Eternal Log

"Shirley, I like Shirley. I want you to go out with me..."

The moment I heard that word, the sound was gone from my world.

The voices of the people around you, the sound of the waves, Hal, your voice...

It's just that Hal, the only words you said to me ring in my head.

I was happy.

I liked you, too, Hal, and I've always wished I was.

So I wanted to get back to you right away.

"I like you too, Hal."

and.

But for some reason, I don't get the word right away.

It was tears coming out of the change.

I'm glad... for some reason the tears are overflowing.

I was crying when my parents were gone, Hal when you lost consciousness, Hal when I felt you were leaving... when I was sad.

So I thought I would cry when I was sad.

But even if I'm happy, I'm gonna cry.

I can't stop crying and whimpering.

Look at me like that, Hal. You're saying something in a mundane way.

But the sound (voice) doesn't come into my world.

Don't worry, I'm sorry.

But it's not.

I'm just happy and tearful.

"Oh, I'm so happy, I'm so happy... but..."

I desperately suppress whimpering and utter words to try to convey my feelings.

But I don't really have the words I want to convey.

You look at me like that, Hal, and you're waiting for me.

"I... don't know about you, Hal... I've always liked you!

I was desperate to use my thoughts as words to convey them to you, Hal.

But tears overflow again.

Would it be a pleasure to say what I have always wanted to say?

I couldn't contain myself anymore.

I can't stop crying and whimpering.

I covered my face with both hands.

Hal will hate you with a face like this......

It was then.

Hal, you hugged me to envelop me.

I don't mean to say anything. He just strokes my head and hugs me.

Hal, your hand...... the hand that helped me.

It's a little big and messy.

You've been training a lot.

And I've saved a lot of people with that hand.

Kind of a very reassuring hand.

And the sound of the heart.

Hal, I feel your presence so close...

You're very big in me, Hal, aren't you?

I wonder if I can be a big part of you, too, Hal?

Because from now on I will try harder to be bigger for you Hal......

... so just let me stay like this for a bit longer now.