Honkai Impact 3rd, a simulator of lifelong regret!

why?

Why do so much in private and not show it at all in public?

Why would you create a plot that's so disgusting and reminiscent of a third-rate melancholic comic? It's clearly a misunderstanding deliberately created by the creator.

Can't you just tell yourself that?

Isn't it enough to just let yourself know?

Why do so many people hide their care and love for others, never letting anyone notice?

Don't they know that love that cannot be seen can never soothe the soul, and that prolonged emptiness and void in the heart will only make the situation worse?

The Thunder Queen did not believe that a few words could simply gloss over the boy's past actions and make all misunderstandings disappear.

If you don't even let others know what you've done, or can't even show it, and refuse to tell them anything at all, then it doesn't matter what you do if you know nothing about it.

Ignorance is no excuse, a principle that has been accepted throughout history. Ignoring Raiden Mei's feelings and her uncomfortably distressed state of mind, and presumptuously offering help is the most foolish thing to do.

How am I supposed to know you care about me if you don't tell me? How am I supposed to know I shouldn't have done this?

If a child who has never been taught not to touch other things is unruly, then even if they break other people's things, all the blame will fall on their parents.

The boy's explanation only fueled more genuine dissatisfaction. His behavior of speaking from a position of power after everything was over, without any real understanding of the situation, and displaying an overbearing fatherly attitude, was almost unbearable for the girl.

Why can't you tell me?

Do you really think you can control everything?

'Mei has told you everything about herself, and I'm willing to tell you everything about myself, so why won't you tell me even the slightest bit of the truth? You won't even say the smallest thing related to you.'

'If you had told me all this sooner, or even just said that your oversight was understandable, Mei would definitely have accepted it, even if it were me…'

'I...I...'

I'd kneel down and apologize to you!

……

"I know I didn't do a very good job in this matter either."

Jiang Cheng gently pressed his fingertips against his chest, his deep blue eyes filled with undisguised apology. The truth that was washing over him like a tidal wave was not something that a self-proclaimed ordinary mortal could easily accept.

It cannot be denied that if the issue had been addressed and the truth revealed without any concealment, the outcome might have been much better.

Ultimately, Mei is only hurt by the reality that she feels unimportant due to misunderstandings. Once the misunderstandings are cleared up, there won't be any problems.

If one could have the opportunity to live a peaceful and happy life for three years like Kiana, then even if something else goes wrong, at most the Herrscher of Thunder would descend and beat them up, causing them to decide to fall into darkness and return to the light.

The very act of maintaining a so-called sense of ritual and pursuing the behavior of opening a gift at the perfect moment, as if in a simulation, is proof enough.

In reality, the environment of this world is nowhere near as stable as in the simulation. In the simulation, the two people with the strongest fighting power and the highest power in the world are his friends, and he has become the world's number one freeloader.

Now that they know this is a real world with a butterfly effect, and that they have intervened, they still want to maintain things as they are and not drastically disrupt the plot. They think that these are enemies whose upper limit is not much, but can be easily defeated by simply accumulating strength.

Why maintain the storyline?

So what if things get chaotic?

Anyway, it's all happening on this one planet. The people involved won't change, and the people we're fighting haven't changed either. It's still Otto and the Honkai Trial.

Why worry about someone like Durandal, who could have been killed by Joyce decades ago, who only survived by throwing bombs into the city, and whose current strength is merely that of someone who hasn't reached his peak?

Although this doesn't negate the fact that I was equally bewildered when the morning's events occurred, and I never imagined that something so terrible would suddenly happen.

What's happening now is never the fault of just one person; one person's mistake alone could not have led everything to such a desperate state.

……

"But I'm also trying. I know far more than you do, and I know that Mei's current situation is no coincidence. Otherwise, why do you think I dared to say that Raiden Ryoma's mistake wasn't serious the first thing I said when we met?"

"That's because I knew from the beginning that Lei Dian Long Ma's problem was a power struggle among colleagues, the so-called financial fraud... Isn't that a bit too ridiculous for a business tycoon who even surpasses the nation?"

"That's just a charge brought up by Cocolia, the radical leader who's hiding behind the scenes and wants to seize your family business and get enough funding."

"Mei's psychological problems are a big problem, but there are even more important obstacles blocking her way, obstacles that even becoming a Herrscher cannot solve."

"I can't deny that my departure yesterday was my fault, but if it weren't for you, I would have just gone out for a nap. I was wondering why something went wrong so quickly?"

"Don't treat me like some kind of genius. I'm just an ordinary mortal. Whether it's love and hate or the meticulousness of my thinking, I'm just an average person. The amount of knowledge I have doesn't represent the flexibility of my intelligence."

“Those moments of distraction were the price I paid for gaining power. I have solved the problem, and those people will never appear before me again... They are all dead beyond dead.”

……

The last vestige of hope lingered in his lungs as he exhaled softly, and when he opened his dark eyes again, the strange figure was no longer there.

Releasing the last lingering attachment along with the shooting star, the inexplicable thought that everything would be resolved by letting go of the shooting star also disappeared, and indeed, everything was resolved just like that.

I have done everything according to my own thoughts.

There are no more obsessions left, and I will never think of or encounter those two girls again.

Jiang Cheng gently patted his chest and smoothed out the wrinkles in his dress. His brows, which had always drooped downwards, finally returned to normal, and he could give himself an answer without any emotional fluctuation.

"--certainly."

"I'm too lazy to bother with these things right now. Once Mei's problem is resolved and everything is fine, I'll take the time to give you the punishment you deserve."

"Although what you did was stupid and reckless, now you have the chance to try to change everything to your liking. Now tell me your plan, tell me your plan to get her back from the Honkai."

"Don't worry about my safety. At least suppressing the Herrscher of Thunder is a piece of cake. You just need to trust me."

"I don't like making oaths to others, but at this moment I'm willing to promise you, to Mei, that I will do everything in my power to make up for our mistakes."

……

what……

Was it our mistake?

……

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232. Why can't you be a loser in Jiangcheng?

That innocent girl could only watch as one Herrscher after another died, and as she fought against one Herrscher after another. She realized that she had no kindred spirits, and she hoped that she would not become an outcast. She hoped that a life like hers could be born, and she left this world in solitude after exhausting her life.

It wasn't until 50,000 years later that he witnessed the first Herrscher with a human heart, normal emotions, and reason appear before him.

Even the Origin, whose scale and authority surpass those of ordinary Herrschers, is like this. What can a Herrscher who can barely protect himself possibly do?

Jiang Cheng could only try his best to make up for his mistakes and try to show his past experiences like that Thunder Queen.

“I have never ignored you. I did lie to you. I am not a freshman who just arrived here. I did know about your problems from the beginning. But this feeling has never been fake. I don’t have that kind of deception. I am really happy to receive your gift, so I have to be in my best condition... I won’t think about how I would be with anyone else when I open it.”

"The reason I wasn't home that day was simply because I wanted to find a way to solve my problem—the problem of me suddenly spacing out and having hallucinations..."

……

All words seemed insignificant at this moment, and any explanation seemed to be tainted with meaninglessness. Gazing at the girl lying on the operating table, Jiang Cheng stopped his utterly meaningless narration.

She wasn't completely desperate, because the fact that the Thunder Queen could still react and pull the girl into this environment meant that she hadn't completely given up hope.

If we had to pinpoint a similar core state, it would probably be when someone on a rooftop doesn't jump but keeps saying they're going to die.

When someone keeps talking about death, she doesn't actually crave death, but rather love.

For those who have been repressed and deprived of love for many years, the ultimate fantasy of death is probably to punish the adults who have hurt them with their own death.

Compared to their frail bodies, their lack of self-worth, and their virtually nonexistent social relationships, the only thing they possess and that is truly precious is life itself.

I don't want to hurt others, and I'm not lacking in kindness, but I can't accept the repression I've always felt. The self that has grown up in a distorted and abnormal environment is as fragile as glass and can easily collapse.

Jiang Cheng could understand this behavior, not only in terms of how he felt after Wilvie's death in the simulation, but also because he had similar experiences when he was a child.

For example, family.

Death is imagined as a gift when he is very young. At the funeral, he can receive lots and lots of candy, tears and love. Since he has been removed from his flesh and blood and is no longer bound by blood ties, can he watch TV without finishing his homework? His uncles and aunts should no longer blame him for not greeting people. Will his parents feel remorse and guilt? Will they regret suppressing him in that way? Actually, he could be more obedient. If only you encouraged me a little!

Whenever parents use phrases like "If it weren't for you, I could have done this" to complain about the hardships and setbacks in life, the child is already shackled with a sense of guilt. Death is the most extreme way to tie this shackle back to the parents. If it weren't for you, why would I have committed suicide?

Death is not a relief, but a distorted revenge. A person's childhood, lacking multidimensional tools, is often filled with a fascination with death.

Because when a person only has one path to take, that path will be infinitely mythologized and embellished.

There is no reason.

But this is really the only one left.

Human will is always a fragile thing; it will collapse instantly if there is no reason to support it.

Even those who claim to have strong will or unwavering determination are essentially just using these reasons to make their own beliefs more solid.

At this moment, how could any words explain everything, or comfort the girl who had lost even her last hope and had completely fallen into the abyss?

The only thing we can do, the only thing we have to do, is to reach out our hands.

I'm here.

I've always been here.

I will always be here.

The boy gripped Raiden Mei's cold fingers tightly, trying his best to make his face clearly reflected in her pupils.

"I'm here, Mei."