This thing about me becoming a girl

332. Fire

In the Japanese-style hotel, the salty sea breeze poured into the room from the open window, and the curtains also rolled like waves.

Sawamura Mari Aoi sat in the room against the wall, the hair on her forehead was gently shaking by the breeze.

She hugged her knees, experienced the collapse, crying bitterly, and deeply recognized herself. At this time, she has no sorrow, no sorrow, but a little calm, just like the lake water reflected on the mirror, no matter what. No matter how hard you try, you won't be able to make waves.

Sawamura Mari Aoi just sat here without any movement, very quiet.

What Kitajima Crow didn't know was that Mari Aoi Sawamura came to the school trip, one day earlier.

At this time, she was in the dormitory arranged by the school and did not go to the beach.

And in fact, not many people knew that she also participated in the school trip. After all, she came alone one day in advance and did not set off with her classmates. The room she lived in was also a single room.

But in fact, she is not interested in school trips, or she is not interested in anything now, and the purpose of coming here is only for the national conference to be held in Fukuoka in a few days.

Because except for the Liquan Festival of the third grade, the other four people participating in the team competition are all from the second grade department, and for some unknown reason this year, the Yulong Banner was postponed from the previous August to mid-October this year.

And this meeting happens to be during the school trip of the second grade of Zhichun. If you give up the school trip for the Jade Dragon Flag, you will inevitably leave regrets in your high school life, and as for giving up the Jade Dragon Flag for the school trip, let alone A year of hard work will go to waste.

So in the end everyone decided to take part in the school trip as usual, and one day before the Yulong Banner, the four members of the second grade department went to Fukuoka.

After all, when the national conference starts, there are only two or three days left for the school trip, so it is not a loss to arrange this way.

And Sawamura Mari Aoi came here for this reason.

She is waiting for the national convention to come.

And there are other reasons... If she doesn't come here and stay in Tokyo, she doesn't know where to go.

Go home, but seriously, does she have a home? That villa is actually just a house to live in. Besides, even if it is a house, it doesn't belong to her...it belongs to her grandfather.

In the eyes of his grandfather, he was ready to abandon the only kendo that could be regarded as valuable in him, so it was not certain that the house would be taken back, and even being expelled from the family was not too unimaginable.

After all, as my grandfather said, everyone in Sawamura has a meaning of existence, and useless people will not exist in Sawamura.

Sawamura Mari Aoi thought about this, but she was neither sad nor sad.

After all, if you think about it carefully, you are really and truly, there is no meaning of existence, and it is useless.

On that rainy night three days ago, Sawamura Mariko wandered aimlessly, as if she was venting the emotions accumulated in her heart, and she didn’t know how many times she fell and staggered. When she was tired, she walked slowly. Until the rain became heavier and her body became colder and colder, she didn't know where she should go or where she could go.

After all, she has never had a family, and following Homi Sawamura's cold and even indifferent words, she also knows that her grandfather has never regarded herself as a family member.

So the last house she could go back to was gone.

In the end, she sat curled up with her knees under the bridge, and suddenly became a little calm, and the cold wind and heavy rain outside also made her figure look very lonely, looking very lonely.

But not long after, someone appeared under the bridge with an umbrella.

Sawamura Isuzu walked up to her, closed the umbrella, looked at her sitting curled up with legs folded, and frowned slightly, as if a little uncomfortable.

Yes, in the eyes of such a strong Sawamura Isuzu, the appearance of Sawamura Mari Aoi is indeed a bit cowardly.

In her heart, the solution is to have the courage to stand up and solve the problem, rather than hide and feel sad. After all, the best way to lick the wound is to solve the problem that caused the wound.

But although she was a little uncomfortable, she didn't say anything.

Because she knew that she had no right to reprimand Mari Aoi Sawamura here. After all, she had never cared about her life since she was a child, and now, it was too late.

Perhaps if he could have known these things earlier, this child would not be so painful, weak and empty...and would not resist.

She doesn't know how to resist, she won't resist her own life, she won't resist her own experience, she won't resist the ideas imposed on her by others, she will only accept and change silently, so as to better adapt to these situations... But she doesn't will resist.

In the eyes of Sawamura Isuzu, this is the biggest shortcoming of Sawamura Mariko.

She will only change her mind to cater to others and to herself, so that she will gradually accept things that are unacceptable from the beginning, and similarly, she will not feel uncomfortable because of it.

She just adapts, adapts to anything that hurts her, but never resists.

For example, the shock brought to her by Shang Shanmu's death, or the pain brought to her by the experience of Bei Dao's mother and daughter, she never thought of solving it in the past, to resist, but to adapt hard, until one day, she no longer has to worry about it. uncomfortable.

To put it bluntly, this is called being good at soothing one's emotions, to put it bluntly, this is to escape.

If Sawamura Mari Aoi were an ordinary person, there would be no problem, but she would still be strong in disguise.

But she is not an ordinary person. Since she was born, she has the capital to resist, and she herself knows this, but she still has not resisted.

Others are unable to resist if they don’t resist when encountering things, and they have no ability to resist, but the reason why Sawamura Mariko does not resist is just to escape from reality.

Just like now, Sawamura Isuzu looked at Mari Aoi Sawamura who was sitting curled up with her knees folded, who seemed unaware of her arrival.

If she guessed correctly, she was adapting again.

Trying to adapt to the pain and hurt, destroying my heart.

In fact, knowing what his father said, Sawamura Isuzu had expected Mari Aoi's reaction, whether it was leaving the family, being angry, or being filled with hatred.

Because of this, at least it shows that Aoi is willing to resist.

Resisting one's own injustice, resisting painful treatment, and living for oneself, in this way, can be regarded as freedom in disguise, and finally no longer be imprisoned by the shackles of other people's thoughts.

But I didn't expect that even so, I was still working hard to bear it, and finally changed into a appearance that could adapt to this pain.

But how can there be only one suffering in life, and if it continues like this, the bottom line will only get lower and lower, more and more cowardly and useless, until finally it can't bear it, or it will be destroyed, or it will be lost. Human proof.

So Sawamura Isuzu can also understand what her father did. The current Sawamura Mari Aoi can no longer be changed for any easy reason. She will only adapt when encountering things, and will not resist or change.

Therefore, although I don't know what the father's purpose is, the current situation is what Isuzu Sawamura wants to see, because I can only hope that Mari Aoi Sawamura will not break or stand.

After all, Mari Aoi Sawamura is not an ordinary person, and no one knows when the water flow in the big family will become turbulent.

So as long as Mari Aoi is in Sawamura for a day, in her capacity, it is impossible to stay out of the matter.

If you want to grow flowers out of withering, you have to light a big fire to regenerate from the ashes.

And Homi Sawamura's words are fire, burning out all the fires of Mari Aoi Sawamura's disguise.

So even though he couldn't guess the purpose of Homi Sawamura, Isuzu Sawamura also felt that it would be beneficial to do so.

As for the purpose of her trip, it was to convey the meaning of Homi Sawamura.

she opened her mouth.

"Ten days later, on the Yulong flag, in a sense, you also represent the face of Sawamura, so you must win. If you win, my father promised that I will give him the surname Sugi and let him have a decent funeral. It will also be enshrined."

After saying this, Sawamura Isuzu didn't know why, but suddenly felt that it would be great if Mari Aoi was an ordinary person, and then her character, which was regarded as weak in the ebb and flow of the big family, would also become gentle.

After all, in fact, seriously, her character can always be called gentle, but unfortunately, she was born in the wrong place, so she can only be gentle to others and cruel to herself.

But if she is an ordinary person, then these are not considered shortcomings, and her life will definitely be very happy, instead of like now, even her father's funeral and enshrinement depend on other people's moods. alms.

Sawamura Isuzu suddenly remembered, many, many years ago, what the little caged bird said was probably when Aoi was still in her stomach and was about to be born.

At that time, the little caged bird suddenly said a word inexplicably one day.

"Sister, wait for her to be born, or else you can send her away, and send her to an ordinary family, where food, clothing and well-being are all that is needed, a place where no one can find her."

Her tone was very slow, even a little ethereal.

Isuzu didn't think much about it at the time, but now that I think about it, maybe the little caged bird at that time had already guessed what would happen to the abnormally born Truth Aoi in the future.

In fact, Isuzu also knows that for so many years, the little caged bird has ignored Zhenkui, and even met him very rarely.

After all, the little caged bird is also a victim of the power center.

She looked at Sawamura Mari Aoi who was sitting curled up with her knees in her arms, and thought to herself.

If Truth Aoi were an ordinary person, she would actually be pretty good.

She has been able to live peacefully until now only because her father taught swordsmanship. Otherwise, with her identity, how could she be so peaceful and have no time in her heart.

And if her father didn't pay attention to her, then she would have to face what was long overdue.

If Aoi is still like this at that time, Isuzu will find a way to send her away, and it is good to stay away from this quagmire where it is difficult to move.

And back to the present, in the room where the slight sea breeze is howling, Mariko Sawamura is sitting against the wall.

She will try her best to win, after all, no matter how bad and shameful Shang Shanmu is, it is her father.

At least, don't let him die without a place for his funeral and monument.

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At the same time, on the beach, Bei Dao Ya finally came out of the dressing room, meeting other people's scrutiny and curiosity all the way.

After all, her dress is still very strange, coupled with a few bandages on the left wrist, and bandages wrapped around the palm and the back of the hand, in simple and popular words, it probably looks like a second class.

Even though the North Island girl is already a sophomore in high school!

Because Bei Daoya always wears long sleeves, it is the first time that the bandages are completely exposed and exposed to the eyes of others like now.

Therefore, many girls who knew her name were looking at her curiously.

After all, this outfit is seriously inconsistent with the classmate Bei Dao, who is usually super aura!It's even cute.

After walking to the beach, the first thing Bei Dao Crow did was to pick up the camera and start taking photos frantically, keeping all the pleasant and open sea view at this moment, and then taking it back to Bei Daojiu watch.

Half an hour later, I felt that there were no more North Island crows on this beach to take pictures, so I put down the camera, and then hugged the giraffe swimming ring, and walked to a seaside reef with few people.

Of course, she didn't go into the water. Although the sun at noon now makes the sea water not cold, and it's still a little hot on the coast, the North Island Jay still prefers warmth. If possible, she doesn't want to touch anything that is slightly cold.

So she sat down on the beach, built a building with sand, and then took a photo to prove to Bei Daojiu that she was really enjoying the school trip, instead of fishing all the time, and not getting together with her classmates .

When you think of the beach, you probably think of sand, volleyball, and swimsuits.

So Bei Dao Crow also planned to take pictures of all these for Bei Dao Jiu to see.

After all, although Bei Daojiu was born in such an island country, and it is still a coastal city like Tokyo, she has never really been to the seaside. All she has seen is the Tokyo Bay filled with artificial textures. Instead of a winding and natural coastline.

Therefore, Bei Dao Crow will bring all the gains from this trip back to Bei Dao Jiu, and for this matter, he will do some things that he has never touched before.

For example, building sand castles, or beach volleyball, or other things that can be played by the sea, she will do it.

At this moment, she was doing the first task, which was to kneel on the beach and carefully build a castle with sand.

Not far away, there were many classmates looking at her.

At this time, because of Bei Dao Crow's dressing up, she lost the usual feeling that strangers should not enter. She was alone on the sand, and not far away, there were girls laughing and laughing, which made her watch inexplicably. , somewhat solitary.

So the girls who noticed her also thought about something, especially the girls who were in the same class as the North Island Crow subconsciously ignored the former aura of the North Island Crow, but felt that they seemed a little too much, Even though she was a classmate, she ignored Bei Dao and left her alone.

These girls also subconsciously ignored that they used to be afraid to talk to the North Island Crow because of its strong aura, and even when they saw the North Island Crow, they would be nervous.

But at this time, because of Bei Dao Ya's dress, they began to think about something.