The strongest rocket soldier

Chapter 485 Chapter 480 Five: Blackened emotions
"Hello, that's fine."

Lu Xiaoqiang guessed the meaning of Ding Xiaojun's words. He just didn't seem to worry himself too much. Ding Xiaojun is just not good at expressing his emotions. How could he not understand after spending so much time with him? His personality.

"Xiao Hei, no matter what kind of road you will have in the future, good or bad, you have to tell me. If you are tired that day, if you can't hold on anymore, you can come to me." Lu Xiaoqiang finally couldn't bear it. Containing his emotions, he guessed Ding Xiaojun's current situation.

"Okay, if there is such a day, I will definitely go to you, but don't you deny me then." Ding Xiaojun said it calmly, as if everything didn't matter.

Lu Xiaoqiang listened to Ding Xiaojun's words and knew that Ding Xiaojun didn't take his words seriously. He knew that Ding Xiaojun had his own self-esteem. Even in the future, when the day came, he would not tell himself, so he said again.

"Xiao Hei, before hanging up the phone, I want to say a few words, you, sometimes, don't pretend to be strong, don't hold on, the string is too tight, it will break one day after all."

"Donkey, don't worry, I understand what you mean, the military line should not take too long."

Ding Xiaojun was a little sentimental, of course he understood what Lu Xiaoqiang said, but he is no longer the immature and stable person he was in the past, and now he is much more stable.

"Okay, I'm done talking, take care of yourself, goodbye, Xiao Hei."

"Goodbye, old donkey."

……

I don't know if the phone call from Lu Xiaoqiang touched his nerves, but he didn't lie down and fall asleep like he did a few days ago.

He sat on the bed and thought for a long time. Finally, he took the crumpled cigarette case again, took out a crooked cigarette from it, put it in his mouth, and smoked.

After taking two puffs, he bent down and extinguished the cigarette on the ground. He was a little annoyed, an inexplicable annoyance, and he put the remaining half of the cigarette butt beside the crumpled cigarette case on the table.

He needs some meditation, what can calm his mind, he doesn't know.

He opened the drawer and took out a professional book. In the past, as soon as he took the professional book, he would quickly enter the world of this book, but this time, he didn't feel that way.

irritable,

Anxiety for no reason,
a kind of depression,
And with an explosive feeling.

……

He felt his heart blocked.

He suddenly used his hands hard, tore the professional book in his hand from the middle, and threw it behind him with a wave.

Spike in the corner of the room was awakened by the sudden movement. It didn't know why, so it stood up, shook the fur on its body, and walked towards Ding Xiaojun.

As if feeling the suppressed fire in Ding Xiaojun's heart, it walked to Ding Xiaojun's side, sat down, stretched out a front paw, and touched Ding Xiaojun's leg.

"roll!"

Ding Xiaojun suddenly roared, and kicked Langya to the side of the bed.

After that, as if he had gone crazy, he grabbed the quilt on the bed and tore it vigorously with both hands.

The quilt was not torn apart by him, and he threw the quilt to the ground in anger.

"why why!"

"Obviously I'm already very good, obviously I..."

"It's not fair, it's not fair to me!"

"Do not……"

"It's not fair, I'm obviously the best soldier."

"I sacrificed one leg, I sacrificed three chances to be promoted, I was dedicated to the sake of the collective, and I sacrificed my own interests all the time. What did I get in return?"

Next, Ding Xiaojun sat on the ground decadently, with his hands still resting on the bed.

Langya crawled over from under the bed, it came to the decadent Ding Xiaojun for the first time, and bumped Ding Xiaojun with its head.

Sensing that something was touching him, Ding Xiaojun waved his hand and slapped Langya's neck fiercely with the back of his hand.

"Ugh..."

Ding Xiaojun's eyes were ruthless, and when he turned his head to see Langya's behavior, his heart softened, and he hugged the wronged Langya again.

He looked very sad.

"sorry!"

"I shouldn't have hit you, sorry!"

He hugged the mace, tears rolled down the corners of his eyes.

"Everyone is gone, everyone belongs, and I, only you are left."

"Do you also think it's unfair?"

"Why, I will always be the loneliest person."

"It's really unfair, isn't it?"

"Please speak."

"You didn't say yes either!"

"Yeah, you can't speak, you don't understand people's hearts."

"You're just a dog."

"Just a watchdog."

After Ding Xiaojun finished speaking, he looked at the wolf's tooth loosely. He was looking at the wolf's tooth, and he didn't think it was pleasing to the eye at all.

"Go back to your kennel."

He stood up on the bed, stretched out his hand to straighten the chair, and sat down again. Seeing the half of the cigarette butt beside the cigarette case on the table, he stretched out his hand, took it, put it to his mouth, and then took the lighter. Light that cigarette.

He took a puff of smoke, and he couldn't help thinking of a pretentious sentence.

What brother smokes is not cigarettes, but loneliness.

Yes, how lonely he is now, there is no one to talk to.

After smoking half of the cigarette, he slammed the cigarette butt on the ground, twisted it vigorously, and extinguished the cigarette butt. After that, he took out another cigarette from the box and lit it.

why,
Is there something I did wrong?

Is this my punishment?

at least give me a reason,

just for no reason,

Give me a hello too.

He was smoking a cigarette, struggling with his thoughts, he didn't know why he had such emotions, maybe it was suppressed for too long, or maybe it was because he had been working non-stop for several days, maybe it was everything.

This should not be the emotion that a third-level non-commissioned officer should have. Veterans should be able to control their emotions and suppress those bad and negative emotions.

Perhaps, for several days in a row, a person's life is too boring for him to adapt.

His heart was roaring, he had resisted the urge to throw things, and the feeling of blockage was still there.

"Cough! Cough! Cough..."

Maybe it was because the cigarette was smoked too hard and he choked on it. He bent down and coughed a few times, and blood was coughed up.

The blood awakening breath filled his mouth, making him feel a little sick, and he covered his mouth with his hand.

"Cough cough!"

There were two more coughs, and he felt a sticky feeling in the palm of his hand. He moved the hand next to his mouth and saw that there was a black and red blood clot in the palm of his hand.

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The writing of these two chapters is very slow. I originally wanted to insist on writing the third update today, but looking at the time, I really can’t finish it. Xiao Hei has been tired all day today, and it’s already 08:30 after work. The time is really tight I hope readers and friends will forgive me.

(End of this chapter)