winter era

Chapter 189 Freedom
Let's make a hypothesis.

You are now a person with a successful career. You have a wife and children, and your parents live happily in a villa complex. All the wishes you want in life have been fulfilled, and your entire life has reached an unprecedented peak.

But at this moment, you noticed something was wrong.You feel like your life is being manipulated like a puppet.When speaking, I can't help but say some things I don't want to say, and there are always hazy concepts in my mind.The behavior of the family members is becoming more and more rigid in the eyes, but others don't notice it at all, and you can even feel a kind of estrangement.

That's right, it is a kind of diaphragm that seems to traverse between oneself and the world.Just like being in the water, the world is so hazy.The products behind it seem to be within reach.Invisible threads are entangled little by little on the human head and thoughts, sealing the prying eyes of the outside world inside the skull.People with enough inspiration can feel the sunken appearance of this world, but more people can only circle around in the boundless walls.It's like a monster without a head, being manipulated to move forward.

You'll feel terrible, you'll feel angry, you'll feel irrational.This is a natural reaction, and it is even normal for a human being.But think about it carefully, is your reaction really up to you?
Can you guarantee that everything about you from childhood to adulthood has not been manipulated by that person hiding behind the scenes?Can you be sure that your original will has not been trampled upon?Is your soul enough for you to bear all that you have to bear?What you have worked hard for, what you have striven for, and everything you have fought for is just a dream come true, will you be willing?

So it's normal to want to find a way out.Because of curiosity, because of shame, you can't deny everything you do.You don't want to admit that you are a programmed person.Because you are a human being, a human being with a sense of self, a dignity and a dream.Since it is a person, it is impossible to admit that everything about oneself is at the mercy of others in a dream.No matter what, I am unwilling to admit that everything about myself is just a vain fantasy in the eyes of others.

Is there any more cruel punishment in this world than to be just a dream after hard work?Whether you succeed or fail, at least you have existed, at least you know that you have worked hard.But that dream killed all possibilities.

Your efforts are nonexistent, your dreams are imposed by others.You are like a doll, you are tagged with attributes and experiences, and then you can sell that kind of thing with a profile.Feelings, hopes, dreams, struggles, kinship, friendship, these things are all fake and do not exist.Because even you are a fake.

Counterfeits, fakes, labeled wretches, mindless replicas.

The accolades you have worked so hard to achieve are nothing but phantasms in other people's minds.Your sorrow and pain are his toys.All the thoughts in your mind are puppets manipulated by him.You never live even a day.

"I won't admit to something like that."

An inexplicable flame flickered in the gray-black eyes of the man formed by the incarnation of knowledge.

"Truman is actually happy. He knows that everything he does is meaningful. He knows that the world is real, and he also knows what kind of existence he is. So he is happy, He has mastered the truth, even if it is only for a moment, it is also true. It can even be said that no one in this world is happier than Truman."

"But what about me? What can I do? I can re-deduce the universe from beginning to end, I can plan and reset the entire rules, and I can accommodate all the emotions and thoughts in the world in an instant But do these make sense? Are these real? I can feel the membrane between me and that world, I can feel the distortion and deformity of this world, and I can clearly hear the heartbeat from that world Sound, he's behind the 'door'."

Knowledge's expression was still indifferent, as if the steel-like voice did not come from his mouth at all.But Li Lin could feel the elusive flame gradually rising from that person.

It was like the burning life that is often described in novels.But it's completely different from the brilliance of life that leaves only ashes after a moment of youth, this person is still burning even if he is turned into ashes.Even if turned into dust, it is still burning.He burned his bones, his flesh and blood, and his soul, but he still continued to burn there.

To face his own death silently and calmly is not something he would do.If it is said that the protagonists of various novels whose lives are burning use their lives to accomplish a major event, then the man in front of him is almost always synonymous with miracles.All common sense and structure can no longer be applied by him.As he said, he has no way to go on.The dome of this world is already within reach for him.

However, there is no way.

No matter how you search, no matter how you test, there is no way.

"What do I have to do to open that 'door'? What do I have to do to find that point? Truman's happiness is that he can find the way, but what do I do? I have exhausted all ways to find the way But there is no way to get it.”

Knowledge had a gloomy expression on his face, and the beef he was chewing in his mouth was like blood, and dark red juice kept flowing from his mouth.In a trance, Li Lin even felt bloodshot from the man's facial features.Because of the endless despair, because the endless darkness wrapped the man who had seen everything in a shell, and there was no way to break free.

"Time is a wonderful thing. It can let you see the end of all things in advance, and it can also let you experience the beginning of the world later. But our world is a perfect ring. His birth produces a chaotic universe, It started to create multiverses, then communicated and influenced each other, and finally was gradually attracted and integrated. Then it explored and collapsed into the original base point under its own force field. When it collapsed to the base point, the It's like a spring that starts the cycle again."

"Once and again, again and again, from 0 to 9, and then from 9 to 0. There is no 10 in this, and I can't find any information about other worlds. This world is circular and reincarnated Yes, when you jump out of this cycle and look back, you can find nothing but endless despair."

"Because it is fully enclosed, distortions from the outside world will not spread. Because it is full cycle, the logic can be self-consistent and run normally. No matter what I do, no matter how I struggle, what collapses is always the surface. I have never touched the core point of this circle. The only clue is the wonderful knowledge and pictures in my mind. Apart from bombarding the entire universe based on that impression, how else can I look for it? The way? The mind is there, the world is there, and here I am. I can feel the block, I can feel the block, but I can't find it."

"Can you understand this kind of sadness?"

Zhizhi looked at Li Lin who was bewildered in front of him, with a smile on his face.

It was like a bent-backed man who had been tortured by life and reality looked at an ignorant child.The gratified and sad eyes made Li Lin, a 4-year-old pastor, feel uncomfortable.

"You can't climb. You never can. Everything about you is so insignificant and worthless. No matter what you do, you can't knock on the gate of nothingness. You can only be confined to your own grid release your own sorrow and pain in the world. Because you know that your world is not real, and you also know that your world is real. But the real world is for yourself, and for those outside planners, this The world is nothing but a brand of nothingness. A defective product that was abandoned without even spending money. I was bound in such a defective product, waiting for the end to come."

"I am not reconciled, I will never be reconciled to this. I was bound in the original world, why am I still bound in this world? And let me obtain eternal life, so that I can never die, Let my consciousness not dissipate from the beginning of the universe to the end of all things, such a punishment would not even be used by the worst jailer?"

The smile of knowledge gradually became fragmented.The candlelight on the dining table reflected his face with sharp edges and corners, looking indifferent and serious like an iceberg.But the inside of this iceberg contains the most decisive will in the entire world.

Although the air was still filled with the aroma of incense, Li Lin didn't even have a carefree thought.

The memories above have been lingering over and over again, repeating everything he has spent.But here, the god-like knowledge has been enduring maddening pain and despair.And the original soul couldn't even condense its form, so it could only whine and hover over the black water collar, splashing its sorrow with endless black rain.

"When we were in that world, almost everyone thought time travel was a good thing, and it couldn't be better. A new beginning, a mysterious world, legends and monsters are waiting for you to discover. But the fact What about it? You spent ten years climbing to the top of this world, and the whole world has been seen at a glance. For you, this world has no secrets anymore. But what happens after? Who would have thought about what will happen after that? No, no, the finale is over, the whole book is over. No one cares about the next near-eternal pain of the protagonist. Because for that story, he is over."

"From the perspective of the story, my story should end when I became the chief mage of the Northland. I spent my childhood in the alleys and saw countless crimes and tribulations. Killed with my own power The knights were favored by the mages and got the opportunity to study further. Then came the arrogance and provocation of the elf mages, the family forces took turns to play, the discord and phantoms of the palace mages, and finally the sanction and censure of the Church of the Holy Light. Completed After these, I became the chief mage of the Northland."

"So from the perspective of the story, after I left the capital and went to the Northland with the blessing of my friends, this is the end of the story. In the eyes of people, I should go on smoothly without any problems. Hesitation and pain. After all, I am already the top power in the world, and my friends are all powerful, so I can’t write any more.”

"—But the story continues." Li Lin silently added what Knowledge didn't say.

The story is still going on.

The invasion of the barbarians in the north, the chaos of the empire's mage group stopped abruptly, he took in an apprentice, and then went to school to recuperate.Originally, these were good, but since Alexander appeared, the trajectory of the past and the future began to go wild.

It was as if that invisible existence was very dissatisfied with everything that existed, and it plunged the entire empire into disaster in just one day.Influences from the past, sages from the future, endless points of time all locked into that day.Then it was normal, that day became the end of the world.And the world once again restarts from the ashes.

It's almost like, I am not satisfied with this story and started a new work.

(End of this chapter)