The strongest rocket soldier

Chapter 818 is not perfect
"Yes, it is to practice in your mind. In this way, you will have more time to study and practice. Of course, I don't mean to let you follow my method. Everyone has their own differences from others. Place, I tell you these, just to let you let go of your own thinking and boldly think about what suits you.”

After listening to Ding Xiaojun's explanation, Wang Shengnan didn't speak, but closed his eyes and remembered.

Ding Xiaojun didn't speak, just watched with a smile, and didn't say a word to disturb Wang Shengnan who started to think.

After a while, Wang Shengnan opened her eyes, and her face showed excitement: "Squad Leader Ding, the method you said is really useful."

Ding Xiaojun smiled, and said to Wang Shengnan: "Then think about the mistakes you made in your operation, think about those aspects that need to be corrected, and even those unreasonable things in the homework that can be improved. If you have, you can bring them to me. of."

"Isn't this operation procedure a set death standard? Didn't it all go through..." Wang Shengnan couldn't believe it.

"Anything cannot be said to be qualitative, it is perfect. There is no perfection in this world. Everything can be improved and developed. We feel perfect now, and we cannot say that it is really good. It is because we do not have it." It’s just a matter of discovering the direction of improvement.” Ding Xiaojun said.

Wang Shengnan nodded, but in a half-knowledgeable way.

"Okay, let me tell you. If you really find something that can be improved, tell me. I won't accompany you. Let's go." Ding Xiaojun said, turned and left.

Wang Shengnan looked at Ding Xiaojun's back, his eyes became complicated, but he didn't say anything.

……

When he returned to the duty room, it was time to turn off the lights. Ding Xiaojun had something on his mind and was not in a hurry to wash up. Of course, he has always been like this. After turning off the lights, he would habitually wait and wait. Proceed to the final patrolling post.

When the lights went off and the whole battalion was completely dark, Ding Xiaojun took a flashlight and went out to patrol. To his surprise, he met the instructor who also came out to patrol with a flashlight. The two did not communicate much.

After the patrol was over, Ding Xiaojun fetched water to wash up, and Langya also came back from the outside at this time, and it looked very tired and nestled into its nest.

Ding Xiaojun finally lay down, but instead of sleeping, he was lying flat, thinking about the blueprints he had read again.

He was very quiet, his eyes didn't blink, and his eyes were very clear, with a look that couldn't be seen through.

Night, a little bit deeper down.

Thinking, thinking, he thought of his original idea, a very immature idea at the time, now it seems mature, but it is difficult to realize.

At this time, he really wanted someone to explain his doubts. Perhaps, his knowledge reserve was not enough.

He really wants to have a comparison person who can analyze his idea with him, but unfortunately, he knows a lot of people, but no one, like him, will study something that seems unreasonable. From this point of view, only the original Lu Xiaoqiang could understand him, but Lu Xiaoqiang was very comprehensive, but he was not a technician, so he couldn't help him much.

In this way, he felt lonely, yes, the kind of loneliness that no one can understand, like a group of companions climbing an unreachable mountain, and everyone gave up when they saw that there was no possibility , and he persisted, but he stood on the top alone, only to realize that there was no companion by his side.

That feeling of loneliness is not perfect.

But as a person, you often have to face that loneliness, just because you have walked the road of loneliness.

Of course, it is also necessary to learn to endure loneliness.

Too often, we need to find someone to comfort us, but often without that person, we can only learn to endure.

In the past, Ding Xiaojun liked to talk very much, but he was not good at expressing, and he didn't like talking endlessly. Therefore, when he talked the most, it was when he was before the first-level non-commissioned officer. At that time, the people around him There are also brothers, the kind of brothers called life and death brothers.

He still remembers the words of a good brother in the early days, he said: We have come together, don't talk about the relationship between rich and poor, rich and poor have nothing to do with us, because we wear military uniforms.From this day on, we are comrades-in-arms, brothers, we are brothers, brothers in life and death. (This statement is a true quote from a comrade-in-arms. If you think it is false, add the Rocket Soldier reader group, and the little black-haired picture is proof.)
But even today, Ding Xiaojun can't find that feeling anymore, that is, since then, he has spoken less, and he is no longer so straightforward. Later, after a long period of single-person guarding, his words Even less.

Later, he fell in love with laughing, and when he spoke to everyone, he liked to treat everyone with a smile, but he couldn't keep laughing all the time, because if he laughed for too long, tears would overflow from his laughing eyes.

He spends most of his time in a monotonous but fulfilling way. It is rare for him to calm down and think like today. He is afraid to think, not because he is afraid of thinking about things, but because he is afraid of thinking about people. Strong, but now, he often doesn't want to be strong.

He also cried, a lot of tears. The first time he cried since he joined the army was not the time when the old company sent off the veterans, but the first five kilometers of his new company. At that time, he really wanted to give up. His last time Because of the sandbags, he was greatly wronged, he cried, and wanted to tell his father to quit.

Speaking of which, at that time, it was really disappointing.

Later, it was the first time for the lower company to send off veterans, and he also cried. After that, he thought he could hold back his tears, but later, he still couldn't hold back.

When Lao Wei left, he cried, and when Han Lei left, he also cried, and after that, Tong Lei left, Liu Haiyang also left, and Yan Guanliang also left. He seemed to never fail to cry.

Since then, he hasn't shed tears anymore, not that he can't cry anymore, but he has learned to shed tears in his heart.

In the dead of night, you really shouldn’t think too much, because people’s emotions are always easy to be turned up and magnified infinitely in the dead of night, and directly affect the state of mind.

Ding Xiaojun, who was lying on his back, raised his head and rubbed his eyes, and found that the corners of his eyes were not moist, so he couldn't help laughing at himself: "Why do I have the idea of ​​old age? It seems that it is still the heart. Not quiet enough."

After laughing at himself, he closed his eyes, ready to sleep, and stopped thinking about it.

Not long after closing his eyes, he suddenly opened them, and at this time, Langya also stood up.

(End of this chapter)