Dear Love

At home, I sat quietly looking at An An holding on to his milk bottle with a small bib around his neck and Xiao Qi laying beside him and I felt that everything was like a dream.

I’ve returned back to the past and now with me there are additional characters, a little boy named Gu An, followed by Fu Jun Yan and his big white dog Xiao Qi. For the past one month, we’ve been living together under the same roof which is completely different from my past life.

Jay didn’t live in my next door apartment and not like in the past where he used to talk to me about acting whenever he has free time and he didn’t even has the time to have meal together. Every time he barely said a few words with me, there will be various kinds of issue that pulled him away.

Of course the most important thing is that adorable little boy Gu Xiao An who’s unknowingly made me spend a lot of my attention on him. He was like the best elixir in the world which can make my heart calmed down and let me view things like a bystander.

For example, the way Mei Jie looking at Jay, there’s an expression of a love hidden in her gaze which I didn’t manage to see it in my previous life.

In the past life, after the release of Sad Love, it received a very big response. In fact, it even created different groups of audience who wanted me to become couple with their favourite actor.

Eventually, I ended up with Jay as screen couple and long term partner. The reason is very simple, I’d joined the same brokerage company as Jay, and also signed up with Mei Jie.

A brokerage contract is like a slavery contract.

At that time, no one knew who I am. The outsider greeted Xiao Mo Xiao’s daughter as Eldest Miss Xiao since everyone thought his daughter should have the same surname. No one knew the fact that actually I used my mother’s surname – Gu. So all this while, all of them thought that I was very lucky, having a beautiful face with high similarity with Gu Xin Yao and the fact that I was her biological daughter had never crossed in their mind.

Mei Jie thought that I’ll behave obediently since she had my slavery contract in her hand, which I’ve signed a 20 years contract without even blinking my eyes upon her initial offer.

20 years — for an ordinary person if the brokerage company wanted to freeze her activity then her career will be over forever.

Mei Jie should be having the same thought so at that time without any worries she allowed me to become couple with Jay in so many shows. But occasionally, she would behave like a good sister and give a friendly reminder for me not to take the whole thing as a real thing, that everything is just an act. Moreover she was 7 years older than Jay, no matter how overboard her concern was, I have never really give a much thought about it, only thought of it as a normal routine company procedures.

Later on, me and Jay were secretly dating without informing the company. On the company’s request to create a publicity, we happily comply to the company requests to meet each other and create an ambiguous relationship for the reporters.

With Mei Jie overseeing me at home, paparazzi staring outside the house and many other reasons, Jay has never touched me even though we were dating for 10 years.

I found it ridiculous now when I thought about this, how did I get involved with him and go through that 10 years of uncertainty life?