from widow to dame

Chapter 84

What is haggard?
What is sad?
What is trapped by love.

You can tell by looking at Yan Hongzhen in front of you.

When Su Huiniang opened the door, what she saw was a white robe hanging empty on his body, his eyes were red, and his face was full of pain.

Before she could say anything, her heart softened three points, and she couldn't help asking with some distress: "You, how did you do this!"

As soon as Yan Hongzhen pursed his lips, tears flowed out like a stream. He was born with a unique good appearance, and such an expression of silent tears really made people's heart ache.

"Elder sister doesn't want Xiaoqi anymore, so why do I care what I do?" Yan Hongzhen cried while looking at Su Huiniang faintly with resentment in his eyes.

"What are you talking about, when will I not want you anymore." Su Huiniang avoided his eyes with some guilt.

"Sister Hui, do you dare to say that you didn't avoid me?" Yan Hongzhen bit his pale lips, and said to Su Huiniang as if he had made up his mind: "Xiaoqi knows that sister Hui has been nice to me since she was a child. You see me as your own younger brother, but Xiao Qi has failed Sister Hui's love and affection, and has a heart for you. This is really wrong, but I can't control my heart no matter what, Sister Hui If you hate Xiao Qi because of this, and get far away from Xiao Qi, then let Xiao Qi use this dead life to make amends to Sister Hui!"

After finishing speaking, Su Huiniang, who was stunned to listen, slid out the dagger in her sleeve, pointed it at her chest, and stabbed it like that. When the knife entered the handle, blood instantly stained her skirt red like a fountain.

Su Huiniang looked at the bloody flowers that quickly fainted in front of her eyes, she was dumbfounded, what's going on?Just said a few words in front of him, how could he start self-harm?

"You, you, you you you you..."

Yan Hongzhen looked at Su Huiniang, who was pale, terrified, and in a state of confusion, and smiled faintly. The smile was full of "sadness". He pulled out the dagger, and then stabbed him twice in succession. Knife.

"Stop!!! Stop!!! Don't, don't, don't" Su Huiniang rushed forward like crazy, tightly grasped Yan Hongzhen's hands holding the knife, and yelled frantically: "Come here, come here, Call the doctor, call the doctor..."

At this moment, Yan Hongzhen was completely a bloody man. He fell to the ground, his face was white with death, but he still looked at Su Huiniang persistently and said intermittently: "Sister, are you willing to forgive me?"

"Crazy, you crazy!!" Su Huiniang cried loudly, "I've raised you for so many years just to let you stab me with a knife? You keep saying you like it, but you treat me like this, I, I don't want to forgive you, I hate you."

"I'm sorry." Yan Hongzhen's voice quickly weakened: "In this life, I'm afraid I will never, never be able to stop thinking about you, waiting for the next life, the next life..."

Su Huiniang's heart was trembling. At this moment, she couldn't care about anything else, she just held Yan Hongzhen's head and cried, "As long as you don't die, I will promise you anything, don't die... ..."

Do you really promise anything?Yan Hong closed his eyes contentedly, he knew that Sister Hui couldn't bear him.

When Mu Xiang hurried over with the doctor, Yan Hongzhen had passed out for a long time. Su Huiniang didn't remember much of what happened afterwards. She just cried, and kept crying until she fainted to death. past.

For Yan Hongzhen, although the bitter trick this time was part of acting, the three knives were actually pierced into his body, so this trip lasted for three full days, and these three days were simply hell for Su Huiniang. She stayed by Yan Hongzhen's side night and night, and would check his breath from time to time, for fear that he would die just like that, so when Yan Hongzhen opened his eyes again, what he saw was pale and haggard. , Sister Hui who has lost a lot of weight.

Seeing him wake up, Su Huiniang was ecstatic at first, then thought of something, her face changed several times, and finally said: "Are you awake?"

Yan Hongzhen nodded slightly, and wanted to sit up, only to realize that his entire upper body had turned into a mummy.

"Don't move around, be careful to pull the wound."

Yan Hongzhen listened and did not move obediently.

"I'm sorry..." he said after a while.

Su Huiniang often sighed, and smiled wryly, "You're not apologizing, you're clearly threatening me."

Threatening others with one's own life sounds ridiculous, but if the person being threatened values ​​his own life more than anything else, then it's a different matter.

"But I don't know what else to show my sincerity besides this method." Yan Hongzhen looked disappointed, full of anxiety.

After Su Huiniang was silent for a moment, she said: "Have you ever thought that your feelings for me may not be the relationship between a man and a woman, it may be the relationship between mother and child, or the relationship between siblings, just because you rarely contact me. Other women, and we are not related by blood, so you have this illusion."

"Sister Hui's delusion is not bad, Xiaoqi doesn't understand." Yan Hongzhen looked at Su Huiniang straight, and said word by word: "I only know one thing, as long as I imagine it in my mind, one day Hui My sister will fall in love with other men and become the wife of other men, and I will go crazy with anger. I will want to kill anyone who robs you, and maybe I will kill you too, because you don't want me anymore. Of course, I In the end, I will go down to accompany you, whether it is this life or the next life, I will haunt you life after life, and you will never want to throw me away."

When Su Huiniang heard this, the tears in her eyes couldn't help shedding more fiercely, and she cried, "What do I owe you? I will be owed you for generations."

"You owe me a heart." Yan Hongzhen grabbed her hand and placed it on his chest with difficulty: "It's already empty inside, and it was taken away by you."

When Su Huiniang heard this, she burst into tears. She didn't know why she kept crying again recently. Some of the tears she cried these days were more than the two lifetimes combined, but it wasn't just sadness, but also With a touch of joy.

Hasn't this kind of relationship been what she wanted to pursue all along?

A persistent, even if everything is ruined, never let go of consciousness.

Su Huiniang was lying beside the bed, crying like a child.

Yan Hongzhen held her hands tightly, with a boyish face, but with unwavering persistence, he would not let go, even if Sister Hui did not accept it, he would never let go.

Absolutely not.

Yan Hong's real injury improved at a speed visible to the naked eye after he woke up. After lying on the bed for seventeen or eight days, he was able to get out of bed and walk around. Fu and Su Huiniang's space spirit spring that didn't get stuck in the organs was credited.Of course, the blood that bleeds will not flow back, so Yan Hongzhen still has to live a life of recuperating from his wounds by wearing bandages, eating pork liver, and drinking ginseng soup.

However, for him, the past half month has been "full of happiness". His sister Hui has become close to him again without the dodge of the previous days, and more importantly, he found that after changing the dressing Sister Hui's face seemed a little uncomfortable when she was laying the cloth. You must know that she used to be a woman who didn't blink when she saw her naked eyes. Is this a signal that in Sister Hui's heart, she finally sees him as a man? up?Every time I think of this, Yan Hongzhen is like the drunkard who was drunk, his whole body is about to fly, and he just thinks why he didn't stick three knives in his body at the beginning. If this is the case, Sister Hui might agree to marry Give it to him!
"Hee hee..." Yan Hongzhen had a sweet smirk on his face, but the more he thought about it, the more beautiful he became.

"Don't be too complacent." Su Huiniang raised him by herself, so why didn't she know what he was thinking.

"I'll tell you first..." Holding back the heat on her face, Su Huiniang said solemnly: "Since you have such thoughts about me, you should show your sincerity instead of threatening with a knife. Wouldn't it be nice if you did this? It hurts my heart even more." Thinking of the scene of him covered in blood that day, Su Huiniang was still terrified.

"I was wrong! I will apologize to my sister, and I will never do this again in the future!" Yan Hongzhen stood up and bowed deeply to Su Huiniang.

He had injuries on his body, and when he stood up again, he couldn't help grinning, but he didn't know whether he was really hurt or just showing it to others.

Su Huiniang saw that his face was ashamed, she should have admitted his mistake sincerely, the breath that was blocked in her heart finally disappeared.

"It's just Sister Hui..." After admitting his mistake, someone showed a "timid" expression, and asked with great desire and pitifulness: "Then you, do you accept, accept me?"

Su Huiniang glanced at him, her face became more uncomfortable. However, she is a mature mind after all. Now that she has determined her mind and doesn't want to miss this relationship, she naturally won't play with Yue Menghao and Bird Misty. For the local affairs, whether to accept or reject, simply and neatly, and not ignoring others or herself is her style.

"If you have such thoughts, then we will make an agreement in three chapters." Su Huiniang straightened her face and said.

Yan Hongzhen immediately pretended to be listening attentively.

"First, you must be a decent person in the future, and you must never hurt others with your own selfishness."

Yan Hongzhen hesitated for a moment: "If it is related to the mission of Jinyiwei, then I have nothing to do."

Su Huiniang said quickly, "You hesitated so much on the first point, so you don't have any sincerity."

"Okay, okay, I promise it's not enough!" Yan Hongzhen said with a grateful smile when he saw that Su Huiniang was unhappy.

"Secondly, one day, if you and I really become husband and wife, you must treat me wholeheartedly, and there will never be another person between the two of you."

"I agree, I agree." Yan Hongzhen nodded his head like a chicken pecking rice.

"Third..." Su Huiniang's face turned red, but she still said: "Three matchmakers, six hires, eight big sedan chairs, you want the matchmaker to marry."

Yan Hongzhen was happy from the beginning to the end, with the expression of being hit by a thousand taels of gold falling from the sky.

Well, very, very, demented.

"Why don't you want to?" Su Huiniang frowned.

Yan Hongzhen gulped, swallowed, and asked dizzily, "When will you get married?"

Su Huiniang choked on this question. Although she was of a certain age, she was still a woman. How could a woman in this world speak first when she got married?Besides, she herself hasn't completely changed her mind yet, she must leave some buffer time.

Therefore, Yan Hongzhen only got a blank white eye in the end, but for him who was completely dizzy at this time, he should not care at all. It should not be difficult to see it after several 360-degree circles on the spot.

After the window paper was punctured, the relationship between the two seemed not much different from before, except that Yan Hongzhen was more clingy.

The days passed peacefully like this, and when the weather gradually cooled down, Yan Hongzhen's injuries were completely healed, and he resumed his daily job of guarding the gate. Bian has already beheaded many people, and it is said that they are all high-ranking officials from the south of the Yangtze River, colluding with merchants, smuggling salt and so on.And not long after this incident, Yan Hongzhen told her that he had been promoted, from a school lieutenant to a hundred households, and his official status was from the sixth rank.

Su Huiniang looked at Yan Hongzhen, who was dressed in a flying fish suit, with spring knives embroidered on his waist, and black cloud boots. He looked very different from usual. She didn't even recover for a long time, until the child started to stinky fart. When he showed off, he asked a little suspiciously: "You won't do anything bad, will you?"

There is no way, after decades, Jin Yiwei is synonymous with cruelty and killing loyal ministers, how could she not be worried.

Yan Hongzhen pouted with some grievances: "What did Sister Hui say? She was promoted so easily. You are not happy for me, so why are you pouring cold water on me?"

Su Huiniang gently pulled his hands, and said softly: "I am not happy for you, but I also know that the reason why you will be promoted is probably because of your own life!" Hongzhen was injured by poisoning last time.

"Xiao Qi knows that Sister Hui loves me." Yan Hongzhen smiled, suddenly lowered his head, kissed Su Huiniang quickly, and before the other party reacted, covered his mouth and ran out like a girl.

Su Huiniang raised her hand, touched her face, shook her head after a while, and murmured angrily, "Why are you running? I'm not a tiger!"

Time always flies, four months after Yan Hongzhen was promoted, the Spring Festival came again.

Su Huiniang began to put her mind on "official affairs" again, and gave New Year's gifts to people she knew well, especially the Weiwubo Mansion and Chang Mansion. Year-end inventory, these things became boring as soon as they got busy. It was not until the day before the Spring Festival that Su Huiniang finally got some free time.

"This is for you." Su Huiniang handed a set of clothes to Yan Hongzhen.

The clothes are made of red fabric with dark patterns printed on it. Su Huiniang made a fuss on the collar ingeniously. Instead of using a slanted lapel or open collar, she chose a double stand-up collar. With dark gray mink fur, it looks really beautiful and chic.

Yan Hongzhen took it happily, and then seemed to remember something and asked, "Sister Hui... also, did you make it for Aunt Lin and Brother Wen?"

"Mother's share was made by Huoxiang this year."

"As for Su Wen, Miss Chang has plans."

Yan Hongzhen listened, the smile on his face deepened, and he ran away with his clothes in his arms.

It looks like I can't wait to try it out.

(End of this chapter)