is still different. She can trust her parents wholeheartedly, She also tried her best to take on the responsibility of the crow to feed back, and the responsibilities in her relationship and life plan have reached that level, so if her parents in the previous life did not have any accidents, she would not think of leaving them behind to pursue them before they passed away normally. The illusory and strong Lu, of course, would not do this. She must first try to take good care of her parents before thinking about cultivation. This is the deepest thing in her soul.

But the object is Li Kuan, who is her child. No matter how much she is willing to put in, she always feels that she is not enough. Perhaps 14 months is not as deep as 12 years of love, or it may be that she has settled down after her own experience. The values ​​of life make her lack of dependence on her children and have too much sense of responsibility. She can't treat Li Kuan as a continuation of herself like many parents in this era, impose her thoughts and dreams on Li Kuan, and make Li Kuan There is no choice at all to walk with her or simply fulfill her dream of being a strong man.

In her cognition and concept, Li Kuan is her son and should have his own life. Her responsibility to Li Kuan is to teach Li Kuan to behave in the world and to gain insight into knowledge, not because she does not have Fully integrated into the thinking of this era to point fingers at Li Kuan's future life and achievements, the prince and the warrior monk should be the choices faced by Li Kuan, who is more mature and able to shoulder the responsibility of his own words and deeds, rather than her in any name. Deprive Li Kuan of the right to take other paths without reason.

If the life situation is not right and there is no other choice, no matter what the situation is, she will definitely take Li Kuan to leave the palace first, no doubt, and then do her best to protect and teach Li Kuan everything she can give, but in Under unnecessary circumstances, she had no way to openly block Li Kuan's Prince Road, which has the world's top power and money, and is almost regarded as the Sunshine Avenue. She also told the grown-up Li Kuan as a matter of course: You should be this The prince of a handful of middle-aged people at the top of the world, but I want to experience the life of cultivating in the mountains, so I took you away from your father. It is my inability as a mother to let you experience the sufferings of the world in the past few years. But your father is chasing us, I have to run.

Of course, she can also choose to lie or not to tell, but won't that become a thorn in her heart?Li Kuan won't investigate this matter?The answer is unknowable.

Furthermore, she has no confidence to use her current knowledge, city and brain to teach an adult Li Kuan who is so strong that he is fearless, and so smart that he doesn't pay attention to all kinds of difficulties.

She was very afraid that she would take Li Kuan with her without leaving. In the end, not only Li Kuan's material things would be deprived, but also his possibility of becoming a talent. If Li Kuan was accidentally taught to destroy him, she would have no place to regret it. Regret, as for saying that Li Kuan won't be destroyed if he stays?This possibility is much smaller, and there is no other reason. As a prince, there must be more than one learned Confucian teacher, so she doesn’t have to worry too much about learning. People will also naturally learn how to deal with the city and various ways of dealing with things, their own magnanimity and big-picture vision. Perhaps the dark side of people's hearts they see will have an impact on Li Kuan's outlook on life, but this time is also just when she is preparing for Li Kuan's growth process. most involved.

What's more, she also felt that in this feudal society with strict classes and huge rules and unspoken rules, it was better to penetrate the complex aspects of people's hearts than pure ignorance. At least she could protect herself from injury to a large extent. Li Shimin would not be like this An ordinary modern father who can protect his son will definitely stand up and would rather be covered in bruises than try his best to save the child from getting hurt. On the contrary, based on her observation and conclusion of Li Shimin's character, can Li Kuan be used to death? It's all merciful, expecting Li Shimin to be a loving father to protect Li Kuan is to some extent equivalent to sending Li Kuan to death, and she has no ability to absolutely guarantee that she can protect him in this place where she has only stayed for more than a year. Good Li Kuan.

This is a bond she didn't expect when she first came to this world. It was complicated and profound, and it took a bit of energy, but she didn't regret it. Raising Li Kuan, not to mention that it brought her a lot of happiness in normal times, but the relationship between her and Li Kuan In the process of getting along, she also solved the knot in her heart caused by the death of her parents in the previous life, and realized that in many cases, it is not that the parents are willing to leave their children to suffer in the world, but that the hope of life is too precious, and they know the possibility of life in a crisis Too young, her parents tried their best to protect her, probably like she was worried about Li Kuan, knowing that one day Li Kuan would go his way and leave her, she still unconsciously regarded protecting and protecting herself as the same a habit.

Very subtle and very natural feeling of two minds.

Seeing that Su Lin came back from the county seat, Li Shimin's expression was not right. During the meal, he thought about it and analyzed the results from the news. The chief officials of Jinzhou, including Linfen County, probably had contact with the Turks and Liu Wuzhou. According to Liu Wuzhou's attack The route, this place will become a battlefield in a month at most. He has no plans to let Su Lin enter the battlefield. Su Lin's force has improved, but her mental state has not been tempered enough. Entering the battlefield will affect her cultivation The possibility of state of mind is far greater than the chance of making him advance by leaps and bounds in the center of the battlefield. He has time to hone Su Lin step by step, and there is no need to make a surprise attack.

Therefore, after eating, Li Shimin rinsed his mouth and hands and said to Su Lin: "A Lin, you can go back to Chang'an with King Qi and Princess Qi tomorrow."

Whatever was on her mind, Su Lin was thinking about Li Kuan, when she suddenly heard that Li Shimin asked her to go back to Chang'an, she subconsciously ignored her companions, and handed the handkerchief to the maid next to her, saying pleasantly : "Really? My lord!"

With the light in Su Lin's eyes, Li Shimin narrowed his eyes slightly, and said, "Do you want to be wide?"

Su Lin nodded honestly, and got confirmation from Li Shimin, and then slowly remembered that she still had two heavyweight companions, and thought of the inexplicable Princess Qi Yang Ruomei, and felt embarrassed.

However, Yang Ruomei did not leave with Su Lin in the end. On the first night when Li Shimin told them to leave, Yang Ruomei suddenly developed a fever. When she was about to leave the next day, she couldn't even get out of bed. Naturally, it is impossible to follow King Qi back to Chang'an.

However, King Qi thought that there were some things that had to be dealt with in Chang'an, and there was no delay, so he had to leave first. He was quite polite to Su Lin, who was traveling with him, but Su Lin's appearance and temperament were not as good as his. Secondly, he knew from his wife that Su Lin looked quiet and delicate, but in fact she was a sharp-tongued and unreasonable first-class martial artist. He didn't want to provoke such a person, so he just confessed politely.

Li Shimin led the people to stand at the gate of the villa, nominally to see off his younger brother Li Yuanji, but from time to time, his eyes glanced at Su Lin who was riding on a horse and followed by twenty guards arranged by him. It doesn't matter if Yuan Ji goes together, because he knows Yang Ruomei's tricks very well, and knows that even if Yang Ruomei doesn't like Yuan Ji, he will never make Yuan Ji interested in Su Lin, but this morning when he suddenly learned that Yang Ruomei had to stay I started to feel depressed.

The relationship between him and Yang Ruomei is only unknown to his younger brother Li Yuanji. He doesn't believe that Yang Ruomei is ill. By his side, are you afraid that the relationship between him and Li Yuanji is not bad enough?The most important thing is that without Yang Ruomei as a shield, he is not sure whether his younger brother Lu Lu, who is more lustful than him, will have any thoughts about Su Lin. Meatloaf, but with Su Lin's heartless appearance, and his younger brother is absolutely not related to a gentleman, and there is no problem with using some low-level methods, no matter how many guards he sends around Su Lin, he can't help but worry.

But at this time, he can't use any method to keep Su Lin. He doesn't know if others will know his special feelings for Su Lin, but if the Guanyin maidservant hears about it, she will definitely understand him from the clues. mood.

A slap in the face is a slap in the face, and a slap in the face is also a slap in the face. In any way or situation, tell Guanyin, his wife, that he has a special feeling for women other than Guanyin, no matter how clear this feeling is now. Shallow, let him feel that it is not a serious problem, but it is not a good thing for any party or anyone, including him, Guanyin maidservant and Su Lin.

Li Shimin, who found that he was entangled in his heart, was not half happy about the stunning beauty's initiative to throw himself into his arms, and was still a little nervous. He waited for King Qi and Su Lin's team to rush out of his sight, so he ignored Yang Ruomei with a cold face. The person next to him sent over to say that it was the maid who sent Yuan Ji off. Seeing what the other party was about to say, he opened his mouth and said, "This king will immediately send a doctor to Princess Qi to treat her. Go back and tell her that there is no order from this king. She and her people are not allowed to leave the small courtyard where she lives, and return to Chang'an as soon as she recovers."

After speaking, he led Li Heying and others to the study.

(End of this chapter)