After my triumphs and defeats, I created multiple aliases across countless worlds.

She felt an urge to kill Bai Ye.

However, now that a contract has been signed, updates should be able to be made on schedule as stipulated.

It seems like the novel was also signed along with the contract.

Speaking of which, this guy is so good at writing in this area, and he writes with such a strong sense of immersion. Does he have a lot of experience?

.....

"Are they even signing contracts for these kinds of lowbrow novels now?"

Kasumigaoka Utaha had previously followed Icha Icha Paradise.

While it may be somewhat vulgar, it is undeniably captivating, but... the key issue is that the publication of this kind of novel is somewhat...

Forget it.

I should think about my own novel instead.

Kasumigaoka Utaha squinted her eyes, then continued to sleep on the table.

She felt like she had hit a bottleneck.

It seems... I simply can't capture the feeling of being in love.

It seems like it's because I have absolutely no dating experience. If I were to date...

Chapter Thirty-Seven - So... this is love?

The more Kasumigaoka Utaha thought about it, the more anxious she became.

The shoes on their feet began to tap rhythmically on the ground.

She felt like something was always missing when she wrote about love metronome.

She had received guidance from Bai Ye before, and she could also tell that Bai Ye was pursuing her.

She began to seek inspiration in the pursuit of the White Night.

But Bai Ye's confession to her later caught her somewhat off guard.

After being rejected, Bai Ye's sudden coldness left her somewhat at a loss.

Lately, I seem to have trouble concentrating my inspiration. Is it because I haven't found inspiration in Bai Ye?

She actually felt quite comfortable spending time with Bai Ye; at least after spending time together, she could find ideas on how the male protagonist should advance the plot.

Everything has a traceable pattern, but he wasn't here before!

Kasumigaoka Utaha was somewhat troubled. She had just started writing before, and Byakuya had not yet appeared. However, as the two continued to interact, and she deliberately sought inspiration from Byakuya, she found that...

She realized that she seemed to be somewhat inseparable from Bai Ye now... well... she meant that the real-life inspiration for the novel's protagonist couldn't live without him...

"Well, she's quite the fickle one, but even my protagonist is indecisive..."

Kasumigaoka Utaha murmured, thinking that her own protagonist in the book was also hesitating between two heroines.

She found herself drifting further and further away from the main plot of the novel.

I originally intended it to be a pure love story.

But as I wrote, the inspiration I found in this philandering guy led the protagonist astray.

Then he packed his bags and left, leaving this mess for me to clean up.

"Teacher, I would like to ask for leave."

Kasumigaoka Utaha raised her hand, a hint of melancholy in her eyes.

I feel like I really need to talk to someone.

"Are you feeling unwell? Then go back and rest."

The rules about taking leave aren't that strict here. Besides, Kasumigaoka Utaha is an excellent student. Even if she sleeps at school, she can still get excellent grades. Since she's sleeping anyway, it's better to let her rest.

If you have a health problem and they still won't approve your leave, then you just have to wait for a sharp, explosive sound to come out.

...

"Hey, Shi-chan, so you asked me to come here just to talk about this?!"

In a small coffee shop, Machida Sonoko glanced at her with a hint of resentment, while also feeling somewhat helpless. She had put aside her work to come here, and had originally thought that Kasumigaoka Utaha had some inspiration, or that she had something else to do with her work.

But unexpectedly, for a whole hour, Kasumigaoka Utaha spent denouncing the behavior of a certain 'scumbag'.

"Don't you think this is outrageous?"

Kasumigaoka Utaha was a little confused. She had been accusing her for so long, surely Utaha would have some empathy for her?

Besides...shouldn't I complain a bit about this behavior?

"Of course not. If you think the other person is bad, then why do you still want to have contact with them?"

"Because of inspiration, as I just said, I've been finding inspiration for my novels lately from him!"

Kasumigaoka Utaha pointed to the book "Love Metronome" and said this as if it were the most natural thing in the world.

In her view, it was because she had run out of inspiration that she had no choice but to do this.

"Shijiang, have you noticed something?"

"kindness?"

Kasumigaoka Utaha raised an eyebrow, turned her gaze to Machida Sonoko, and gestured for her to continue.

"Haven't you noticed? It seems like there's a boy in your life who's causing you emotional fluctuations."

"But he's a jerk. Not only did he confess his feelings to me, but I only did it because he's the protagonist of a novel!"

"But why did you choose him as the male lead? There are so many boys to choose from! Shi-chan, you're lying to yourself!"

Machida Sonoko's tone was slightly teasing. She could tell that Kasumigaoka Utaha seemed to be being a bit stubborn, or perhaps she hadn't noticed it herself.

"Actually, the boy who can make you emotionally fluctuate isn't necessarily the one you like, but at least he's closer to you than a friend. Also... people always say that women like 'bad boys,' right? He can pursue so many girls at the same time, and even if he fails in the end, at least it proves that he has the ability to make girls willing to develop a relationship. Besides, do you need a reason to like someone?"

"Don't you need it?"

"do you need?"

Ah!

This is what young people's love is like!

Sure enough, this old woman just doesn't understand!

As a corporate slave, Machida Sonoko had no idea what this sweet romance was like.

hateful!

Why didn't I have that when I was in school!

Looking at Kasumigaoka Utaha, who had gradually fallen silent, she felt a slight sense of emotion.

"So, you mean you've fallen for him?"

"No, no, no, I didn't say that. You should know in your heart whether you like someone or not. But I feel that you're just used to it, not that you like them yet."

Who knows?

Machida Sonoko was unwilling to let Kasumigaoka Utaha speak ill of her.

"Come to think of it, I haven't quite reached the point of liking him yet. It's probably just because I've gotten used to his presence, and he's been writing the book with me, plus I've started to project myself onto the female lead in my book..."

Kasumigaoka Utaha finally came to a conclusion.

That means I've just gotten used to it, not that I like it.

Perhaps this period of adjustment is just a matter of getting used to it, and as long as you force yourself to stop, time will smooth everything over.

But she wouldn't do that. She doesn't have many friends, so she naturally cherishes this hard-won friendship, even though she knows that Bai Ye is only after her body.

"So, you're still bothered by this?"

As she spoke, Machida Sonoko picked up her things and prepared to leave.

She can't be away for too long; if there are any unresolved issues there, she might have to work overtime to deal with them.

"It's not exactly a problem, but he confessed his feelings to me, and I don't know how to interact with him anymore."

In the past, it was at most a crush. He never said anything, and although everyone knew it in their hearts, it was all kept to themselves, so there was nothing to it. They just had to pretend not to know.

But now that he's said it directly, he'll treat her the same way as before. Kasumigaoka Utaha knows she can't do that.

"Forget it, asking you doesn't seem to help. You've never been in a relationship. Have you ever been confessed to? Have you ever rejected someone?"

"..."

Machida Sonoko's resentment grew even stronger.

Why is talking to her so tiring?

If you want to ask a question, just ask it properly. Why did you suddenly start making personal attacks?

Just follow your own heart.