Honkai Impact 3rd, a simulator of lifelong regret!

and……

—Have I even considered giving up thinking?

Even if thinking itself represents pain, it shouldn't be to the point that one can no longer maintain the act of thinking and instinctively wants to give up this right.

This proves that every minute and every second of life is filled with torment and inner distortion, preventing one from experiencing much beauty.

—Perhaps there are some.

Even for a girl who has experienced so much, this is still an unimaginable emotional shock. Jiang Cheng has never been absent from her life since she opened her eyes. Now that she can only watch the boy interact with others, how will she feel?

These were not just disasters lasting a few days, but a long, torturous ordeal that lasted for years, a relentless, all-encompassing assault every moment.

Any merits found in Vervière.

Intimate contact between two people.

The happiness that appeared on the boy's face.

These are countless sharp knives that have already pierced the heart.

The girl knew she was foolish, and the shadows of her past were repeatedly shown, proving again and again how foolish and incompetent she had been.

She was so overwhelmed with emotion that she didn't even know the extent of her suffering—she had lost all awareness of her body long ago, perhaps on the very day she confessed her feelings to Jiang Cheng.

If one were to delve deeper into that raging, decaying emotion and investigate its source, the source would utterly engulf her.

dare not.

Unwilling.

I don't accept that my life will end here.

Alicia dared not think about it any longer; even the unconscious subconscious influence made her feel a tangible discomfort in her heart, as if it were suffocating.

No! Absolutely not! Absolutely not!!

Option one was too impulsive. Right now, she didn't dare to face either the boy or Wilvi directly. If she really chose that option, the next time she might just give up thinking and triple that decision.

The only option left is option two.

It's only for a few minutes, so there shouldn't be any problems, right?

……

[You can't accept that.]

Even though you know it's impossible, if that girl said to you, 'Jiang Cheng was great last night,' you would absolutely go crazy on the spot.

[You don't even need that one sentence; any word spoken in your personal interactions with the boy could drive you crazy on the spot.]

Describe the boy's aura, his gentleness, his concern... You can't bear to look directly at that blissful expression.

[Anyway, we've already started using Honkai energy to make weapons. With your perception of Honkai energy, searching the warehouse won't be a problem.]

It's only a few minutes anyway.

Surely nothing will go wrong?

[If I try to reason with Vilvie, I might waste even more time. After all, she's not a teenager; she can't possibly completely trust me.]

It was only a dozen or so minutes.

Even at full speed, you could probably find the weapon and take it out of the safe in less than ten minutes.

[Anyway, that weapon was purely something Jiang Cheng casually mentioned—whether it was possible to create a weapon that humans could use to hunt Herrschers.]

[After it was subsequently produced, it was determined that it was completely unusable by humans, so it was sealed away and stored deep in a warehouse to gather dust.]

Now you can only find the weapon that suits you, and then you can hunt down Herrschers with it.

The world will calm down again, and you can continue to hide your identity, watching the boy and Velvet's interactions like an escaping clown, fantasizing about what would have happened if you hadn't ignored Jiang Cheng.

[—Pathetically sinking into imagination and regret.]

Even so, it's better than facing all of this personally.

[It's much better than meeting that girl in person.]

As expected, you avoided Velvi's presence, found the weapon in less than five minutes, and unlocked the door in three minutes.

Looking at the longbow lying there quietly, its beauty as dazzling as falling blossoms, you didn't immediately reach out. Your fingertips froze in mid-air, and you immediately recognized who this bow and arrow were designed to commemorate.

[A stunningly beautiful longbow, seemingly sculpted from crystal, that would leave even the most masterful craftsman breathless. Even the bowstring is made of flowing pink silk, and the exaggeratedly bold crystalline protrusions on either side make one wonder if it was ever truly designed for humankind.]

Even disregarding its so-called form, the intense energy flowing within it is beyond the reach or influence of ordinary mortals.

[I'm afraid that dumping it into the ocean would be many times more harmful than the sewage discharged into the Far East.]

【perhaps……】

This was definitely not designed for 'humans'.

[Only the adorable fairies of the legendary Celestial Moon Kingdom can use this, right?]

[Starlight and the bright moon, sparrows and falling blossoms, until love quietly descended to the mortal world and blossomed into a flawless crystal flower... and that is the name of this weapon.]

[—Fleeting blossoms from past lives.]

[In memory of a loved one I may never see again.]

[The birthday gift I couldn't give is sealed away here, awaiting the day it may be unsealed.]

what……

what……

what……

Is that so?

Is it only oneself who is running away?

The girl once thought that her past experiences had made the boy extremely disappointed in her.

The girl thought that her indifference and neglect had created an insurmountable chasm between them, which fueled her extreme hatred.

but……

but.

but!

This is just the girl's wishful thinking.

This is simply because the girl refused to face it, was unwilling to face it, or was afraid to face it, and then chose to give up on herself and escape from it.

I already know that I have never truly understood or known the boy.

They knew perfectly well that they were ignoring the boy again and again.

How could one possibly presume to judge Jiang Cheng, a man who is like a hero, like a prince, and who would even start a fight with the worst villains, with such despicable, filthy, and ugly thoughts?

The boy never resented Alicia because of this, and never truly hated her.

The boy's feelings may be the same as they were before.

even……

She is far more pure and innocent than she is.

That gentle demeanor, that unwavering emotion, remained unchanged. Even when ignored and betrayed, he was still willing to treat the evil villain who betrayed and ignored him with genuine affection.

—As if I had once stepped through thorns and cut through weeds in the shadowy thicket, like a hero, like a prince, facing the light, facing the leaves, facing the flowers, facing the birds, standing before the depths of the dense forest, shielded by the dark shadows.

It was that boy who reached out, plucked the green leaves from his face, stopped the falling branch, and then cradled the tiny baby in his arms along the withered leaves.

It brought the homeless girl into the human world.

It gave people warmth.

That day, the light shining in those black eyes puzzled the girl, until she saw the night sky and realized the beauty hidden within it.

A distant dawn, a slanting spring breeze, a verdant forest, and flowers swept up by the wind.

And the teenagers they care about.

How wonderful.

If I had to pinpoint the flawless paradise sought in fairy tales, what would it be?

That moment alone could be called a paradise for young girls.

perhaps……

—My escape was truly a meaningless thing.

Being an ostrich or something like that will only hurt yourself, all the people you love, and all the people who love you. It will bring you no benefit whatsoever.

It will only endlessly drain the love of those who love you.

Wisdom makes those wonderful people worry all the time.

Alicia closed her eyes, feeling as if she were in a hot spring. Every inch of her polluted and ravaged skin seemed to be washed by the warm current, and her heart, which had been tormented and wounded, seemed to be revitalized.

All the obsessions, all the attachments, all the sorrows of the past seem to have been carried away by the wind, leaving only traces of their existence in the heart.

Only after her emotions had calmed down and warmth had settled in her heart did the girl carefully pick up the extremely ornate weapon that held so many beautiful sentiments.

Once this battle is over, I will personally meet with Jiang Cheng and make up for all the gifts I've owed him over the years.

I won't hesitate any longer.

I won't hesitate any longer.

—I'll go see Jiangcheng after this victory!

The girl pressed her chest, which was so full that her heartbeat was almost inaudible, and gently smiled, silently leaving the purest hope in her heart.

When she opened her eyes again, only an unwavering determination remained in those blue eyes.

just now.

—It's the fairies' turn to appear!

……

Perhaps it was because they had completely given up hope, lost all courage, and no longer felt qualified or worthy to interfere in the boy's life.