i prefer you

Chapter 7

Xu Yong drove Ying'ai back to her house, he even stopped the car to accompany her upstairs, maybe she really scared him today.If he didn't turn his head softly, he didn't know what she would be like by the side of the road alone.

Besides, there are some questions that he must ask clearly today, although he doesn't know why he is so persistent.

"You haven't changed your residence? Did you buy the house?" He found that she was still living in the small suite she used to live in.

And it was only then that he remembered that the time they had known each other was really not too long, because he didn't know much about her, such as her wealth and background.

"I bought it." She replied lightly. "At first, I thought that if I had my own nest, I would have a sense of belonging, but...if my heart has no place to rest, I would wander everywhere," she said with emotion.

He met her with sad eyes, not allowing himself to soften his heart again.

'Oh wonder what just happened. "He sat down at her Japanese room table, where he used to sit. The layout of the room has not changed in the past two years.

"Do you want tea or coffee? But I only have instant coffee, and I haven't bought coffee beans just now." She asked, getting up to get him a drink.

He grabs her. "I won't drink, you sit down. It's you..." He pushed her to sit on the seat, but got up and poured a glass of water for her. "Drink it." Look at your pale face!
She took a few sips of warm water obediently, fanned her two rows of thick eyelashes like a fan, then opened them and looked directly at him.

"I... that's actually a psychological effect. As long as I'm in a dark place, where I feel that there are many shadows, I will be very... nervous." She didn't know how to speak, because she was used to expressing her fear and pain Buried in the depths, what people see is always the strong side.

"Have you... seen a doctor! What did the doctor say? Do you often do this?" He didn't intend to let her fool around casually, and he didn't intend to end her discomfort.

Sometimes Xia Xuyong is also a stubborn person.

"Usually I only sweat coldly. As long as you don't stay in too dark places, the situation can be improved. And, it's actually not that serious. It's usually just an occasional nightmare." She spoke calmly, as if talking about someone else's business . "The doctor said it was a normal reaction, and the situation might improve over time." Her voice became weaker as she spoke.

"Why did this happen? What happened?" His frown showed that he was quite concerned about this matter.

He didn't want his heart to be so involved with her, but who was he lying to?If you want him to leave as if nothing had happened, he still can't do it!
She smiled nervously. "Actually, it's nothing, it's just what I told you, I went home too late at night and was robbed by bad guys..."

"Didn't you make it up to lie to me?" Thinking of her deception, he was still very angry.

She flinched under his ferocious gaze.Strange, why did you think he was gentle before?He is a stubborn and vicious man at all!
"Except for the loss of memory, everything else is true, and I didn't mean to lie to you, it was you who thought..."

"I thought you lost your memory, so you just let me misunderstand you? So that I can be an idiot?" He said angrily, his anger still lingering.

Thinking that he rarely spoke his heart out to others in his life, perhaps the fact that she had forgotten him shocked him so much that he tried his best to remind her of it, so for the past The narration of the telegram is detailed and without concealment.

"At first I didn't know how to react, but then when I heard you start talking about the process of our acquaintance, I... I couldn't bear to talk about it." She looked back at him and her eyes became gentle, thinking of him talking about knowing each other The bits and pieces of the process were the greatest gift she ever received.

It healed part of her wounds.

It also gave her the courage to chase him back.

He avoided her affectionate gaze, unwilling to sink into the vortex of emotion again.Too many strong feelings were aroused today that he didn't want to recall.

"That's all in the past, now it's too stupid to say that!" His expression clearly showed what he commented on what he did today.

"No!" she said firmly. "There's no past! It's important to me, and it's important to me to know what you think about what we've had between us." She leaned forward urgently, trying to express the shock inside her.

His mouth was tightly clenched, and his face looked too resolute, as if he was indifferent.

"Those are in the past. I used to have great doubts about everything about myself because of your departure. I used to think that I could provide you with sincere care and a stable and developing relationship. After all, I have never been in love with someone in my life. Women have cared so much before." He paused as he spoke.

After she left him, the feeling that she had failed was so strong, as if she had some major flaw that she didn't know about, otherwise how could she have left him without hesitation?

She looked at him silently, urging him to continue with her eyes.

"I've never been so frustrated. When you say you want to leave me without even discussing it, it's the same as denying my love."

"It's not like this!" She knelt up and grabbed his arm. "It's because I can't handle such a strong feeling, I'm useless, and the opportunity to study abroad came so suddenly, it has always been a dream come true for me, I..."

"That has nothing to do with dreams or not!" He interrupted her eager explanation. "You didn't explain anything at all, just told me you were leaving me, that's it!"

Being robbed by him, she turned pale a little.

She never thought that he thought so!

For more than two years, she regretted her decision, but she never thought that this decision would bring him such feelings. She saw how self-righteous she was!
"I...actually want you to wait for me, but I also thought, it's not fair to ask you to wait for me. After all, we've only known each other for two or three months. Once I go to the United States, I don't know how many years it will take me to come back." Her His eyes are full of regret, regret for himself, for the past!
"Did you ask me?" He stood up angrily. "It's up to me to decide whether or not to wait for you? Have you asked me? Have you ever tried to explain this to me? You haven't contacted me for more than two years!" He was so angry that he wanted to brush her away hand on his arm.

Seeing through his attempt, Ying'ai hugged him from the side with her whole body. "I know I was wrong! I knew I was wrong as soon as I went to America, but..." She cried and trembled, but still didn't let him go. "But I dare not admit it! There is no turning back for me, you know? Everyone is waiting to see me laugh, and there is no turning back."

"Why do you have to pretend to be so strong in front of everyone? Why don't you let yourself relax a little?" He frowned and said distressedly when he heard her words. "Aren't you tired?" His heart softened again.

The last question was so soft, so soft, but it broke the most fragile wall in her heart!

She began to cry silently, hugging his hand as if climbing a cliff, her whole body was about to collapse.

He couldn't help but pull her up and hold her in his arms.

"Oh!" he sighed.

Why couldn't his heart be hardened to her after all?
＋＋ten

Ying'ai stepped into the office that she hadn't been in for a long time, feeling a little emotional in her heart.The company has moved to Xinyi District, where technology companies gather.The important thing is that the new office is very close to "Guanyu Technology", and it only takes 15 minutes to walk.

"You came here today to get acquainted with the environment, there is no need to stay until after get off work." Xiaowen winked at her. "You can go to 'Guan Yu' to see old friends at night."

Xiaowen knew about her and Xu Yong's affairs.After Xu Yong left her house last night, she couldn't help but call Xiaowen and said all the things hidden in her heart.

First of all, she needs someone to confide in, and Xiaowen is the only friend she can trust; moreover, she feels that she can't justify herself to Xiaowen, because Xiaowen has always supported her unconditionally for so many years, But she never really told Xiaowen what was in her heart.

"Speaking of which, you are really boring, so you want to save face?" Xiaowen said incredulously. "You miss him, tell me if you regret it, you dare not speak, but I can find an opportunity to help you connect! I have known that you love to hold on, but after listening to you say so much yesterday, I realized that I know It’s just the tip of the iceberg.”

"Don't mock me anymore." Ying'ai smiled wryly. "In order to escape for a short time, what a circle I have gone around. Fortunately, he is not married yet, otherwise I will regret it for the rest of my life."

Regarding Xu Yong's marital status, she asked Xiao Wen, a gossip lady, to inquire about Xu Yong's marital status, and she confirmed that he was unmarried.

Even so, before Xu Yong went back yesterday, he still felt that the past was over and there was no need to say anything more.

She knew she had broken him.

But she was so sure now that she wanted him that she was no longer running away, no longer waiting for someone to love her first.

"Hold on! Take action. A man of such high quality is still unmarried. I can only say that you burned a good incense in your previous life, so don't miss it again!" Xiaowen, a bystander, was more excited than anyone else!

"Then what's the problem?!" Ying'ai raised her eyebrows playfully.

"You're finally a little popular." Xiaowen teased.

While the two were chatting and laughing, Shao Zhongxin appeared.

"Ying'ai, long time no see!" Shao Zhongxin seemed to be more mature and stable, and the more than two years had indeed given him a lot of stability.

"That's right! I want to come and see everyone before going to work." In fact, Ying'ai is very grateful to Shao Zhongxin in her heart, regardless of whether he is still in love with her as Xiaowen said, but every time he goes to the United States for more than two years People on business would visit her, and this was one of the few connections she had with Taiwan.

"Then I'll treat you to dinner later. Congratulations on getting your degree and returning to China." He smiled brightly, and he seemed much more attractive.

"Then can I follow?" Xiaowen stepped in on purpose, not forgetting to grimace at Ying'ai.

"Xiaowen!" Ying'ai scolded her unbearably. "I should be the one who invited you. You help me bring things to America every time, which makes it much more convenient for me. Thank you so much!" Ying Ai sincerely thanked Shao Zhongxin.

"I don't think we should shirk it. Eating is more important." Shao Zhongxin was sensible, and asked Xiaowen instead. "go together?"

His demeanor startled Xiaowen.

"No need! I'm just kidding, I brought something to eat!" Xiaowen was even more thorny, but she was always shy.

"Then let's go. It's the nearby Italian restaurant, right? Would you like to bring something for you?" Ying Ai first asked Shao Zhongxin, then Xiaowen.

An hour later, Shao Zhongxin and Ying Ai had finished their appetizers.

"Ying'ai, have you changed your mind after going to America for so long?" Shao Zhongxin's eyes were burning, and there was an unmistakable love in his eyes.

Ying Ai sighed.

It seems that he hasn't given up on her in the past few years.Although he never said it out loud, she could feel it more or less.She has treated him as a good friend all these years, and seeing him constantly giving for her, she thought that she could no longer let him use silence to escape her rejection.

"Zhongxin, I've known you for so long, I want to ask you something abruptly." She wiped her mouth and asked directly.

"What's the matter? You look a little serious." His smile was a little stiff.Originally, I planned to invite her to drink coffee after dinner, and then express my heart to her.

"Is there anything you plan to say to me today?" She felt his prudence, and intuitively knew that he should speak today.

"I have something to tell you, but I didn't expect you to ask first. Do you know that this will frustrate men?" He asked humorously, dissolving the sudden embarrassment between them.

'Actually, I know it even if you don't tell me, but Zhong Xin, you are my important friend, and I am grateful for the kindness you have treated me all these years. She looked directly at him. "But I have to make it clear to you that my heart is not with you."Because I think life is precious, I don't want you to waste your time on me just because you didn't say anything. "

"How do you know it's a waste of time?" He asked unconvinced. "perhaps……"

"No possibility." She interrupted him. "You know there's someone in me."

"Are you talking about Xia Xuyong? Didn't you end it? Didn't you say that you didn't contact each other?" Her determination made him anxious. He always thought that Xia Xuyong was no longer a problem. Obviously he underestimated Xia Xuyong influence.

"I didn't contact him before, but I saw him yesterday." Ying Ai looked at him calmly, and the joy in her eyes when she spoke sentenced him to death. "I know I love him, and I'm finally willing to admit it! Admit it to myself and everyone else, I love him!" It felt unexpectedly easy to say it.

"But didn't you break up? Will Xia Xuyong come back to you?" The breakup process was vigorous and vigorous, and different versions were circulated in the two companies.

He asked the fatal point.

Thinking of what Xu Yong said yesterday, she couldn't help feeling a little sad.

Shao Zhongxin saw her loneliness. 'Some things are in the past, so why bother to pursue them?You give me a chance, I have kept you in my heart for many years, maybe you will gradually forget that he accepts me. "

"I can't forget him." She looked at him apologetically. "I know very well that I have lied to myself for more than two years, isn't it enough?"

"I won't give up, Ying'ai!" Shao Zhongxin could see her determination, but he also had his own.

Ying Ai smiled. "It seems that you have changed a little bit, and your personality has changed a lot."

"You mean I was indecisive before? I admit it, but trust me, I will be a reliable man."

Ying Ai sighed. "Why do you have to be attached to me?"

"Then why do you insist on being obsessed with Xia Xuyong?" He asked back.

She was momentarily speechless.

"In short, apart from being a friend, I can't give you anything else, so wake up as soon as possible!" She said bluntly.

"That's my business." Zhongxin smiled.

Ying Ai looked at his smile helplessly, when a figure rushed in at the door.

Xiaowen was out of breath. "Are you still in the mood to eat? Let me tell you..."

Ying'ai realized that something was wrong; because Xiaowen's expression was rare and serious. "What happened?"

"I just inquired from my friend at 'Guan Yu', I heard... I heard..." Xiaowen was still panting.

"What did you hear?" She had an ominous premonition.

"I heard that Xia Xuyong is getting engaged tomorrow!" She said it in one breath.

"What did you say?" Ying'ai couldn't believe it, like a thunderbolt.

"The news should be reliable. My friend is still a relative of the Xia family. I heard that it has not been announced to the public. Only closer relatives are invited."

Ying Ai was taken aback for a moment, then stood up. "Please allow me...to take my leave first!" After finishing speaking, she threw down the napkin and ran out of the restaurant.

"Yingai!" Zhongxin stood up.

"Don't chase after her anymore! She will be very busy now." Xiao Wen sat on Ying Ai's seat just now, beckoning Zhong Xin to sit down. "Don't worry, I will help her eat for her portion!"

Shao Zhongxin rolled his eyes back.

+ & ten

The night had already covered, but Xu Yong who entered the huge house did not turn on the light.

This is his residence, with an excellent view, you can see the beautiful night view of Taipei City, just like now when the lights are on, and the lights are as numerous as stars, but he remembered what Yingai said——

If the heart has no place to rest, it will wander wherever it goes!

correct!For more than two years, he still looks very glamorous on the outside, and his achievements in his career have made many people envious, and even other companies will come to poach him, hoping that he can work for them in other companies.

But does he really have a home?
Thinking of Ying Ai's teary eyes, he saw her love in her, and also saw the past that he thought he had forgotten but could not let go of in his heart.The problem is, he has no time to hesitate, he is getting engaged tomorrow.

The electric bell rang wildly at this moment. "look……"

He had a premonition before he opened the door, but when he opened the door, he saw Ying'ai standing in front of him panting, her face was flushed, and white smoke was coming out of her mouth because of her panting.The picture of her running in a hurry in the cold weather suddenly jumped into his mind.

He knew she must have come running wildly.

"Xu Yong!" This call seemed to come from the depths of the soul.

There was excitement in his eyes, but he clenched and released his fists, restraining the desire in his heart --- rubbing her tightly into his arms.

But Ying Ai did.

"Is it true?" The door closed behind her, and she hugged him with open arms, her delicate body leaning against him trembling faintly. "Are you really... getting engaged tomorrow?"

"Yeah!" There was a deeper, stirring soul in his voice, but he refused to risk himself loving this woman any longer.

"No! You can't!" She grabbed his shirt, trembling, tears running down her face.

no!She can't let him slip away from her life after she finally knows what she wants!
She will regret it for the rest of her life!Regret life!
He looked at her tears, pushed away her trembling body like a fallen leaf in the wind, turned around and faced the French window without looking at her, as if this way he could be ruthless and follow reason.

"The engagement has been finalized a long time ago, and it is impossible to change it." He said coldly, he didn't want to risk his love on her again.

Ying Ai tightly closed her eyes, raised her head and took a deep breath, as if enduring the extreme pain that was pouring over her body.This is what she created for herself!This is the consequence of her evasion!

"I know it took me too much time to understand my own heart, I know I have caused you pain for a long time, but Xu Yong..." Her tears formed a river, and traces of pain were carved on her face. "I love, love you so much! Letting go of you was my biggest mistake..."

When she said "I love you so much, I love you so much", his body shook.The mask began to peel off the face sunken in the darkness.

"It's too late, I already have someone else."' This is a sigh, but also pain, and even more resentment
"Do you... love her?" She had to bite her lower lip tightly to keep herself from howling.The pain in her chest was about to tear her apart, and even breathing made her feel so painful that she was about to die!
Xu Yong was silent, he didn't move, and he was speechless.

"I know you still have me in your heart!" She wiped away her tears, straightened her body, and was shocked again when she saw his body.

"Look at me." She walked directly opposite him, took his hand in both hands, and snuggled up to him in the cold.

"It's too late, Ying'ai." His voice was low, but still touching, and still moved her heart.

"Not too late!" She shook her head and looked at him firmly. "I know you still love me. From the day you told us about our past, I know you still love me. Don't give up on me, Xu Yong!" She raised her head and stared at him firmly and pleadingly.

He looked at her, silence fell, but more unspeakable emotions flowed between each other.

She stood on tiptoe, grabbed his shoulders, kissed his resolute lips, and passed the trembling in her heart to him through the contact of her lips.

Her tears welled up again, and she kissed him violently as if risking everything, she knew that if she didn't let him know her overflowing love now, maybe she would never have the chance to let him know!
At first he just froze, but her hot lips stirred his deepest desire.This woman is what he loves, the woman with the deepest scars in his life, his arms wrapped around her delicate waist, he lifted her up and kissed her back vigorously.

Love is like water that has burst its embankment. After hiding for so long, it finally bursts out wildly!

He kissed her fiercely, as if he wanted to make up for the more than 700 days of separation, without letting go for a moment.Her hands tugged at his clothes, eager to feel his warmth.

This is the only woman who has ever touched him so deeply!
"Xu Yong..." She whimpered and shouted, frustrated because she was in a hurry.

He freed his hand to help her pull his shirt open so she could have direct access to him.He pushed her to the sofa behind him and laid her down on the huge sofa.

She squirmed uneasily, trying to find a comfortable position to reduce the strange feeling of numbness.For her who didn't have a deep understanding of desire, this serious move ignited his enthusiasm.

"Yingai!" He leaned against her and moaned softly.

Feeling his pulsation against the inner thigh of hers, she cupped his face and bit his lip. "Want me, Xu Yong!" She moved herself urgently, rubbing against him.

"You witch!"

At this moment, they just want to burn...

The impact of love and desire is at this moment to ignite the most brilliant spark of life!
(End of this chapter)