Honkai Impact 3rd, a simulator of lifelong regret!

Whatever...

It was just a coincidence.

Everything is no longer related to you.

Your connection to the world has been severed. All the wonders of the human world are now irrelevant, completely disconnected, and too distant to be touched.

A kite that has lost its string, whether it falls into a trash can or not, has ultimately crossed out of the sky. It will never soar freely again, never have the chance to sway in the wind among the clouds once more.

But for some reason, for some unknown reason, perhaps a lingering sense of self, or perhaps just a gust of wind blowing open a corner of the newspaper, you unconsciously glanced over there again, looking once more at this product of the human world.

[The famous scientist who died young was revealed to be the Herrscher of the Stars, sparking outrage among the public who spontaneously tore down all related portraits and statues.]

[A Herrscher has been spotted in this secluded town; the monster with the power to control fire has been imprisoned; and all the assassins living in the town have been eliminated.]

[Thanks to the technology of the former Herrscher of the Stars, the town has been completely wiped out. Please rest assured, no monster will be left behind in this world.]

[The Eleventh Herrscher has descended, and all thirteen human cities in Australia have been destroyed. Humanity's hope, its last leader, Dr. Möbius, is dead. Please, all who see this message, join us in a moment of silence.]

The Seventh Divine Key, the Starry Sea Harmony, has been completed. As Dr. Möbius's legacy, this Divine Key may bring hope to humanity.

This newspaper appears to have been cobbled together; each event is presented haphazardly, and there are only a few dates and corresponding reports.

You flip it over and see a line of smaller print on the back.

The three remaining cities have all been destroyed, and humanity is on the verge of extinction. This base has only 10,000 people left. If there are any other bases remaining in the world, please immediately make a call to establish contact with us.

【ah……】

The pain was like a spasm in your heart, as if a chainsaw was constantly cutting around you, and the barbs would cause further damage the moment it was pulled out, making you feel like your body was about to collapse.

You open your mouth hollowly, not knowing what to say, or even what you can say; it's just an instinctive, meaningless action.

[The inability to even express the pain might be because this pain has long been taken for granted.]

For no apparent reason, you have a feeling.

【seem……】

You've lost everything.

【…】

【…】

【…】

[——Simulation ends.]

"what……"

"what?"

original……

Was Jiang Cheng preparing for his birthday banquet just for this?

Is leaving this world merely to make amends for my past mistakes?

The girl sat there blankly, her pinkish-blue eyes no longer reflecting any light, her hand holding the coffee spoon trembling uncontrollably, as if she could hardly accept this ending.

Compared to calamities that are destined from the beginning, what is truly terrifying is the darkness after hope is shattered. Falling on flat ground may indeed hurt, but what is truly terrifying is often climbing step by step to a high place and then falling completely.

It was supposed to have a happy ending before.

They've already been successfully resurrected!

The birthday party has come to a perfect end, all the regrets of the past have been made up for, and I have given Jiang Cheng my final gift.

Why……

Why did it suddenly turn out like this?!

why?

why!

Why can't I do anything?

Why does everything we do lead to tragedy in the end?

Why is it that every choice I make is wrong?

It just so happens that at the very end, at the very moment when things are heading towards the best possible outcome, at the very moment when hope rises once more, and the kite of desire is swept away by the wind called happiness and soars into the sky, that everything ends.

what……

what……

Ah!

—Because of me!

—I was the one who made that wrong choice at the beginning!

The beginning, which set the tragic tone for the entire story, was written by me. I destroyed hope, I pushed away the boy who loved me, and I made mistakes again and again, repeatedly showing my wickedness and ugliness, piling up the tragedy to this point of no return.

Jiangcheng...

He was still concerned about me until the very last moment.

This birthday party was held so that I could move forward with peace of mind.

I think I've done a great job, I think I've tried my best, and I think I shouldn't stay in the past but should stride forward.

--How can it be?

—How could you do that!

The person named Alicia has been stuck in the past from the very beginning, and the story in which she plays the villain has long been over.

My heart is bleeding, as if it is my own lament, the last cry before utter destruction, my soul slowly dissolving into bubbles.

Alicia felt something inside her collapse, something fundamental, something that even constituted her entire being, was shattered and destroyed.

It doesn't make sense anymore.

I still remember the day the girl first met Jiang Cheng. It was a nice morning. The sunlight was shining in, and the dark clouds on the horizon had just dispersed. The clouds that were illuminated by the morning light had a transparent quality like glass.

The ash forest, in perfect season, uses countless overlapping branches to block out some of the sunlight, leaving the remaining light to shine on the ground like thousands of lights on a stage. The thick layer of fallen leaves has covered the soil, and stepping on it feels like walking on a velvet carpet.

At the very top of the mountain, under the tallest tree, I lay there, uttering my first cry upon entering the world, as if waiting for someone to save me. But as I grew sleepy and tired, no one would venture into the quiet forest and waste the precious morning light.

If one continues to lie alone in the shade of a tree, crying out in vain, even if one is not harmed by passing animals, one's initial impression of the world, in their exhaustion, will be tinged with cruelty.

Until a pair of small, delicate hands gently lifted a drooping tree branch, pushed aside the leaves that obscured the view, and walked leisurely out from the depths of the dense forest.

—Jiangcheng.

A gentle spring breeze stirred his clothes, his untrimmed hair fluttering tirelessly. The new buds and blossoming flowers of the ash tree seemed to be there to adorn this moment. On his youthful face, in his eyes that had not yet been corrupted by the collapse, nor weary from the constant calamities, and which had lost their youthful radiance, there was a reflection of beauty, of happiness, and an anticipation as if he had seen a treasure.

……

The first simulation was successfully completed, although there were quite a few problems due to my condition in the middle, including but not limited to being a bit padded, having poor writing style, and having a mediocre plot... At least I did write to the end in a genuine way. I feel that I should be the longest simulation I have written on this side, longer than the main text of many people.

This book is inherently a slow burn, and a very slow one at that. Reading it slowly is definitely not a good approach. Now that the first simulation is finished, you can try reading it all at once. This will provide a better reading experience than reading it slowly.

Alicia was truly hurt this time, to the point that her once vibrant and energetic heart fell into a deathly silence, as still as a rock in the deep sea. The backup plan that Velvet thought she had designed was also proven to be a miscalculation.

The person who was willing to be trampled on himself to save others still died, even twice in a row... The beginning of the tragedy has come to an end, and now it's time for reckoning. Alicia's actions will eventually be known to others.

I wonder what everyone else thinks?

Are you still interested in watching?

This book has performed terribly; it seems like not many people want to read it anymore.

143. Alicia: I can't do anything.

This light never faded from beginning to end—in the town, on the journey, at the birthday party, in the final blessings and wishes given before her death, and in the eternal paradise where she was resurrected once again… It was as if, no matter when, Alicia was always worthy of being cherished and loved.

really?

Is it really worth it?

……

[The settlement is underway.]

Settlement complete.

As the last character on the screen was displayed, the simulation froze instantly.

[Your name is Alicia, the Herrscher of Origin, a goddess from the stars and moon, a fairy from paradise. You possess the most powerful strength in the world, the ability to rewrite destiny, yet you accomplished nothing.]

You failed to save the one you loved most, failed to bring them happiness, and spent countless hours in anxiety and insecurity, squandering precious things on meaningless matters. So much so that when you finally look back, you realize time has run out, and everything has changed.

[Entry:]

[The Trader of the Sea: Your choice pleased the sea, but the outcome did not. This force has ultimately left its mark on you.]

[The Origin of the Moon: This power has always belonged to you, buried within your very essence. But from this day forward, you can better utilize this power, possessing the power to rewrite everything, except for that final, greatest calamity.]

[A love filled with regret: You did nothing, left nothing behind, except for that regret.]

[A Star's Blessing: You have received a brand new blessing, one that is filled with everything, even a life offered up, to help you find your own paradise... But it's meaningless, isn't it?]

[Simulated Rating: B+ (You had the ability to change things from the beginning, and things wouldn't have turned out so badly if you hadn't done things so badly. But until the very end, you didn't really change anything. You possess the power to change your destiny and break free from your shackles, but don't you feel that this power is a bit too much for you?)]

Really...