Kyushu · Endless Nagato

Chapter 52 False (4)
"Are the two incidents that happened in Shengde's 11th year isolated, or are they related to the great turmoil from last year to this year?" An Xingmian murmured.He suddenly discovered that he and Xue Huaiqing really had a wonderful fate. Both of them were looking for Xu Mizi, and they seemed to be asking two irrelevant questions.But because of a long door monk carrying a basket, because of a former Jinwu guard commander named Xing Wanteng and an eunuch, these two irrelevant problems may become entangled and become one problem.

"It seems that we need to leave the dungeon," Xue Huaiqing said softly, holding An Xingmian's arm to help him up, "Maybe your faith in Nagato has not yet reached the point where it will be shattered."

"Yes, there may be hope." An Xingmian's eyes sparkled.Suddenly, he felt that the blood in his chest began to boil, and all the gloom and loss disappeared.

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That being said, when April was approaching, Xue Huaiqing and An Xingmian still hadn't left the dungeon.After all, they didn't have any solid evidence in their hands, and what they could use to comfort themselves were some plausible doubts, a few flaws that they found barely tenable after careful study.It is really impossible to follow such clues to verify.

But they can't give up, especially for An Xingmian.The shattering of Nagato's faith and Zhang Haoge's death dealt a heavy blow to his heart.And once he knew that the matter was not so certain, and there was a possibility of a comeback, he would definitely pursue it to the end, at least not let Zhang Haoge die in vain.So he still entrusted the Heluos to help him keep an eye on various trends when he was out of the city, trying to analyze something from them.

As expected, the emperor seized Qianyuntang—even though the blacksmith shop had been set on fire and turned into ruins, and started searching for An Xingmian, Xue Huaiqing, and Bai Qianyun.Fortunately, no one outside has ever known the relationship between Bai Qianyun and Heluo, so the Heluo tribe will not be involved.In addition, the relationship between Tang He and An Xingmian has not been investigated, so she can move freely.As soon as her body recovered, she left Yunzhong and returned to Qiuyan Class.For her, rediscovering her past life is the most important thing, although due to the death of her foster brother, the perfect "past life" is no longer possible.

An Xingmian sent her to the carriage, and the two of them were silent all the way. Although their relationship was much more harmonious than before, they seemed to have nothing to say.When he was about to board the car, Tang He turned his head and said to An Xingmian: "Do you feel that you are a little strange recently? I think... you are not like you in the past."

An Xingmian smiled: "Yeah, I wasn't such an angry person in the past, and maybe I wasn't so persistent. Do you think I've become too aggressive?"

"No, I mean, I've never found you so unconfident." Tang He said.

An Xingmian was taken aback: "Not confident? Where did you start?"

Tang He sighed: "I have always hated you in the past, because although you are smart and knowledgeable, you can explain what your brother taught you clearly, but you did not believe in Nagato from the bottom of your heart. You are for The person who was forced by his father to become a monk was also forced by his father to become a long-door monk, but fundamentally speaking, you are a free person and do not want to be bound by anything outside your body. Even if you spend a lot of energy To investigate the banning of Nagato, you have not changed in this regard. You are actually just a fake Nagato monk."

"You mean... I'm not such a free-spirited person anymore?"

Tang He shook his head: "Not anymore. And this change was long before my brother died. In fact, when you found out that my brother 'betrayed' Nagato, your state of mind changed a lot, and you started I am very concerned about the scriptures of Nagato, and I am very concerned about whether this belief that has been passed down for thousands of years is true or not, because it involves your trust in the teacher you respect. You value this trust very much, and you must find an answer, unconsciously In the process, you implanted Nagato in your heart, and Nagato began to dominate your behavior."

An Xingmian fell into deep thought.Before Tang He mentioned it, he didn't realize it, but after listening to it, he felt that what the other party said seemed to be correct.I seem to have really changed a little bit, and I started to call myself a "real long monk" unknowingly.What Tang He said next shocked him even more.

"I have asked other people about your words and deeds. When you found out that Nagato's belief that lasted for thousands of years was probably just a cover, just to cover a conspiracy to destroy Kyushu, you became very depressed and irritable. Very gloomy. And when you and Sister Xue found some doubts in this matter, you became very excited again. Think about it carefully, would you have changed your mood because of these things in the past?"

"You're right, I really won't." An Xingmian said bitterly.

"And if you think about it again, what if, I mean what if, these specious doubts you found are actually just speculations and baseless, and it is finally proved that the emperor is correct and there is a big conspiracy to destroy Kyushu, what would you do? What to do? Will it return to the appearance of those days in the past, restless and depressed all day?" Xue Huaiqing asked.

An Xingmian thought for a long time, and finally sighed: "That's right. If I can't reverse the case for Nagato, I think I will continue to be depressed. This... This is not me in the past, even when you When seeing me, I only have sarcastic remarks, and I will not be like this. I will be sad for a day or two, and I will secretly go to drink a drink and eat some good food behind my teacher's back, and then I will be happy again. Now I... have indeed changed a bit. "

Tang He stretched out his hands and gently held An Xingmian's face.Her ten fingers were soft and cold, and there was a strange feeling when they touched her face.But at this moment, An Xingmian didn't feel any happiness as his dream came true, a kind of sadness surged up in his heart inexplicably, and he didn't know if it was for himself, for Zhang Haoge, or for Nagato.

"Promise me, get back the you from the past, the you who I don't like, but who is real and free enough," Tang He said softly, "I don't read much, I'm just a juggler, I don't understand many things, But at least I know that An Xingmian in the past is better than An Xingmian in the present. Don't tie yourself up with beliefs and other things, just be yourself, be that happy and cheerful fake long door monk .My brother has already given his life for Nagato, and I don't want you to be the second."

She brought An Xingmian's face in front of her, so close that she could hear her breath, and said next to his ear: "Besides, I believe now you also realize who the girl you really like is. For her, you also Live well."

An Xingmian was confused for a while, feeling alternately sad and joyful. When she came to her senses, Tang He's carriage had gone far away.He stared blankly at the carriage going away, the dust raised along the way dissipated in the wind and became invisible.

After returning to the dungeon, he repeatedly recalled what Tang He had just said to him, and suddenly felt a little enlightened.He doesn't know if there are many people in this world who regard faith as their life, if there are many people who would rather die for their faith, and he doesn't know whether such a way of living is good or bad, but he knows that he is not that kind of person .He admires his teacher Zhang Haoge very much, but fundamentally speaking, he is not Zhang Haoge, nor can he become Zhang Haoge.Then, in Tang He's words, throw away those obsessions and be yourself.What Nagato is like, whether it is good or bad, does not affect what An Xingmian is like or whether it is good or bad.

"I will continue to investigate the matter of Nagato to the end," An Xingmian said to herself, "but what Nagato is will not affect me anymore."

After figuring out this section, he felt relaxed, and then remembered that he hadn't continued to learn the Luo language for some days.At first, he went to learn the Luo language just to divert his attention and pass the time, but later he became more and more interested in this language.He especially discovered that he has a special talent in language and writing, and he couldn't help but think of what Zhang Haoge once told him: "After you graduate from the teacher, you can choose a direction to study and research according to your own strengths and interests. Life Time is precious and should not be wasted.”

Then I will use the study of languages ​​of various ethnic groups as the future direction, An Xingmian thought excitedly. After a quick lunch, he ran to find his Heluo teacher Duowen Kaqike, and happened to meet another teacher who should be Kyle, the tribe's well-known Suhang flute.The names of the Heluo people are terrifyingly long. It is impossible to use the full name of the titles used in daily life. They are usually called by a nickname plus a real name, so from the nickname, you can roughly judge a Heluo's specialties, hobbies, and even Defects and more.Flute Kyle’s name is prefixed with “Flute”, which shows that he at least knows how to play the flute. In fact, this well-informed middle-aged Heluo is proficient in the languages ​​of various races and ethnic branches such as Chinese, Barbarian, and Yu. He has deep attainments in music, and especially likes gorgeous and complicated Chinese music.

"Kayer Suxing has just returned from traveling around Zhongzhou and Wanzhou," Kaqike said. "He knew that I accepted a human student, so he asked to meet you and chat with you."

An Xingmian couldn't wish for it: "I just want to practice Luo language."

"We can also communicate directly in Donglu language," the flute Kyle said in fluent Donglu language, "That will be more convenient."

(End of this chapter)