Honkai Impact 3rd, a simulator of lifelong regret!

Perhaps they were unwilling to believe or accept that there was no one in the room, or to admit that they had no way of finding the boy.

He just kept banging on the door with his own hands, even though his knuckles, which were still human, were red and swollen, as if he had to wait for that non-existent person to come out in person.

"Click——"

In an instant, the light bulbs lit up, illuminating the dimly lit windows with bright incandescent light, and even the lawn was illuminated.

"River……"

"Jiangcheng?!"

Subconsciously calling out that name, the girl's pupils seemed to be illuminated by the light, shining through the darkness that was still filled with the night.

……

—She is the Queen of Thunder.

For the Heralds who wield the power of electromagnetic force, there is almost no high technology in this world that cannot be breached. Perhaps there is also pure physics, with the crudest power, that could possibly bypass the power of electromagnetic force.

Whether it's the lights, the gate, or the bell, everything is opened at this moment simply because the Queen of Thunder needs it and is willing to do so.

As for why it was late, it was mainly because controlling a bit of lightning to turn those people into charred remains without taking over their bodies did take some time. After all, it had to be done carefully; it wouldn't be too easy for those who had bullied Mei countless times to die in an instant.

She was already very dissatisfied with the whole day. Seeing Raiden Mei belittling herself like this, giving her all like a complete simp, all for a stranger she had only known for half a month.

Originally, she was just an ordinary bystander, and at least she didn't want to interfere in matters of young girls' feelings, but she could no longer tolerate it.

From birth, his sole purpose has been to protect Raiden Mei, a goal he has consistently upheld without ever wavering.

This kind of protection is not limited to finding ways to absorb energy and kill all those bastards; it also includes ensuring that feelings are not easily deceived by others, and that the already broken and delicate heart is not harmed by others.

Having the same, connected feelings, the Thunder Queen knows better than anyone else in the world just how dangerous the girl's current situation is.

The girl thought she needed support and that she lived for others. Without support, she would easily let others into her heart. As long as she received a little sunshine, she would be unable to resist moving closer to the sun.

The Thunder Queen understood this very well. Although she did not resent the meaning of her life, nor could she truly despise her own value in existence, she could not accept that anyone could use this method to break into Mei's heart.

Raiden Mei's heart is riddled with wounds, having endured too much betrayal and hurt; otherwise, her actions wouldn't be so smooth.

He was actually deceived emotionally by a stranger who suddenly barged in, a man who would think of other women after just a few words through bio-electro-induction.

Now, they're even resorting to shameless behavior over something as trivial as sending a message and not being able to get a response.

—Going to the boy's dormitory/home in the middle of the night.

How can it be?

How could this be!

Mei... should never be hurt again.

Mei needs to know the true face of that Jiang Cheng, to hate and despise him, and even if she doesn't, she can't continue to stay by the side of a bad person.

……

Without needing any particularly ingenious maneuvers, the Queen of Thunder simply couldn't devise a meticulously crafted scheme, like something out of a erotic novel, to shatter Raiden Mei's unwarranted, sun-like expectations of that boy.

Originally, I might have needed to think of ways to persuade my other self to give up on that heavy, twisted love for that boy.

Until a few tens of minutes ago, when that shooting star streaked across the sky, all thoughts had already stopped in my mind and were completely deleted.

There's no need to stop the girl's shameless desire to go to Jiangcheng's house; all you need to do is guide Raiden Mei along the way.

Because inside the brightly lit room behind the door, because in the girl's clear, purplish-brown eyes, where the furniture was neatly arranged, there was only one thing...

—No Jiangcheng!

……

213. Does Jiangcheng really hate my gift that much?

no……

no……

No!

Still nothing!!

Jiangcheng was nowhere to be seen; at the edge of the field of vision, all that could be seen were neatly arranged furniture and clothes belonging to the boy that still retained warmth.

It was clearly the place where he had lived, yet his figure was nowhere to be seen. It was like ripples spreading across a lake, making one naturally think of a breeze that had just blown by, but one could no longer feel that breeze, and could only vaguely and sadly imagine the refreshing feeling that had once brushed past.

what……

what……

My chest aches, my heart aches, a pain I've never felt before, not even when they hurt me, not even when my father was imprisoned. It feels like a thousand... ten thousand needles are piercing my heart, being violently stirred, determined to penetrate every part of it.

It's not about the so-called possibility of being cheated out of money, feelings, or even sexually assaulted by teenagers—those trivial, insignificant things.

—There is no connection.

—It's not even possible to see him again.

The bond he once boasted about was actually nothing more than a spider's web from the very beginning; it was all just wishful thinking.

Perhaps because she hadn't seen sunlight for so long, even a moment of brilliance was enough to dazzle her. The girl seemed to have lost her way in her pursuit of the light, even presumptuously believing that she could grasp it. Only now did she foolishly and suddenly realize just how far she was from the light.

—Was my connection with Jiangcheng really that fragile?

—Jiang Cheng and I... weren't our relationship much deeper than that of ordinary classmates?

……

what……

This self-awareness came far too late; it only arrived now, belatedly, and only now have I noticed the gap between myself and the young man.

That's a distance that's completely inaccessible, a distance that can only be illuminated during the day, just like countless others, a distance that makes no difference.

We could lose it at any moment, we could be separated at any moment, and we could lose sight of the light at any moment because of a solar eclipse, clouds, or a cloudy day.

Without a cell phone, all communication channels are lost. Even if you cheat by opening the box, you can't find the boy's real location at all. He doesn't deserve to be called a close person, or even a friend, because even friends can make plans to go to each other's houses to play after they've parted ways.

If, in the very beginning, when I lost my phone and couldn't see Jiang Cheng's reply or communicate with the boy in real time, I could still comfort myself with shameless and disgusting words like, "I can go to his house."

Now that we're at his house, in his room, what can we do to comfort ourselves and suppress our grief?

No more.

……

No matter how much you ask, your heart can only give this one response; there's probably nothing that can salvage the situation except for clever deception.

To regain reason, to regain inner peace, to regain that fragile self-confidence—that arrogance stemming from a good relationship with the boy that would continue to be good.

dying.

I'm really going to die.

Her fingertips pressed against his full chest, struggling. Even though she knew how foolish and incompetent she was, she still couldn't help but recall the boy's smile. It was a scene she had seen when they walked together during the day. His profile, bathed in sunlight, seemed like the sun itself at that moment.

Am I going to lose it?

Am I going to be abandoned?

Unwilling to accept, unwilling to acknowledge, and even more unwilling to admit it, the stranded people hanging on the edge of the cliff are still desperately groping, trying to find that lifeline, that radiant and unique light as the sun.

Even if Jiang Cheng comes out and beats me up the next second, I'm fine with it.

Anything is acceptable as long as Jiangcheng can react.

I really can do anything, I can accept anything.

No.

No.

Still not.

Absolutely not.

They clearly stated there was a curfew.

She clearly stated that she had no friends at school other than me.

During those two weeks, I really didn't have any communication with anyone other than me.

……

maybe……

Is Jiang Cheng shy?

Perhaps they were already worn down by reality, or perhaps they were still unwilling to give up and wanted to make one last desperate attempt. Instead, the thought that they were completely ruined and reduced to scrap metal came to mind.

It had barely sprouted, like a half-dead, crippled seed breaking through fragile soil to germinate, when it was given resources to help it grow faster.

If a female classmate with a good figure and appearance finds you in your dorm during high school, and you shyly hide in your room and don't move, isn't that normal?

Especially since it was a sudden attack, and they hadn't even tidied their own rooms.

Maybe they're still doing things from the comics at this point in time.

Shouldn't I be blushing and flustered?

Compared to not going home late at night when there is a curfew, it's more likely that she's too shy to speak up about something like that.

"Jiang Cheng, are you there?"

"I'm right here, here to discuss gifts with you."

"If you feel the gift isn't quite right, I can prepare something...new for you."

The girl's fingertips twitched, suppressing the shyness that had flushed her slender neck and delicate collarbone, as she slowly uttered a coquettish voice that would seem too explicit even in a pornographic film.

Adolescent boys are in the prime of their lives, and naturally they have unrealistic fantasies about the opposite sex. Although it is shameless and wrong to do such things in high school, if it is for the sake of the boy, if it is to be by his side... she doesn't mind at all and casually plans to become a part of the boy's fantasy, to take advantage of his vulnerability and become the object of his obsession.