Remarriage's Doting Wife

Chapter 133 I Love You, I'm Sorry

"I have no lover, no family, no relatives, I have nothing—I seem to have a husband, but he was nowhere to be found when I needed him most. At that moment, I realized that I was actually very lonely," Gu Sangyu wrote. The eyes are full of sadness, "I have always lived alone. I eat alone, sleep alone, and live alone. Where were you at that time? Gao Zhan, where are you?"

He is making money, he is trying to give her a better life, but for some reason, Gao Zhan can't say it.

Seeing his troubled look, Gu Sangyu asked him another question, "Ah Zhan, do you still remember the female secretary next to you? Do you still remember why I fired her?"

Speaking of this matter, Gao Zhan was a little embarrassed, he couldn't deny it by pretending that he didn't know anything, so he had no choice but to remain silent.

Seeing him go from being furious just now to being silent now, Gu Sangyu said slowly, "You shouldn't forget the reason why I quietly dismissed her - it's just because I noticed something unusual between you two. ,Am i right?"

At that time, Gao Zhan was not good at drinking, but many business had to be negotiated at the wine table.

So he specially recruited a female secretary who was similar to a public relations secretary. The secretary general was Zhou Zheng, and she had a good capacity for alcohol. Gao Zhan would take her with him on many occasions.

Originally, it was nothing, but Gu Sangyu was also a woman, and when she went to the company a few times, she noticed that the female secretary was somewhat ambiguous with Gao Zhan, both in words and in her daily actions.

She also asked Gao Zhan insincerely, but Gao Zhan prevaricated by saying that she was paranoid.

Therefore, Gu Sangyu paid attention to it, and she would go to the company a few times intentionally or not, and secretly ordered the female secretary, but the female secretary still went her own way, and later Gu Sangyu resigned on her own initiative.

That day the female secretary angrily tried to reason with her, but Gu Sangyu ignored her at all.

The female secretary saw that she didn't like anything, didn't listen to anything, and didn't answer, so she said she was going to find Gao Zhan. Gu Sangyu said that you can go anyway, but I want to see if he will help you or help me.

In the end, I don't know if she went to find Gao Zhan, and the matter passed like this.

Gu Sangyu probably guessed that Gao Zhan didn't really have a clear conscience about the female secretary, so Gao Zhan didn't ask her about Gu Sangyu's actions afterwards.

There was never any talk about it between them.

Now that the old matter is brought up again, Gao Zhan looks a little unnatural.

Gu Sangyu smiled wryly, "But I didn't expect that I could guard against it for a while but not forever."

Gao Zhan naturally understood that she was talking about Han Yansheng.

She was introduced by Gu Sangyu, and she was a classmate with Gao Zhan, so she was naturally more familiar with him than others.

Gao Zhan didn't think much about it at first, because Gu Sangyu said that Han Yansheng had a heavy burden, so Gao Zhan always treated her more leniently than other employees.

She can come half an hour late in the morning, and leave an hour early at night. The extra care she takes at work is actually just because Gu Sangyu often whispers in his ear to ask him to take care of her more.

Only later?
"One night you came back very late, and I asked you where you were, and you said you were having dinner with a client, do you remember?" Gu Sangyu's voice sounded faintly, "But you lied that time, and you didn't talk to me at all. When other people eat, you and Han Yansheng are together."

"I...how did you know?" Gao Zhan has always wanted to know how Gu Sangyu knew what happened that night.

"If you don't want others to know, unless you don't do it yourself," Gu Sangyu paused, "Of course someone saw it and sent a message to ask me. I smiled and told others that they were paranoid. Turn around and call you How much I wish you would tell me the truth, even if you made it clear to me that you sent Han Yansheng's mother to the hospital, what would I do? When I asked you, you lied to me on the phone .”

Speaking of this, Gu Sangyu's voice was a bit cold, "The most ridiculous thing in this world is that I know you are lying, but you still want to lie to me, and I don't know whether you are trying to lie to me or whether you are trying to lie to me. Lie to yourself."

"Actually, I can explain that night. That day Yansheng came to me crying and said that her mother had fainted suddenly. I took her mother to the hospital before I could tell you in detail. But later——"

It's just that when he came out of the hospital later, Han Yansheng cried and hugged him in the middle of the night on the deserted street, saying that he had him in his heart, and he knew that he should be ruthless and refuse, but her family was already so unfortunate, he was afraid that he would say Some words that hurt her heart to make her even more sad.

So he didn't reject her explicitly, but just comforted her and told her not to think about it.

When Gao Zhan returned home, Gu Sangyu asked him again if he was having dinner with a client.

Gao Zhan hesitated for two seconds, he really wanted to tell her the truth.

But he lied anyway.

Because he didn't know how to tell Gu Sangyu what Han Yansheng had confessed to him, so he simply didn't say anything to save her from worrying.

But then Han Yansheng began to chase after him.

While enjoying the vanity of being chased by others, he also has a sense of guilt. He neither clearly refuses nor accepts it frankly.

This made Han Yansheng think that Gao Zhan had feelings for him, but it was because Gu Sangyu was still there. Otherwise, how could he take care of him so much?

It was precisely because of Gao Zhan's unclear attitude that Han Yansheng's determination to be with him became more clear.

Gu Sangyu saw that he had nothing to say, and asked, "What happened next?"

Gao Zhan couldn't say it, and he still can't say it now.

He was afraid that if he said it, Gu Sangyu would ask him sharply why he didn't reject Han Yansheng at the beginning.

How should he answer?

For that little bit of poor man's vanity?

He couldn't speak.

Gu Sangyu sighed, "After that incident, I also tried to talk to you about my thoughts, until you said without warning that you would get the certificate with me first, I thought you had figured it out by yourself, then you knew I had How happy are you?"

From Gu Sangyu's point of view, since he is willing to enter the palace of marriage with him, he should have awakened to what happened before.

He should have thought it through before making such a decision, so she was relieved.

In fact, Gu Sangyu had quarreled with Gao Zhan before this, Gao Zhan left home in anger, and called Han Yansheng without thinking.

Han Yansheng asked him to go to the sofa at her house to make do for the night, but Gao Zhan refused. He said that he would sleep in the office tonight and just wanted to talk to someone.

So Han Yansheng acted as an observer.

Her gentle voice and just-right analysis made Gao Zhan feel that she understood herself so well. She mentioned many problems between Gao Zhan and Gu Sangyu. There will inevitably be various contradictions when they come together.

Gao Zhan told her that he had thought for a long time that the two of them would get better after the running-in period was over, but he didn't expect that the running-in period would be so difficult.

Han Yansheng comforted him softly.

They talked all night.

He told her many things that happened between him and Gu Sangyu in the past.

But Gao Zhan will never know that Han Yansheng comforts him and encourages him on the surface, but he is analyzing the situation that is beneficial to him in his heart.

So in daily life, Han Yansheng is still considerate and gentle to Gao Zhan, and Gao Zhan gradually feels a little indifferent to Gu Sangyu.

Until the day of his own birthday, he came home and saw the table full of meals, and the scene where Gu Sangyu was lying on the sofa and fell asleep.

He suddenly remembered Gu Sangyu's kindness to him in his mind. He touched Gu Sangyu's side face in his sleep, and only then realized that he had ignored her a lot during this time.

He woke her up and said to her, "Let's get married."

Then the two went to get the certificate the next day.

Later, he thought that since he had made an appointment with Gu Sangyu, he should make it clear to Han Yansheng.

In the office, he expressed his thoughts to Han Yansheng, but Han Yansheng didn't say anything, just nodded silently.

Just when he thought it was over, Gu Sangyu went on a business trip.

That night, he drank too much to accompany the client, and met Han Yansheng on the side of the road. Seeing that he was dizzy and unable to walk, she took the initiative to ask him to take him home.

Then she drove Gao Zhan's car back to his and Gu Sangyu's residence.

Gao Zhan slept in the middle of the night in a daze and woke up when he was still a little dizzy. He saw Han Yansheng lying on the edge of the bed holding his hand.

Seeing him wake up, Han Yansheng threw himself into his arms, and cried without any warning, kissing him while expressing his love to him.

She said that she loved him very much and only wanted to be with him, but she loved him so humblely that she didn't want anything.

She said that as long as this night she would never pester Gao Zhan again, she would resign and go far away without disturbing them.

In the dead of night, drunk, with such an infatuated woman in his arms, he couldn't control it, he was a little distracted.

So there was the scene that Gu Sangyu saw when he came home early.

In fact, many things are not smooth.

For example, Gu Sangyu also got drunk at night in the first few days after he left, but he didn't meet Han Yansheng on the street like that.

It was only the night before Gu Sangyu came back that he ran into her by such a coincidence.

Gu Sangyu felt a little melancholy, she also heard about what happened that night between Gao Zhan and Han Yansheng from the company.

A guy who went to socialize with him had a good impression of Gu Sangyu. He told Gu Sangyu that Gao Zhan met a woman on the side of the road, and it was this woman who asked to send Gao Zhan home.

Gu Sangyu rubbed her sore eyes, the tears stopped flowing, she said to Gao Zhan, "I thought you would take care of your own affairs, after all, getting married is not a trivial matter, I thought you had already thought it through, but I didn't I thought it would be this result. Do you know that the day before I was going to come back early from a business trip, Han Yansheng called me to ask when I would come back, and I told her that I bought a ticket for the next day to give you a surprise .And when I came back, you really gave me a big 'surprise'—"

Gao Zhan couldn't believe it, "You said she called to ask you the date of your return?"

Gu Sangyu glanced at him lightly, "You don't have to believe me, but what I said is the truth."

Of course he believed her, but it was difficult for him to accept it for a while.

He knew that he was tricked by Han Yansheng, but he never thought that even the night when he confessed his true feelings was a trap for timing.

The most gentle woman, no one can resist.

Regret, resentment, and unwillingness surrounded him.

He was too stupid, he was too stupid to get lost in such a simple vortex, wasting Gu Sangyu's affection for him in vain.

"During the month I left you, do you know that I have been waiting for you? I was waiting for your explanation, waiting for your answer, but I never got it," Gu Sangyu said quietly, "I think maybe it is I overestimated myself. I am not that important to you, am I? Otherwise, why would you be willing to let me think about it for a month? If you really love me and love me, how could you not say a word? Leave me alone?"

"My heart has been suffering repeatedly during this month, and I finally figured out one thing." Gu Sangyu felt a little cold all over her body, and her voice became even colder, "I can live without you."

"I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep at night, my heart was in pain, my heart was broken... But I found that I was still alive, I didn't die, this is what I wanted to understand for a month, Gao Zhan——" She no longer called him A Zhan, she looked straight at him, and said firmly, "It turns out that in this world, everyone can live without anyone, it's just a matter of time. Without you, I can live without you. Me, you can live on too."

Gao Zhan had never seen her look like this before.

With relief and frankness, what she said was her sincere words, without any sarcasm or other emotions, and she persuaded him seriously, "Gao Zhan, you go back. No matter you and Han Yansheng are separated Yes, that's something you have to face, no matter what she does, you have to solve it yourself, it's useless to escape. And I——you can see, I'm doing well, I've Put you down completely, whether I have a new lover or not, this has nothing to do with you, do you understand me when I say that?"

How can you not understand.

She said so much, the meaning is already obvious.

She doesn't love him anymore, and she won't have the slightest nostalgia for him anymore.

She still remembers their past, but this does not affect her pursuit of happiness.

Even if she remembered those good times, what she missed was only those good things, not including him.

Gao Zhan hummed lightly.

His eyes were dazzled by the small diamond in Gu Sangyu's hand, and he couldn't help looking at the ring again.

Exquisite and small, with a novel style, it can be seen that the person who chose the ring put his heart into it.

Gao Zhan first smiled, and when he raised his head again, there were tears in his eyes.

He knelt in front of Gu Sangyu, first gently shook her hand, his fingertips were cold, and his voice was bitter, "From now on, treat yourself better, you are afraid of the cold, remember not to wear too little in winter. If you have a cold, drink less fluids, your body is not good—"

Seeing that Gu Sangyu didn't withdraw his hand, he gently hugged her into his arms again, resting his chin on the top of her head, his voice was soft, as if hugging for the first time, "I'm sorry for hurting you. I still love you—ah Yu, I love you."

(End of this chapter)