Take the shadow guard to travel the rivers and lakes

Chapter 42
Ye Wugou is also very helpless, he thinks he has never bullied Huo Yixin, at most it is limited to those a little bit of excessive profiteering and jokes, but Huo Yixin is not completely ignorant of love, but he is still a piece of wood in essence, It makes people want to bully him once, because if you bully him again, he won't hate you, and he won't even resist at all, but just like this, it makes you reluctant to bully him.

But Ye Wugou also understood that Huo Yixin always felt sorry for him, even if he didn't talk about this piece of wood, he would still understand.In the heart of this piece of wood, he, Ye Wugou, is like a perfect man, with all kinds of good things, especially last time, he felt that he was cheated and dragged him into the quagmire of rebellion. I feel sorry for him even more, so now even if he is plotting, or fighting monsters, this piece of wood will feel guilty, which makes Ye Wugou feel distressed and helpless at the same time.

It's nothing to rebel, at best it's a life, but in his heart, finding Huo Yixin is far more important than his life.

The two of them returned to the inn and closed the door. Ye Wugou had also been building himself up mentally for a while, so when it came time to say these words, it wasn't that difficult, but in the end there were still some pretending to be calm. Pretend, Ye Wugou is a man after all, he doesn't want to sympathize with Bo Huo Yixin, if it wasn't for Huo Yixin who couldn't untie his knots and often blamed himself, he wouldn't be here to expose his scars.

The past in those bloody forests, even if he deceived himself, was still vivid in his mind. No matter how lightly he described it, it was actually not easy to deceive others.

"I'm not the perfect person you imagined, including martial arts, including piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, including high family background, none of these, nor the beautiful pictures you outlined.

I'm in another world, it's..." Ye Wugou's voice paused, he thought, or else he should skip this paragraph, or he would call himself an "orphan", as if he was begging others to take pity on him. A homeless stray dog, this is fate, I can't beg for mercy from others, even if it is Huo Yixin, he can't tear his heart apart, how painful it must be, so Ye Wugou thought, If Huo Yi didn't ask, then he wouldn't talk about it, or it would hurt.

So Ye Wugou thought about it, and decided to start talking about it when he was 14 years old, and skip all the previous ones.

"That world is always developing very fast. Everyone is studying hard, for fear that they will be eliminated. Elimination will not kill you, but life will be worse than death. Everyone is divided into first-class citizens, second-class citizens and waste , waste is not eligible to eat, drink and study for free, everything needs to be paid for in exchange. Therefore, some wastes become slaves to "people", some wastes die, and some wastes survive by selling their bodies.

...the way of selling the body is also different.Some people like to go to bed, some people like tricks. When I was 14 years old, I broke away from the protection period of the federal government. I had no more relief and no source of livelihood. No matter how well I studied, I had no way to continue my life. Climbing, willing to do any lowly work, only the buttocks are not willing to sell, which can be regarded as a show of art rather than a body. "

Even after a long time of mental construction, Ye Wugou still felt that he was going to be overwhelmed when it came time to say it, but it had already started, and it would end now, and there was nothing to say Say it.

"So, don't keep thinking that you are sorry for me. I am not noble. If you make a mistake, you will be whipped. I will be whipped because others find it interesting. If you say that, do you think..." Ye Wugou Suddenly he couldn't speak anymore, he clenched his teeth, he couldn't slow down for a long time, his eyes were flushed, this expression, it seemed that he had stabbed a knife in his heart cruelly, the wound was hideous, bloody and deadly Cover it and refuse to let others see it.

"Later, on the day when I became a first-class citizen, I swore that I would give all my love to the first person who liked me, no matter who he was. But since that day, all The people who show kindness to me, they all took a fancy to my status, the technology in my head, until I came to this world, after I saw his memory, I recognized you, even if you were his Shadow Guard, I must also snatch you into my hands, not only for your loyalty, but also for your love."

After talking for so long, Ye Wugou raised his head and looked at Huo Yixin firmly, "So do you understand, you are not a dispensable person to me, let alone an object that can be treated wantonly. I gave you all my likes and loves, I don't want you to repay me, but I beg you, don't spoil and don't underestimate yourself! You are mine!"

Ye Wugou uttered every word extremely harshly, his expression was completely ferocious and crazy, he was willing to tear open those scars that were extremely painful, he was so paranoid that it was almost unreasonable and unreasonable, but if someone has mind reading skills, he must A dying despair could be read in all his emotions.

He was afraid, he was afraid that Huo Yixin would ruthlessly tear open these bloody wounds, he was afraid that after he chose to expose everything, Huo Yixin would despise his lowliness and ugliness, he was afraid that what he hadn't said would be taken away. Huo Yixin said it mercilessly.

Ye Wugou could actually wait, he could not say anything, but he couldn't take it anymore.

Every time Huo Yixin showed self-blaming eyes, it seemed that he was using the sharpest words to scold him for concealing, he was miserable, he had already lost the conscience that a human being should have, he had no choice but to climb up by any means, If he didn't know that even if he sold the last bit of dignity, he would fall into a complete collapse, and he wouldn't care at all, because he had been fantasizing about having someone who truly loved him, and he would keep the last for this person. That bottom line, this is his deepest obsession.

But when he really loves Huo Yixin, this bottom line has become a fig leaf for those unbearable, and it has become the only reason in his dry narration that he can barely regard as a reason to intercede for himself.

In all the words he said just now, he refused to make Huo Yixin feel sorry for him, and he refused to give in, but if he heard it in the ears of those who loved him, there was not a single word that was not a plea with blood and tears.

He refused to let Huo Yixin bow his head, and begged him not to ruin himself, but he stabbed himself in the heart one after another, blood spattered, he didn't care at all, and he wasn't merciless at all.

He didn't want Huo Yixin to give him all the initiative, so he gave up all the power. Even if he went to court, the murderer would defend himself, but he refused to speak for himself , just waiting for Huo Yixin's verdict.

Just like he said before, he can put Huo Yixin's hand on his neck forever.

When he forced Huo Yixin to confess, he didn't want him to blame himself and suffer, and after several twists and turns, he made up his mind.

But when he forced himself, he raised the knife and dropped it, he could give up any dignity, he could grit his teeth to endure any kind of pain, and he could even pretend to be unconscious.

Even if you are afraid, you have to pretend not to be afraid.

The tears that have never been shed are as heavy as the sea.

　PS. This chapter should have been written a long time ago, but I have been reluctant to hand out the knife, so I procrastinated until now.Try to send out sugar tomorrow...well, try

　　
　
(End of this chapter)