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Chapter 290 Human nature (3)
The old butler was not interested in the speaker, but Zhao Yanjie was interested in the listener. He thought of Lu Mingxin, but it turned out that before he left Beijing in April, Lu Mingxin had met him once, and the two had exchanged a few words. He didn't take it to heart, but afterwards Lu Mingxin asked the maid to send him two meals quietly.

Zhao Yanjie is not a fool, so he naturally knew what Lu Mingxin meant when he asked the maid to deliver food to her. He must be worried that he would be too old to talk about good marriages after his filial piety, so he went to the doctor in a hurry and took aim at him. He didn't want to make matters worse, so he rewarded the boys with food, as if there was no such thing, and didn't give Lu Mingxin any response, thinking that when he returned to Beijing and made up with Lu Mingxuan, Lu Mingxin would naturally give up. .

But now Zhao Yanjie doesn't think so anymore. He unconsciously compares Lu Mingxuan and Lu Mingxin in his heart. If he wants to say who he likes more and who he wants to spend his life with, it is naturally Lu Mingxuan, but even if Lu Mingxuan is raised by Mrs. Lu, Old Mrs. Lu loves her in every possible way, but in the final analysis, she is only a side branch girl of the Dingguo Mansion, not like Lu Mingxin, who is a serious lady of the Guogong Mansion. If he marries Lu Mingxin, he will be a serious son-in-law of the Duke's Mansion. Even if it is inconvenient for the Duke's Mansion to stand up for him now, will he not support and support him in the future?

The experience of the past few days made this idea flash in Zhao Yanjie's mind, and it seemed to take root. Not only could it never be erased, but it grew into a towering tree with the passage of time.

Of course, he is not free from struggles and conflicts. When he thinks of Lu Mingxuan's flowery smile, and when he thinks of Lu Mingxuan telling him that she's not afraid of suffering, and will always share with him through thick and thin, he will be filled with reluctance and guilt, and sometimes even He would think, go to his Duke's mansion to be a serious son-in-law. Could it be that with his own ability, he will not be able to make a fortune in the future, and will not be able to make his uncle's grandfather's family and clansmen look good? !
But when he thought of the shameless face of Mr. Zhao's family who had nothing to fear, the people's flattery and indifference towards Mr. Zhao's family, and the protection of Mr. Zhao's officials by the officials of the Yuezhou Prefecture, Zhao Yanjie felt that he wanted to send them away. If you are underfoot, you must be a serious son-in-law of the Duke's Mansion. He certainly believes in his own ability, but while he is improving, will others wait for him where he is?Mr. Zhao is now at the fourth rank, and Mr. Zhao is also at the sixth rank. The eldest brother of the Zhao family has two brothers who are of the same generation as him, who are already scholars. Mr. Zhao is very likely to be gone, but Mr. Zhao is afraid that his rank is already higher than him, and he still has nothing to do with the elders, so what kind of revenge will he talk about in his life!
Zhao Yanjie struggled all the way back to the capital. As for his family's property, it was naturally still in the hands of Mr. Zhao, and the money he could use was the same as before, only some land from the dowry of his grandmother and mother. Income only.

After returning to the capital, Lu Mingxin sent the servant girl to greet him immediately, and wrote him a flower note. By coincidence, after Zhao Yanjie read the flower letter, although he didn't reply, he greeted the maid a few words. The fifth girl is doing well these days' and other words made the servant girl overjoyed, knowing that her girl's plan finally had a clue; afterward, when Mrs. Lu asked him when he would be engaged to Lu Mingxuan, she intentionally She pushed the day until after she finished the exam and announced the results, and her idea was exactly what she said to Lu Mingxuan before, if she won, she would propose marriage to Lu Mingxin, and if she didn't win, she would still be engaged to Lu Mingxuan.

It's just that even though the decision was made, Zhao Yanjie felt uncomfortable at all. He felt sorry for Lu Mingxuan and was reluctant to part with Lu Mingxuan, but also worried that the old lady would be angry with him if Mrs. Lu found out about the matter. He didn't know how to explain to Mrs. Lu. For this reason, although others see him as studying hard day and night, he is busy preparing for the exam, but only he himself knows that he has not learned anything, and when it comes to the exam, one can imagine how he will perform well.

But this made him heave a sigh of relief. Finally, he doesn't have to struggle anymore. If he doesn't pass the exam, he won't pass. It's also a good thing to get a wife he likes, and he doesn't have to worry about what will happen after he betrays It's time to face Mrs. Lu; but when he thinks that he can't avenge his shame, take back his property, and trample on those who once underestimated him and hurt him, he feels unwilling, and feels that he can't swallow this breath no matter what.

The result of being unwilling and unable to swallow this breath is that although he knows that he will fail in this subject in all likelihood, he still has some residual hope, in case the essay he writes happens to be to the examiner's appetite , why did he just get him?Never expected that before he released the rankings, the matter has developed to the point where there is no room for redress!
"This is my so-called 'difficulty'. In the final analysis, it's just the money that's causing trouble. Even if I can't get those properties back, I won't starve to death. I can't earn a future for myself by my own ability. The so-called hardships are nothing more than a fig leaf that I use to cover up my eagerness for quick success, half-heartedness, and shamelessness." Zhao Yanjie said at the end, he couldn't help ironing himself sharply, "Even if it is When Master Cai Xian asked me about it, I still had the last hope in my heart. What if I got lucky? Until the moment I saw with my own eyes that my name was not on the list, I would never be reconciled, no matter how happy I was. Girl, I'm also not sure if I'll be hard-pressed in the future, or even regret it... At this point, will Miss Xuan still think that I'm like the warm sun in winter, and will she think that she has seen the right person?"

Lu Mingxuan didn't know how to describe her mood at the moment. She didn't know whether it was better to scold Zhao Yanjie's grandfather's family and clan members, or to sympathize with him. The only thing that was certain was that Zhao Yanjie didn't give up on her because of his whole heart. And as far as Lu Mingxin is concerned, the feelings he has given to her over the past year or so are also true, and the unworthiness and unwillingness in her heart have finally dissipated.

She was silent for a moment, and then said softly: "Everyone has a dark, dirty, ulterior side, but some people's side has been covered up very well, never exposed to others, and some people accidentally exposed it It's just in front of others. Cousin Zhao doesn't need to insult himself like this. What you do is just human nature. If it were me, I might be the same as you. What's more, your struggles, contradictions and sufferings are exactly the same. It just shows that you are not the kind of person who is really eager for quick success, treacherous, despicable, so my answer to the last question about Cousin Zhao is that I still feel that I have read the right person!"

Zhao Yanjie is only young this year, even if he is a juren, after all, he is just a young man who has not yet grown up, but he was forced to face such a dark and cruel side of the world, he did not directly blacken, In order to get revenge and become an unscrupulous person, Lu Mingxuan felt that he was still the same Zhao Yanjie from before, even if he failed her, she couldn't It completely negates him as a whole.

(End of this chapter)