Diary Of A Bitch

#diary of a bitch

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He was shocked, he didn't expect that question in the least,he opened his mouth to talk but no word came out of his mouth

Me:moment of silence I guess,never mind I just asked out of curiosity

I got up and walked over to the dispenser,he hugged from behind,I felt tears drop down to my neck,I turned over in surprise, he was crying,I opened my mouth to ask why he was crying but he kissed me and I kissed back like I expected the kiss,confirming again that I was a bitch,Something stopped us this time or should I say someone. We heard dramatic claps and turned around to see Susan,smiling maliciously

Susan:saying your goodbyes huh?

I turned to face Susan as Kelvin released me.

Kelvin:Susan do we have to do this

Susan: why do you care,you didn't give a damn in the beginning right?

Kelvin: things are different now,you already got what you want right?

Susan: she knows too much already, and I changed plans,you'll be the one to finish her off instead,and I'll be present to make sure it happens

Kelvin turned blue

Kelvin: I can't do that

Susan: why?, don't tell me you feel pity for this scum,or could it be that you've fallen for her?

"well it doesn't matter,consider it as an order or face the consequences" she gave him a knowing look.

I looked at kelvin and back at the woman I used to call my mother,kelvin knew all this while that I was going to be killed and he didn't say anything, all he did was use me again,I looked at the woman that killed my mother,I saw her satisfaction, she only kept me alive to pay for the sins my mother didn't even know she committed, she never really loved me,I lived a lie all my life,I was the bastard of the family and now they will finally be rid of me.

Me: Mum,thank you for everything,including all these,I loved you even if I didn't really show it,but it's obvious that I remind you of dad's infidelity so you did what you had to do,you'll finally be rid of me

Sudan's murderous gaze turned soft and stern within two seconds. Her emotions were conflicting and her consecutive expression was evidence

Susan:if you think emotional blackmail can work then you're joking

I didn't say anything,I laughed like a maniac and watched as kelvin cuffed my hands and led me to the car, I would have escaped, I had the chance to but I didn't, I think it was because I was tired of being used and betrayed,Kelvin and I with two other guys were in the car with me,Susan followed us at a safe distance,kelvin sat beside me in the car so he had the chance to say all the trash he wanted to say

Kelvin: you should have escaped when you had the chance to, I left you alone on purpose this afternoon, the whole house was empty,why didn't you leave


Me:it's of no use,you knew I was going to be slaughtered right,why didn't you tell me?let me guess ,maybe because you wanted to have one last bite of your "wild cat" right

I was the impression that you cared,but apparently you don't, it's not like if I escaped I would be safe,just do whatever you're asked to do nicely,I need to pray for forgiveness of sins.

I prayed for forgiveness, I had given up on living,we got to some bushy area and they pulled over,I prayed for the strength to overcome the pain, we came down and waited for the person who calls the shots;Susan

She came minutes later and handed a gun to kelvin,he pointed the gun to my direction with his finger on the trigger, his expression grim. I closed my eyes,I didn't want to see the man I love take my life from me, I actually admitted the obvious to myself at the end, I loved Kelvin.

A shot rang out,squeezing my eyes at the expected pain, but something unexpected happened

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