Mr. Lu is very ill

Chapter 68

The eyes are intertwined for a long time.

His voice was slightly cold: "I lost."

Song Shi didn't quite understand the meaning of this sentence, looked at him blankly, and asked subconsciously, "What did you say?"

"I lost to you, Song Shi—whether it was ten years ago or ten years later, I am a loser."

Song Shi's breathing suddenly became urgent, "Why do you say that? I don't quite understand."

"Don't you understand?" His lips pulled a self-deprecating arc, "Or are you pretending not to understand?"

"I..." She hesitated to speak, her chest trembled like a thin and tough silver thread wrapped around her heart, causing a dull pain, but she couldn't untie it.

"Forget it." There was a smile on the corner of his lips, his long eyelashes drooped slightly, and his black eyes became even darker in the hidden night, "It's fine if you don't understand."

The momentary suffocation almost wiped her out.

"Lu Xiao..."

She grabs his hand.

The temperature around him dropped to a chill, and he opened her fingers little by little, "Enough, Song Shi. The ten years of wishful thinking should have ended long ago, maybe..."

"I should have forgotten you a long time ago." The voice was rough and hoarse.

At that moment, the sharp bone-shattering pain spread all over her body. She could hardly bear the pain. She couldn't even stand upright. Her chest hurt so badly that she wanted to cry.

She suppressed the pain in her heart, her lips and teeth trembling, "Lu Xiao, I was the one who was sorry for you ten years ago. I gave up on you first. I...I am sorry for you."

"Sorry is the most useless word in the world."

"So I don't need to."

"Take it back."

Song Shi's heart felt as if it had been crushed by a meat grinder, and her heart ached to pieces, "Lu Xiao, do you not understand or I do not understand, if I can go back to ten years ago and do it all over again, I will still choose to leave you, Because I have no choice, I have no other choice..."

"But—it's true that I love you, it's true that kisses are true, and it's true to you."

"I have a clear conscience, and I am frank."

Lu Xiao stared at her quietly with his dark eyes.

Her eyes were already red.

The voice is also very hoarse.

"I've missed you all these years, but I dare not look for you. I'm sorry for you, and I don't deserve to love you."

"Lu Xiao, as long as you say 'you don't like me anymore', when this mission is over, I will leave you and stay far away from you."

His heart was so stuffy, his voice could not restrain his sarcasm: "Leave? How far away?"

"The places you can't see, the places you can't find, is this enough?" There was a wry smile on her lips.

At that moment, all the emotions dormant in his heart almost exploded, he restrained himself, his chest shook, and he sneered: "Enough, why not enough."

"So..." Song Shi raised her eyes and looked at him, "Do you still like me?"

For a few seconds.

The nebula is dim.

Weeds withered.

He said in one word: "No."

The world is dead.

Song Shi opened her mouth dumbly, her voice was stuck in her larynx, and the sadness that went straight to her tear glands almost overwhelmed her, "I understand, when this escort is over, you can go back to the northern region, when my mission is over , I will resign as well."

He said, "I don't like you."

The heart was broken, and another heavy wound was added to the chest.

She reluctantly pulled the corner of her lips: "I know, you don't need to emphasize it."

……

"But I love you."

have a feeling

stronger than heartbeat

deeper than like

Scarier than death.

……

Her brain was buzzing, and she looked at him in a daze.

"I lost, Song Shi, don't you still understand? Whether it was ten years ago or ten years later, I am willing to bow my head and surrender."

　In Song Shi's world, there is no competition between her and Lu Xiao, let alone winning or losing.So when she told Lu Xiao about winning or losing, she would not understand.

　　But for Lu Xiao, he is the one who was given up, he will feel uneasy, and he will compare who he loves more.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)