Take the shadow guard to travel the rivers and lakes

Chapter 13
Ye Wugou has always wanted to save face very much. When he was in the worst situation in the past, he even refused to admit a word, and he refused to say a word of suffering. He was living hard, and in front of others, he was determined not to give in. one point.

The former Ye Wugou was also a stubborn young man with a poor family background, so naturally he had no background and couldn't afford any gifts, so being alive was already luck.When he was in school, he was bullied by his teachers and squeezed out by his classmates, as if his body was so dirty that he had to wash his hands several times after touching him.Fortunately, he can be regarded as a good man, stumbled and stumbled into a very good university, the tuition fee was waived, and besides his own part-time job, he also got a relatively generous scholarship. Finally, he saw a little light in his life.

And Ye Wugou, who has always been used to struggling, of course understands that when you don’t have a backstage, no one will help you for no reason except yourself, so he started working hard very early on, and he is regarded as an expert in the game development industry. A world was mixed up.

In the eyes of others, Ye Wugou's short life is like an inspirational movie. From a bullied teenager to a rising star in the game, it makes people feel a kind of vigorous force that inspires people to go up.

But only Ye Wugou knew that all his masks were just playing around to make himself better off. The darkness in his heart and the scariness of his wounds had never healed. Those pasts cannot be erased, let alone forgotten, and will even remind him every night and every dream how hard and twisted his past was.

Some people take pleasure in inflicting pain on others.

For the sake of money, he was willing to take on the hard work that no one was willing to do. He was beaten like a layer of skin was peeled off, but he gritted his teeth and refused to scream. holding on to something.

Perhaps, he insisted not to hate himself any more, because if he hated him a little more, he might not even have the last bit of courage to live.

Those who have never experienced the pain of whipping off their nails and using candles to bake their fingers are not qualified to tell those living in hell not to commit suicide, and they will not know, without that How difficult it is to be willing to degenerate in the misery of life, but to struggle desperately, desperately to catch the life that really has only a ray of life.

If you don’t study, there is no way out, but not everyone will be like your parents, who will help you study for free, hoping that you can live a good life and stand out.For Ye Wugou, if someone does this to him, it is because they have taken a fancy to something in him and want to exchange it.

But instead of being a plaything for those people and "slaves", he would rather hold on to the last bit of freedom.

After coming to this world, Ye Wugou really thought that this was God's compensation for his past, and everything was like the beauty that only appeared in a dream.

One year was enough for him to know what kind of person Ye Yixin was, and he couldn't wait but cautiously wanted to find too many feelings from Ye Yixin that he had been looking forward to for an unknown number of years, including a sense of security, pure love, complete Trust, absolute loyalty... At the same time, he poured all the love and kindness that he suppressed and gradually recovered into Ye Yixin.

He thought that if he gave Ye Yixin all the things he wanted the most, Ye Yixin would be able to give him what he wanted in return. In fact, what he wanted was really not much, not even as he imagined. He will paranoidly need Ye Yixin to give him such pure everything... He really loves a person so badly, he is willing to give in when he loves what he wants, and he is willing to give him everything. Loyalty, trust and liking, he just needs a little bit.

Really just a little bit.

"Ye Yixin, I'm willing to give you my life. You can't, you can't say you hate me."

Ye Wugou hadn't waited for Ye Yixin to answer, and he started talking to himself as if he was afraid of hearing some answer, "I, I'm afraid to disturb you and your mother, and I'm afraid you will be embarrassed by my presence. After all, I'm a Outsiders... I didn't dare, didn't go in. You want to go home, right?"

Ye Wugou seemed to want to confirm something, subconsciously raised his head to look at Ye Yixin, but then avoided his eyes for a moment, but the hand holding Ye Yixin's arm suddenly tightened, as if he was afraid of hurting him. Suddenly let go, and finally just touched Ye Yixin's clothes carefully.

Ye Wugou's eyes were flushed, but he was still smiling, but there was a bit of bitterness in the seemingly shy smile.

"But if you want to go home, you can't leave me alone... I'm still the best owner to you... You should come and see me anyway..."

"You have become a major general. There are so many things about the villa and the Shadow Pavilion. You...you still have to take care of it when you have time...I don't know when you plan to tactfully drive me away. Don't rush me too early. I'm leaving, lest I withhold the gift and not give it to you..."

"I, I have never been kind to others. In fact, I have no experience in confessing and begging. Don't hate the kiss just now... For the sake of the gift, don't hate it too much..."

"Actually, I always thought that I could keep you by my side all the time, and you could always listen to me. When I saw your mother today, I suddenly realized that you might have to go back to them from me... Major general, it sounds mighty and domineering, better than shadow guards... It was quite sudden, I thought about it for a long time..."

"When you become a major general, you always want to pass on the family line, but don't stay like you were before. People wait for you to give you a cloak, and you don't come until it's dark. There are no girls who want it..."

Ye Wugou's words became more and more slippery as he spoke, but his eyes were flushed, as if the fragility of two lifetimes had been given to this person in front of him.

He really has never been soft, and he has never said such soft words to anyone, let alone presenting his saddest and most painful places in front of others, but he is addicted to self-abuse. Inserted on the apex of my heart, the pain was so painful that I almost got used to it.

But what can he do? He always thought that he had only a slight liking and possession for Ye Yixin, but it was not until he was about to leave that he realized that he was in love with him. He couldn't even speak harsh words, and couldn't bear to inflict harm.

"You don't have to worry about me, I'm Yangou, I can always find someone more handsome..."

Ye Wugou pretended to laugh carefreely, but he knew in his heart that if he couldn't find it, where would he go to find another Ye Yixin?Thinking about it, I felt so distressed that I could hardly hold back my laughter.

It turns out that loving someone can be so miserable, that you don't even look like yourself anymore, you are willing to offer your dignity and persistence with both hands, and let the other person trample on you.

Ye Wugou said a lot of things like this and that in a very chaotic manner, but in fact, all he wanted to say was just one sentence——

Don't leave me, good or bad, I can't stand it.

But there is only this sentence, which Ye Wugou can't say no matter what, it's like insisting on the last point of persistence. Once he loses the last point of persistence, he may really not be able to survive.

(End of this chapter)