Surrounded by sickness, I just want to live in daily life

It seems that I didn't do anything excessive.

"The school will have a monthly exam in the past two days. If you need it, I can bring the books for you."

Shen Yi brought up another topic, the girl reacted a little this time, she lowered the quilt a little, staring at Shen Yi directly.

Just like an abandoned pet, seeing humans again, the choice of whether to trust or not is not easy to make.

"Uh, I don't mean anything else by coming here, just to see how you are here now."

"Everyone at school misses you a lot, get well soon and come to school."

Shen Yi rubbed his nose and said like this, but when he said it, he felt something was wrong.

This sentence can be said to anyone, but it can't be said to Jin Xiaotao. Now the school may only want her to go back, and Zhao Shuang is the only one.

Jin Xiaotao's gaze was a little strange, as if she was doubting Shen Yi's words.

But what she kept thinking in her heart was, is Shen Yi also looking forward to her return?

She really wanted to ask Shen Yi why he kept helping her and what he was planning.

But the answer was ready to come out, he didn't plan anything, this was what made Jin Xiaotao feel the most uncomfortable.

To plot nothing means absolute freedom.

Shen Yi still has a plan in his work, plotting the distorted relationship with Shen Yan, plotting the friendship with Zou Guqing and Wu Kexin.

So he was locked up by the three girls, he had to do his duty before them, the person in charge, he is not free.

But for Jin Xiaotao, Shen Yi had no plans, so naturally he could just leave as he said.

Give her some care today, and forget about Jin Xiaotao when things get busy tomorrow.

To Shen Yi, this was not a big deal, but to Jin Xiaotao, she could no longer bear the pain of being abandoned by hope.

"Well, I'll come over when I'm free, and today I just want to give something away."

"If there is nothing else, I may have to go first..."

No matter what she said, Jin Xiaotao didn't respond, and that look gradually made Shen Yi feel terrified.

This kind of look was only seen on Shen Yan, and only once, and it was the time when she was tied to the warehouse.

Shen Yi's sense of crisis was instantly overwhelmed, he didn't dare to stay any longer, and got up to leave.

But suddenly, a somewhat sickly white hand came out from under the quilt, and tightly held Shen Yi's wrist.

Jin Xiaotao's gaze became more panicked, she remained huddled in the corner unchanged, but her hands were stuck tightly.

It seems that the part of her blood that does not belong to her has already started to burn, otherwise why would she be so uncomfortable.

It seems that a hole has been dug in my heart, the only ray of kindness I have, I still choose to leave myself now.

Then, what's the point of living.

The black air entangled, engulfing the girl's face, hiding everything under the black mist.

There was still silence in the ward, Shen Yi frowned, and finally sat down.

Chapter 46 Accompanying

Shen Yi was forced to stay by Jin Xiaotao, and it was difficult to leave for a while, so the two of them could only stay here and stare blankly.

"By the way, I brought one more thing, which I almost forgot just now."

Shen Yi found a topic and began to fumble for his backpack.

Because it was placed in a relatively deep interlayer, Shen Yi didn't take out the things for a while.

Looking at the busy young man, Jin Xiaotao looked puzzled.

The chair next to it is full of fruit nutrition and so on. Although I may not be able to use it, it is Shen Yi's wish after all.

Apart from these, did Shen Yi bring something else for himself?

Jin Xiaotao really couldn't think of what Shen Yi wanted to take.

However, the more he accepted, the more uncomfortable Jin Xiaotao felt.

It was as if there were thousands of ants gnawing on him. On the one hand, he didn't want to accept kindness anymore, and on the other hand, he was extremely hungry and thirsty.

I owe so much, how can I repay it.

"I'll give it back to you."

Jin Xiaotao's voice was so low that Shen Yi barely heard it with his ears pricked up.

The girl's words were so firm that he gave him a hard time.

"Give it back to me, I really haven't thought about it, but of course it's fine, you can't have any accidents before you give it all back to me."

Shen Yi smiled, what he said made him feel a little embarrassed.

Isn't this forcibly binding Jin Xiaotao to herself?

However, it was enough to stabilize Jin Xiaotao's mood, as for not paying it back, it was really no big deal.

"Hey, this one, although it's been on for some time, I haven't used it yet."

Shen Yi finally took the pink lunch box out of his schoolbag.

He looked a little embarrassed, peeking at the girl's movements, as if he was a little embarrassed to show it.

"I still hope you don't dislike it."

"Of course, if you don't want to use it, just pretend I didn't say it."

After the bento box was taken out, Jin Xiaotao's eyes froze for a moment, she never thought that Shen Yi took out this.

Shen Yi saw himself having lunch before, so naturally he knew his downfall.

At that time, I was very uncomfortable, and I didn't want Shen Yi to know about it.

I was afraid that Shen Yi would laugh at me, even sympathizing with myself was unacceptable.

I thought it was over, but it wasn't.

Didn't he forget about it? Instead, he kept silently remembering it.

There was a warm current in Jin Xiaotao's heart, and the tip of her nose felt a little sour.

After suffering for a long time, a little kindness will move her so much.

But this gift is as heavy as a thousand catties, but she dare not take it.

If it is something else, of course I can pay it back, but as for this kind of concern, I may not be able to pay it back for the rest of my life.

"Well, don't you like it?"

Seeing that Jin Xiaotao didn't move, Shen Yi naturally thought that Jin Xiaotao didn't like this gift.

But it has already been sent out, and it is not easy to take it back, so it is placed on the pile of fruits just now.

Before Shen Yi could put it away, a pair of fair hands stretched out again, grabbing the bento box into his arms.

Jin Xiaotao looked at Shen Yi with big eyes, as if she wanted to see through the young man in front of her.

Her brows and eyes stretched slightly, but she still ran away like a rabbit.

She could only escape while accepting the kindness that intoxicated her.

Like the poppy, once accepted, it is impossible to escape.

"thanks..."

Shen Yi was stared at with horror, thinking that Jin Xiaotao was angry.

He lowered his head to look at his legs, but a girl's voice of thanks came from his ears.

"It's okay, I just think this insulation might be a little better."

"As long as you like."

Jin Xiaotao also turned her head to look out the window, but hugged the things in her hand tightly.

Her face was a little red, and her paleness receded a little, and she looked a lot healthier.

But only the girl knows that a heavy rain has come to her long-dried heart.

Although, this rain is not because of myself.

"Has Zhao Shuang bothered you these two days? I should have let him remember it long ago."

Now that Jin Xiaotao's condition is stable, Shen Yi recalled the incident of her committing suicide before.

Although Jin Xiaotao's situation was not very good before, she would not seek death suddenly. Something must have stimulated her.

"No..."

Facing Shen Yi's question, Jin Xiaotao's eyes flickered with fear, but she still said no.

She owed Shen Yi too much, if Shen Yi helped her out again, there would be no way to repay it.

Shen Yi looked at Jin Xiaotao's expression, nodded thoughtfully, and then made a pretense to bring this matter to the past.

Obviously Jin Xiaotao's death-seeking had something to do with Zhao Shuang, and she was a little too kind.

It would not be a bad thing to let a person like him fend for himself if he didn't help Zhao Shuang call an ambulance before.

"By the way, do you eat apples?"

Shen Yi suddenly remembered that Wu Kexin had peeled apples for him when he was in the hospital.

The patient must not have the strength to do this, so naturally the visiting person did it for him.

"Your body is very weak now, you need to take good supplements, and remember to eat those nutritional supplements."

Shen Yi rummaged through the box and found a fruit knife from the desk drawer, while Jin Xiaotao stared at Shen Yi's generous back, a little lost in thought.

"Are you still coming?"

Jin Xiaotao did not respond to Shen Yi, but asked the question that had been restlessly in her heart.

She was very afraid, very afraid that Shen Yi would be an exception today, very afraid that she and Shen Yi would be strangers again in the future.

She needs company, if only a little bit.