Another Arcadia Online

Silly.

Harada and I are so depressed to have encounted each other in the game. I can't believe you asked Zhu Yan to be my friend even though he's my friend...

I am weak after all. I meant to cut off the past, but that was only meant to be (...). The real me is still a prisoner of the past. Maybe there's no way I can disconnect you.

"Really... silly. Me."

I murdered my voice and cried so that I didn't sound like Maya sleeping next door.

Today, I wasn't going to sleep at all.

Morning is here.

I decided to log into the game. There was anxiety that Harada and I might count again. But right now, I was going to cry again if I didn't immerse myself in something.

He was going to hate me for intending to cut off the past. I'm getting disgusted with reality. I was angry at my fragility in reality.

- That's why you run away to the game? You're not gonna stand up to the hard reality?

Someone in me screams.

Blame me for running. I was in me.

"What's wrong with running... Running away is a way of fighting."

I have no excuse for anyone, I twinkle and wear headgear that way.

Ignore the voice of your own mind don't run away.

I'm weak. Weak and brittle. What's wrong with that? It's not like the trauma of the past will go away where I was raised. Nor do I have the temper to stand up to Harada.

So don't blame me. I want you to be disappointed by yourself.

"Misaki!"

I heard a shout from next door.

Remove the headgear and look at Maya next door. Maya was a little out of breath.

"... what's wrong?

"No, he looked like he had something in mind."

"... did I worry you? I'm sorry. Nothing."

I smile.

"... poor smile. If you let Mano tell you, he'll tell you it's radish."

…………

"Well, I don't know what happened, but it's not that much trouble"

"That much...?

What do you know about me?

That's all I can say because I don't know the magnitude of my problem.

"I always thought, why is Misaki trying to fight the past alone? Somehow I was listening, and I thought, why is Misaki trying to attach a bond to the past alone?

"... because it's about me"

"It's not just about Misaki, is it? It's Mizuki, or it's your mother. There are a lot of people involved in Misaki's bullying."

That's what Maya says.

The first question is about bullying, would you have told Maya?... I'm sure you heard it from around Pearl State.

"Even around Misaki, you're just someone who has something to do with Misaki's past. Then it's not irrelevant, is it?

"… there may be an idea"

"Me and Mano are really irrelevant, but it's not like Pearl State or Zhu Yan have anything to do with it, and you can get involved."

"Involve...?

"It's strange that Misaki has so many allies now, but doesn't rely on them."

Maya said.

... I guess my thoughts didn't work. I could have gotten this painful because I was trying to fight alone. I owe you one. I don't care about that anymore. I think I might need your help.

I thought I saw the light.

"... thanks. Maya."

"... because I can help too. So, you play games?

"Of course!"

I wore headgear.