Tianwai Feixian

Chapter 485 Drunkenness
Zhao Shijun looked at Qian Nanyi with drunken eyes and couldn't believe that everything in front of him was real.

He has always ignored Qian Nanyi in his life. After all, he has done too many things to hurt Qian Nanyi. Not only did he not fully trust Qian Nanyi, but more importantly, he broke Qian Nanyi's heart.

"Nan Yi, I'm not dreaming when you're here, I must be dreaming when I'm drunk, otherwise how could Nan Yi come here?"

Zhao Shijun said to himself with some disbelief.

These words made Qian Nanyi even more angry.

"Wake up and take a good look at me standing in front of you. It's not something you imagined in your dreams."

Qian Nanyi looked at Zhao Shijun angrily and said angrily.

Zhao Shijun grinned and laughed: "I must be dreaming. If it weren't for dreaming, how could I have such a feeling? Nan Yi is so busy now, how can he have time to take care of me?"

Zhao Shijun grinned, all he could think of was when he was playing with Qian Nanyi when he was a child, looking up at the tiles above his head.

"When I was young, Nanyi was fat, ugly and dark. I was not a likable child at all. I didn't expect to be so beautiful when I grew up. I also like Nanyi, but I like Nanyi because I regard Nanyi as my own. Sister, I know that I am not worthy of Nanyi."

Zhao Shijun smirked when he said this: "I'm sorry Nanyi...I'm sorry...."

Zhao Shijun spoke a little incoherently, obviously because he drank too much and couldn't tell whether everything in front of him was fantasy or reality.

Seeing Zhao Shijun like this, Qian Nanyi sighed, and really didn't know how to talk about it.

Aunt Lin walked in with tears in her eyes: "He started to be a little crazy when he came out, and he kept chanting these words, I know it was because he was too sad in his heart, or because he was too stimulated, Nan He has always felt sorry for you."

Aunt Lin also feels sorry for Qian Nanyi. She has never reflected on her mistakes. In the past year or so, what she thinks about the most is what happened back then. If she hadn't encouraged Zhao Shijun herself, what happened now would not have happened. , now there is no room for regret, although she knows she is wrong, but what can she do?Regret now can't change anything.

Listening to Aunt Lin's guilt and talking about Zhao Shijun, she sighed heavily. If she hadn't come here in person this time, she would really not believe that the things in front of her were true. She felt a little distressed in her heart and felt that Zhao Shijun was still relatively good. A powerful person, at least a smart person, should not be what he is now.

"I didn't expect Zhao Shijun to become like this. Aunt Lin, go out, I have something to say to Zhao Shijun in person."

In fact, Qian Nanyi also wanted to remember, Zhao Shijun left her a lot of good things, whether it was going down the river to catch fish or fighting with the children in the village, she felt that Zhao Shijun was an irreplaceable person in her life.

She has been completely familiar with this place since she came here for so many years, and there is a shadow of Zhao Shijun in her life. She has no way not to think about Zhao Shijun, and she has no way to ignore Zhao Shijun's existence.

Now that Zhao Shijun has become like this, Qian Nanyi really feels distressed.

With a heavy sigh, Qian Nanyi turned his head, saw that Aunt Lin was still standing at the door and did not leave, and knew that it must be because Aunt Lin couldn't let go.

"Aunt Lin, believe me and I will definitely heal Zhao Shijun. I don't want to see Shijun become what he is now."

What Qian Nanyi said was also true, and when he thought of Zhao Shijun's current appearance, he felt a little distressed.

Aunt Lin nodded and backed out, Qian Nanyi closed the door directly.

"You know that I don't blame you for a long time in my heart."

Qian Nanyi walked towards Zhao Shijun while talking, she knew that Zhao Shijun must know she was real, or he just couldn't face himself.

Qian Nanyi sighed and continued: "I know you can feel my presence now, I also know that you haven't really become stupid now, and I also know that you are actually clear about everything now, but you just don't want to wake up and pretend Just confused."

Qian Nanyi said that he had already sat next to Zhao Shijun, looked at Zhao Shijun's side face with his hands in his hands, and then said: "When you didn't listen to my advice and insisted on making that choice, my heart was very distressed and I couldn't bear it. I saw you take a detour, but I know that I am not qualified to stop you, so the only thing I can do is to watch you make mistakes again and again, do you know that feeling is really bad, I don't like that Every day I watch you sink a little bit. I want to reach out and grab you, but I can't grab you until you get farther and farther away from me. Shijun is in my heart and you will always be mine Good friend, I have always regarded you as my good friend and good brother, no matter what you become, I am not willing to abandon you, but you also have to trust me and give me a little confidence?"

She really didn't know how to express her turbulent heart now, she wanted Zhao Shijun to live a good life, she wanted Zhao Shijun to return to normal and face the outside world, but she knew that all of this was difficult.

But when Qian Nanyi said these words, Qian Nanyi clearly saw Zhao Shijun's hand move slightly, and then his fingers moved. Was this in response to her?Thinking of this, Qian Nanyi was already ecstatic: "Shijun, can you understand what I'm talking about? You must be able to understand how I miss you."

Qian Nanyi said this excitedly, Zhao Shijun actually turned his head to look at Qian Nanyi: "I'm sorry."

Zhao Shijun didn't know what else to say other than this sentence, he really felt a little guilty, it was because he felt that there were many mistakes in his actions, he knew that no one could blame him for this matter, from being respected in the sky to now Everyone shouted and beat him as a rat crossing the street. I have to say that he has really experienced ups and downs, but he should have a bright future, but he has reached this point because of his wrong choice. In fact, no one can blame him.

He thought about a lot of things in the dungeon, most of them were external things, recalling the kindness Qian Nanyi had treated him in the past, the more he recalled, the more he felt sorry for Qian Nanyi, and it was all because of him.

Jo Se Joon lives in remorse, probably because of the remorse in his heart that he is now getting drunk every day, and probably because he cannot accept the reality.

Qian Nanyi knew that Zhao Shijun had nothing to do at all, and now that Zhao Shijun said sorry, she felt that her guess was right.

"I knew you had nothing to do. If you're sorry, you really don't need to tell me. What I want is not your apology. What I want is whether you feel sorry for yourself. If you understand it, give it to me." Speak clearly, if you don't understand, you can continue to think about it, okay?"

Qian Nanyi said this because he was a little angry.In fact, seeing Zhao Shijun like this hurts her more than anyone else. After all, Zhao Shijun is her good friend, and the two of them encouraged each other later in Anyang City. the way.

Zhao Shijun looked at Qian Nanyi in astonishment, but saw Qian Nanyi then said: "All I want is for you to cheer up. I know what you are thinking in your heart. You can rest assured and I will always be by your side."

She didn't give up on Zhao Shijun, nor did she think about giving up on Zhao Shijun.

This point is the most encouraging words for Zhao Shijun now, and what he wants is also to hope that someone can always support him and not give up on him.

"Nan Yi is sorry, I don't know what else I can say other than I'm sorry, I know I've done too many things wrong, it's a bit late to say sorry now, but I'm willing to give all my efforts to make up for everything I've done before. "

Zhao Shijun spoke seriously, without any hint of drunkenness.

Qian Nanyi knew that Zhao Shijun was sober and did so on purpose to escape the reality in front of him.

"I said that I don't blame you, so you don't have to feel guilty. Knowing your mistakes can make you better. This sentence is what I often told you before."

She did say this sentence to Zhao Shijun often before.

Zhao Shijun is very grateful that Qian Nanyi still encourages and cares about him. He really doesn't know how to express some words: "Nanyi, you don't know how much I appreciate you. Thank you for everything you have done for me."

Qian Nanyi looked at Zhao Shijun with a smile, knowing that Zhao Shijun must be a little entangled in his heart now, and said with a smile: "Don't be entangled, I know what you are thinking, but I think you should change yourself because I have never thought about it." But I want to blame you, if you are wrong, you are wrong, just know that you can correct it, you really feel worthy of someone who gets drunk like this every day, I feel distressed seeing you, and your mother is also somewhat sympathetic to your current appearance."

Zhao Shijun has been in this state for a long time recently. He knows that he has done a lot of things wrong, and he also knows that his mother is sad and tears every day, but he just can't control himself, and he can't explain such behavior. It is clear, now that Qian Nanyi is here, maybe Qian Nanyi can help him solve everything in front of him.

"Nanyi, I have always felt sorry for my mother. My father blamed my mother for all his mistakes and blamed my mother for doing everything wrong. You know that my father has a family outside now. would like to come here.”

Qian Nanyi didn't expect Zhao Erbo to do this. He looked at Zhao Shijun in surprise and asked, "Is what you said true?"

Zhao Shijun nodded seriously and continued: "What I said is true. My father hasn't been here for a long time. My mother shed tears every day. I really feel guilty if I didn't do those things. Having made that decision, it won’t be like this now.”

(End of this chapter)