Honkai Impact 3rd, a simulator of lifelong regret!

That's really strange.

This chaotic and sudden surge of emotions was almost intentionally released, and suddenly allowed to be poured out by others.

——I can’t understand it.

Even if it's based on what's written in light novels, where emotions can overcome all constraints, then this emotion should be similar to the previous feeling of being moved and the desire to save and sympathize with others, rather than just because of seeing Airi's swimsuit, right?

Which light novel protagonist breaks through barriers time and time again by looking at other people's swimsuits? This kind of behavior should be called excessively perverted.

……

"how is it going?"

"I really want to know!"

Alicia seemed shameless as she took a few steps closer, her still unmade-up, fairy-like face almost touching the boy's body, her soft flesh trembling slightly along with it.

That exquisitely beautiful face, almost unreal, with a slender, elegant neck like a swan and fair skin, and a slender waist above the navel, was a scene so beautiful that even the slightest description would be censored.

Its construction resembles underwear, with narrow fabric inlaid with delicate lace, yet it can be openly worn as outerwear despite being called swimwear.

The greasy, soft flesh was squeezed and constricted excessively, causing the oozing, taut flesh to rub against the skin, and even the thin rope connecting the white collarbone seemed ready to snap at any moment.

As the girl's body swayed slightly and unnaturally, glimpses of her fair and smooth flesh would occasionally appear between the gaps in her swimsuit, revealing glimpses of her voluptuous figure.

Rather than calling this the cute coquettishness of an elf, perhaps it would be more appropriate to label it as the shameless succubus seducing others.

If this were just a regular swimsuit segment, this behavior would be far too much.

Unfortunately, this was not a typical swimsuit segment.

This is the first time I've returned to the town in twenty years.

It was also the first time the girl had returned to the place where, in her memory, there was only one place where there had been some warm interactions between her and the boy.

It's such a rare event, how can we not make sure to deepen our memory of it?

Jiangcheng has lost a lot of its emotions.

Without resorting to some rather extreme methods, this scene would likely be like a light inscription on a stone, disappearing completely in the breeze without any further action.

Even emotions hidden deep within require some extreme methods, such as adopting a posture completely opposite to that in memory, to evoke a sense of déjà vu.

As for the effect...

It should be pretty good, right?

after all……

—This is a work by Vervière!

……

84. Vilvi's backup plan is really useful!

At the age of sixteen, Alicia made herself a gorgeous and flawless gown, but in the same year, while wearing this gown at a grand exchange meeting, she lost the most important person in her heart for the first time.

Perhaps it was because the emotional impact was too great, or perhaps it was because realizing that she hadn't cared enough for the boy had the opposite effect.

The girl began to deny everything she had ever done, whether it was hosting banquets, recruiting friends, or even the design itself—designing halls, dresses, and banquet decorations…

These activities, which once consumed a lot of energy and were the things the girl focused on most, were all thrown into the unknown trash can.

Since that incident, the girl has never designed clothes for herself again.

I don't want to, and I can't.

Because every time this thought arises, it's as if I'm back in that toilet, where I can only lean against the wall, looking up at the lights in the sky, the illusory and unreal incandescent bulbs that are cold and almost piercing.

Alicia has lost one of her most proficient behaviors, both mentally and instinctively.

Moreover, even if it were still usable, it absolutely could not be used now.

—Because it's a swimsuit.

The last time she wore clothes she designed herself, all that remained for the boy was a bleak and ignored memory. The girl dared not gamble on whether that memory would be preserved, or whether her actions would trigger that sadness again, so that this beautiful life might be shaken in the slightest.

That being the case...

Then we'll have to rely on others.

Since I've already become a bad guy, I guess I can just borrow and steal some of Wilvi's designs, right?

After all, if what's written above is correct, this was originally intended for us to build a water park together for our next birthday.

The costumes, specially designed for this grand occasion, combine both elegance and beauty; all that's needed is to replace the gear decorations with flowers and wind.

As for whether this is a bit too despicable and shameless...

Anyway, that girl has already transformed into Icarus.

Anyway, that girl was willing to be trampled on.

Anyway, that girl was willing to become her stepping stone.

So let's raise this ladder a little higher, step on it a little more often, and let Jiangcheng experience more beauty and happiness.

Ultimately, it was just one of countless backup plans buried deep within. Bringing out a backup plan that had been forgotten now could, in a sense, represent that Wilvi had also contributed to herself and Jiangcheng.

At least this did help Jiangcheng.

No?

……

Alicia has become increasingly adept at dealing with the naughty thoughts that arise in her mind, and now she feels no guilt whatsoever for them.

For some reason, just like when she resurrected Jiang Cheng and said that she had lost her memories of Vilvie, the girl could still feel a pain as if the hair on the back of her head was being torn off.

Even if you are willing or hopeful, you will still feel angry after actually seeing this scene.

It was as if there was a third person in this little world, a third person who could realize the dirty and wicked thoughts in the girl's heart.

—It must just be my imagination.

【I guess so.】

Perhaps that meaningless morality within you hasn't been completely worn away, and you still feel bad about your despicable thoughts.

After all, in this small space with only two people, how could a third person possibly hear everything and angrily grab your hair?

how come?

How can morality still exist now?

Alicia couldn't understand why she felt uncomfortable because her actions and thoughts, which were theoretically rotten to the core, were hardly sinful compared to her previous behavior, at most just a bit despicable and shameless.

I felt a complete empathy; I didn't feel the slightest dissatisfaction in my heart. The only thing that made my heart race was for the sake of this beautiful moment.

This happiness, which was lost and then regained after almost fifteen years, took up a full half of my life and was experienced again.

For this relationship that I never paid attention to before, and even chose the wrong option in every decision I made, that I chose to ignore.

There wasn't a trace of sadness in his heart; all the numbness and sorrow of the past had vanished without a trace with the boy's resurrection.

If there's anything amiss, it's that Jiang Cheng mentioned losing many memories and lacking corresponding emotions, leaving only instinctive thoughts.

This thing continues to endlessly remind young girls today that their happiness is nothing but a facade concealed by despicable means.

Even if it's not spoken of, even if it's ignored, the mistakes made in the past, the disasters that the boy experienced, will still be firmly etched in his memory, never disappearing, never fading, and will suddenly reappear in every dark night.

Look.

You are still doing the wrong thing.

You are still hurting everyone around you.

You have trampled on Jiang Cheng's life once again, this time even his last wish. You have insulted their love once more, a love that even Möbius knew they should be together.

He was a boy who remained whole and complete even after death, still possessing love and emotions, and still able to leave you gifts.

Now he has become the Herrscher he hated most, the one who destroyed everything about him. Even his inner emotions have been stripped away, and even his cherished memories have disappeared, leaving only the part that exists for your sake.

Like a rag doll being trampled on. Physically manipulated and spiritually interfered with at will, all to satisfy a filthy desire.

So what?

—None of this matters.

Whether it's physical or emotional, if this is the price to regain youth, I can bear it no matter how many times it costs.

She could rekindle her own emotions and awaken the warm past in the town. After all, Vilvi's last wish was for Jiang Cheng to forget her and forget that love. Even if her status was humble and her behavior was lowly, it would be a reward and atonement for her.

and so……

You don't need to care about any of this at all.

Ultimately, human thought, memory, and abilities have their limits, and even a special being like a Herrscher of Evil is no exception.

[What a human being, a being with human emotions, can see and touch is ultimately limited by the limits of their own power.]

If you presume to do things that are far beyond your capabilities, or if you focus your attention on things that you cannot resolve or share within your timeframe, the end result will likely be a complete mess.

Even ignoring the factor of ability, time is finite; there are only a few hours in a day, no more, no less.

If you allocate an extra hour to someone else, you'll lose an hour or more of the time you spend with Jiangcheng.

Even if you seem to give each person very little time, and your acts of kindness are small, they can accumulate and leave you with absolutely no free time for the people you should truly care about.

【—Then you might as well just ignore it.】