Satan school grass, say love me

Chapter 64

The party ended at 10:30.After sending Lin Feiyan home, Xiao Junjie enjoyed the rare leisure and freedom alone at home.Holding the wine glass gracefully, he leaned against the floor-to-ceiling windows, letting the moonlight baptize him, with a contented and joyful smile on the corner of his mouth.He likes such an elegant moonlit night, and likes the intimate feeling of being baptized by the moonlight.

On the busy street, there are vehicles coming and going, and the traces left by the headlights draw lines of light in this busyness. The colors are colorful, and the flickering neon lights are woven into gorgeous nets.There is such a colorful world under the blue sky and bright moon, how can people not be intoxicated by it.

The colorful world is empty and frothy.Under such darkness, what is really hidden?Is it really happy and beautiful?The more luxurious life is, the easier it is for people to lose themselves.Unknowingly, people immersed in such a world gradually become heartless puppets, chasing the pace of the world just for pleasure and vanity.

Heart, unexpectedly heavy, the comfort just now disappeared suddenly.Junjie withdrew his gaze, but his eyes were even darker.In that dark corner, a deep corner, a white dress caught his attention.

...Ye Bing...

White is eye-catching in black, and that touch of bright color brings people hope, whether it is a blessing or a curse.

Ye Bing stood silently at the corner, silently watching Junjie by the window.Those eyes, affectionate and obsessed, although they tried their best to conceal it, they still revealed it undoubtedly.The wind blew her long black hair, Ye Bing flinched for a while, but her gaze was still focused on the figure behind the window sill.

How long has she been standing there?She is still in love with me.What about me?

Junjie's heart twitched violently, and an ambiguous light shone faintly in his heartbroken eyes.He told himself to be self-reliant and restrained.But he couldn't do it.Such a night, such Ye Bing, how could he bear it in his heart!

But, he can't...

The black eyes are bottomless, but the sadness is very obvious.

The figure disappeared from the window, but Ye Bing still watched silently. 1 minute... 2 minutes... 5 minutes... 10 minutes... The familiar figure no longer appeared.Ye Bing hangs down his already stiff neck in some disappointment.

He doesn't love me anymore.Ye Bing thought about it, and left sadly.

"Can't you forget?"

A familiar and anxious voice came from behind, and Ye Bing suddenly looked back with a happy smile on his face.The four eyes met, and the waves in my heart became more turbulent.Junjie's feet moved towards Ye Bing as if pulled by a magnet, and he wrapped a bright yellow scarf around her body.

The eyes never moved away from the other person; but the eyes still showed a sad sadness.

"Can't you forget it?" Xiao Junjie had mixed feelings, the sour liquid corroded Junjie's heart riddled with holes, making him ache and reluctant to give up.

Ye Bing remained silent, with tears in his eyes.

"Forget it. Remembering will only make you suffer more." Junjie took a few steps back and withdrew from her world.

Ye Bing remained silent, and the breath she exhaled condensed into white, the same white as the coat, which choked her heart.

"Go back. It's too late. It's cold at night."

Junjie looked at her greedily again, his deep frown made his thoughts nowhere to shield.He worried about her, deeply worried.

"What about you?" When Junjie turned around, Ye Bing blurted out his question, "Can you forget? You can really let go of everything in the past, forget me, forget everything, go back to the life you want to live, go back to the old Are you? Realistic, Junjie? Time does not go backwards, even if we break up, we are no longer the same as before."

Junjie froze for a moment, then started walking again.

"Don't lie to yourself. You can't forget! You are not such a ruthless person! Why don't you face it? Junjie——"

No matter how Ye Bing yelled, Junjie didn't stop walking, his back became smaller and smaller, and finally escaped from Ye Bing's sight.

He had to flee.He was afraid that if he stayed any longer, he would lose control of himself.He wanted to hug the frozen Ye Bing, he wanted to kiss Ye Bing's cold lips, but he couldn't!He is no longer qualified to do so!From the moment he gave up Ye Bing, he should have such an awareness.How could he hurt her now because of his impulsiveness?
Self-deception, maybe.He clearly loves Ye Bing, and obviously hates Ye Bing, but he can't persist and gives up easily.Just because of that moment of burnout, he let go of the person he wanted to cherish for the rest of his life.

Who is to blame?Who can blame this?No one is wrong!
Xiao Junjie rushed back to his room in embarrassment. The moment he opened the door, his feet knocked on the slightly protruding door frame, and his whole body hit the ground unbalanced.He didn't feel any pain, but Junjie's forehead was dripping with cold sweat, and his eyes showed hesitation.

"Ye Bing...Ye Bing...why...why won't you let me go? Why? Why——" Junjie beat the floor in frustration, unable to breathe due to heartache.He howled silently, but the hot tears were firmly in his eyes, refusing to overflow.

Night, still quiet and bustling.There was no one at the corner outside the window, leaving behind a bright yellow scarf, lying on the ground alone, welcoming the arrival of dawn alone.

Morning is the beginning of a new day, and Junjie, who was awakened by the morning light, opened his sleepy eyes and looked at the sky unconsciously with his head sideways.He can no longer remember when he climbed, nor when he fell into a dream, the only thing he remembers is Ye Bing's mournful face and the situation when he fled in despair.

Junjie raised the corner of his mouth sarcastically, and looked at himself in the mirror. His face was still the face of a public lover, and his figure was still strong and straight. His hair had grown beyond his shoulders, but when viewed horizontally or vertically, he always felt that it was missing something.

"Even if we break up, we're not who we used to be."

Ye Bing's words echoed in his ears from time to time.

What is missing?It's frivolous and childish.The passing time has worn away all the arrogance and uninhibitedness in him.Now he is just an insignificant grain of sand in the surging sand, unremarkable.

For some reason, Junjie's heart became heavier and heavier, so heavy that he couldn't lift his head or lift his feet.He sat down on the bed again and nestled under the covers.

The dejected Junjie was covered in the quilt for a whole day, unwilling to move, just looking sluggishly at the branches outside the window.The branches fluttered against the fierce north wind, although it was numerous, it made Junjie's heart very peaceful.

Sometimes they obey, sometimes they resist, and sometimes they fight.Junjie got up and stood silently by the window, the wind coming into the room through the window was a bit cold, but Junjie felt very awake.

The bright yellow scarf still lying on the ground was reflected in his black pupils.

Ye Bing...

Looking into the distance, there is a hint of gray in the light blue, such a clear blue, such a depressed gray, there is no disharmony when mixed together.This is the color of nature, the power of nature.Everything in nature lives in such harmony, irrelevant but interlocking.

The thick eyebrows were unconsciously connected together, even if they broke up, it was impossible to return to the previous free life, he knew this, and he realized it.So why not get up from where you are and create a new life?Why are we always obsessed with the past? Memories are meaningless to us in reality. People who are stuck in the past will never have a future, because they simply don’t want to take a step forward. How can there be a future?

Since the previous life no longer exists, then create a new present with your heart!Why stand still?Is it lack of courage?

Xiao Junjie took out a cigarette from the drawer by the window sill, lit it, and frowned.

It was getting darker again, and the blue was gone.Lin Feiyan hid in the dark, quietly watching Junjie sitting on the window sill, from his deep and empty eyes, she read hesitation and longing.

"Junjie, can't you forget? Why can't you say goodbye to the past in a chic way?"

"Then what about you?" Yimeng who leaned against the wall behind Yan asked intentionally or unintentionally.

Yan, who had her back turned to her, was taken aback for a moment, a gleam of gloom flashed across her pupils.

"Yan, you should understand what some subtle changes mean. So, restrain yourself, don't provoke Ye Bing, and don't force Junjie anymore. After all, Junjie loved Ye Bing so deeply. If you are told to Forget Junjie, you may not be able to do it. Comparing your heart, Yan."

The frightening gloom turned into a pool of soft water and disappeared from Yan's eyes.Sometimes, Yimeng is really good at explaining people.

"Let time dilute everything. Whether you love it or hate it, leave it to time."

Yimeng suddenly laughed.

"Go back and call him."

She patted Yan on the shoulder and left alone.

Knowing from Yan that Ye Bing has not gone to school for a day, Junjie can't help but feel worried.Is it because what you said last night was too decisive, which made Ye Bing slump?Or is it because you still can't forget and can't let go?
The knots that were not easy to let go were tangled together again, Junjie lingered by the door, hesitating whether to take the next step, after thinking for a while, he finally sat back at the desk.

Just one day!
If Ye Bing doesn't come tomorrow, he will go to see her.Junjie comforted himself like this.

It's a pity that three days passed, and he only skipped one day of class. The accumulated things kept him busy for three full days.Being so busy, he couldn't spare time to see Ye Bing.

His heart was tormented with annoyance and worry, his mood became more and more gloomy, his face was covered with sorrow, and the uneasiness in his brows made him feel sad. His temper became more irritable every day, and he could hardly control his hands and mouth.

Finally came the day when Junjie and his party got together, but Ye Bing still didn't come to school.

As night fell, on the rooftop, five figures formed black lines under the illumination of the roadside lights.

Xiao Junjie was leaning against the door with half a cigarette in his mouth, and the ground was full of his "abandoned" cigarette butts.It looked like he was waiting for someone.

He lit another one.

"Junjie, if you plan to commit suicide slowly, no one here will stop you. But don't let us beauties die from second-hand smoke! As the saying goes, 'When a person is about to die, his words are kind!', don't you think so? Is it contrary to this sentence?" Hua Wenxi threw him a can of beer unhappily. "You should kill yourself in another way."

Xiao Junjie turned a deaf ear to Wenxi's complaints, took the wine thrown by Wenxi, walked towards them, and drank it vigorously.

(End of this chapter)