Contractual Marriage: We’re Meant to Be Together

171. What Are You Thinking

Translator: Ahve

“You said that you’re too young for that and I have to wait until you graduate. Alright, I’ll just wait. It’s just a year and a half. I swear I’ll make it. But what about you? You suddenly told me you want a divorce and broke your promise? You’re such a liar! You never even want me to touch you!”

“I’m not a liar!” Yan Chuyang yelled, “I mean every word I say. I’m also a man, and I feel the same desire as you do. But for now, I’m really not in the mood for it. I’m just so frustrated that I’m a nobody and have to depend on you all the time. How can I have you and everything else so easily when I can’t even support myself? How can I ever be so irresponsible?”

Wei Qing’s face froze, yet his mind was restless.

He always thought he couldn’t figure out what Yan Chuyang was thinking before, but now he felt he was wrong.

It was not that he didn’t understand.

They never even focused on the same point!

“What are you talking about?” Wei Qing looked at the boy and said helplessly, “Just because you’re not successful, you can’t make love with me? I’m really confused.”

“You don’t understand.” Yan Chuyang looked away stubbornly with tears in his eyes.

“Then tell me.” Wei Qing wiped the tears in the boy’s eyes with his hand softly. “Tell me how it feels. Stop holding back like this. I couldn’t bear to see you crying.”

Yan Chuyang turned away, gritting his teeth, “Wei Qing, we’re from two different worlds.”

How could such a man truly understand? There was never a moment when Yan Chuyang felt himself not inferior. He was scared and anxious, haunted by the fear of losing the man he loved. If he told Wei Qing all about it, the man would probably find it ridiculous.

Wei Qing was born with a silver spoon in his mouth. He was so well-bred and charming. Besides, unlike those who just enjoyed being rich and splashing out, he was ambitious and intelligent. With hard work, he was now running his own business.

Everything just went smoothly for him. How could he understand the life Yan Chuyang had at the bottom of the society since he was a child? The boy knew clearly that even if he did his best, he could hardly be as great as the man. The deeper he loved the man, the more inferior he felt day by day.

He just wanted to work hard and improve himself. When he made it big one day, he could live a better life with the one he loved.

Before that, he wouldn’t indulge himself in short-lived lust while what he truly pursued was pure love.

He had never forgotten what his grandmother told him, “One who couldn’t even support himself should be ashamed of being addicted to merely lust in love.”

Wei Qing sighed helplessly, frowning, “Then tell me, when do you think you can achieve your goal?”

Yan Chuyang looked serious, deep in thought, “At least, I should have my own company.”

“Your own company?” Wei Qing felt excited and said hurriedly, “That’s pretty easy. Just let me help you. Tell me now, What kind of company do you want to start? A comic studio, or… ”

“I mean I want to do it by myself.” Yan Chuyang interrupted him with a frown.

Wei Qing’s heart sank. He tried to persuade him, “Chuyang, I don’t mean to underestimate you. I just think that starting a company alone is going to be very hard for you, and it sure will take more time. You know time is so very precious, right? How about this? I’ll provide you with money, technology, space, and staff, and you’re the one in charge. And guess what? You can realize your dream and we can be happy together ever after. Isn’t that great?”

Yan Chuyang looked down, pondering. After a while, he murmured, “If you help me with that, it’s still your company. Everything is yours.”

Wei Qing couldn’t help grumbling to himself. Sometimes, the boy was soberer than anyone else right when he shouldn’t be.

“Okay, I’ve done talking.” Yan Chuyang sat up from the sofa and looked around for his T-shirt.

Seeing the boy’s fair upper body, Wei Qing blushed and quickly turned his head.

“Where’s my T-shirt?” Yan Chuyang asked with a frown.

“Well…” Wei Qing ran his eyes over the ground, picked up the ripped T-shirt and put it beside him carefully.

Yan Chuyang took the T-shirt, his lips pressed, “Do you think I can keep wearing it this?”

His words made the man even more embarrassed.

Wei Qing felt his face burning, as if he had been punched.

He really went crazy just now. He tore the boy’s clothes like a beast.

As a man from a noble family, he was born and raised to be decent and gentle all the time.

But just now, what was he doing? It was hard for anyone to believe it, including himself.

Actually, it was not all his fault. He didn’t mean to do it at first. Yet when he saw the boy struggling so hard to get rid of him, he was hurt and out of control. He desperately wanted to conquer the boy and make him his. After all, few men could remain calm in bed with their lovers.

Somehow, he felt himself a bit despicable.

“Hey!” Yan Chuyang pushed Wei Qing on the shoulder, “Did you hear me? I can’t wear this anymore. You have to find me another one.”

Wei Qing came to his sense. He quickly stood up, walked to the door and threw the shirt he had worn yesterday to the boy. He gave a cough, “You can wear this one. I don’t want to go upstairs now.”

Yan Chuyang put it on, yet it was baggy for him.

Wei Qing’s shoulder was much broader than his. Now it made the shirt look like a long cape hanging from his upper body.

With the baggy shirt, the boy looked even thinner.