If we were not married

Gu Binyang won't care about my tears, because he always cares about others.

If I hadn't known about it myself, if the woman hadn't come back, I would have been covered in the drum forever.

It's no use enjoying this happiness that belongs to others. This happiness doesn't belong to me after all.

It's no use for me to occupy it all the time, because as long as the master comes back, I'll give it back to her.

I don't want such happiness. Even if I really want it, I won't be at ease.

"Stop drinking."

Zhang Shaoheng advised that I don't want to drink, but if I don't drink, which kind of sober feeling is really uncomfortable.

However, I know that my drinking capacity is not very good, but I don't know why. I always can't get drunk. I don't know when my drinking capacity began to become so good.

I don't want to get drunk, but I don't know what I drink unconsciously.

Now I want to get drunk, but in my thin heart, I clearly think of who I am and can't forget.

"Let's go. Shall I take you back?"

"I don't want to go back, don't go back."

I said excitedly, where can I go now? I don't know what it's like to go to my own home.

I don't want to go to Gu Binyang's house again, but all my things are still in Gu Binyang's house.

I know, anyway, I will see Gu Binyang sooner or later, but at least I don't want to see him today.

Because I haven't adjusted my mood, I don't want to be looked down upon by Gu Binyang.

I don't want to see Gu Binyang again. Now that I have decided not to love Gu Binyang, I will take back all the feelings I have paid.

"You say, am I bad?"

I seriously asked, I want to know what kind of existence I am in everyone's eyes, especially in men's eyes.

"Why do you suddenly ask this?"

When hearing this question, it was obvious that Zhang Shaoheng was surprised. I should have never thought I would suddenly ask such a question.

However, it seems that no one else can ask me except him, because now I can't find anyone else to drink with me.

In other words, he is the only one who can answer this question now, although there is not much intersection between us.

However, this does not mean that he has no evaluation of me. No matter how he evaluates me today, I won't be angry.

"At the beginning, I thought you were an unreasonable and bad tempered person, but your character is still good. Now I'm looking at your words, I'm also weak."

Zhang Shaoheng commented that after hearing his words, my tears couldn't help flowing out again.

Not because he said I had a bad temper, but I couldn't help thinking that the most worthless thing at this time should be my character.

I really have a bad temper, but I just want to protect myself from injury.

Everyone must be weak. How can I be a person? I've been working so hard all the time. Emotion is my biggest weakness.

Maybe it's because of the number of times I've been hurt, so only I know my weakness. It's the same as now, but few.

The reason why I don't want to disguise now is probably because I was really hurt too badly this time.

Therefore, I don't want to fake anymore. Now I can have a good rest. When I have a good rest.

In the bar, my strength is shown in front of everyone, but now I have no strength to continue to disguise.

I need a good rest. What I can trust now is the man who is with me, because there is no one else except him.

I just indulge myself once. From tomorrow on, I will never pay any feelings to others.

I've been drinking wine all the time. I just want to get drunk once. This is the first time for me to drink with the purpose of getting drunk.

This feeling is really very comfortable, but I don't need to feel it again in the future.

Finally, I was really drunk. I didn't know anything. I just felt like I had a long dream. I just wanted to remember my dream.

However, I always can't remember the contents. I just feel a terrible headache and don't know what to do.

But when I woke up, I was in Gu Binyang's home and still in Gu Binyang's bedroom. I will never forget it in my life.

However, I clearly remember that I was drinking with Zhang Shaoheng. Even if I was drunk, he didn't know the relationship between Gu Binyang and me.

Not to mention, Gu was dreaming when he sent me back.

"Chris."

I pinched myself, and the flesh on my face hurt, which means that I didn't dream. Naturally, the events of these days are also true.

It can't be my dream, because I can feel that it really happened.

"Wake up?"

When I couldn't understand it, Gu Binyang came in and didn't know what was in his hand.

Now that I have figured it out, I don't want to pay my feelings, but now when I see Gu Binyang, the mood in my heart is not very good.

"Why am I here?"

I asked directly that I was definitely with Zhang Shaoheng, so I need a reasonable explanation to appear here now.

"Where else do you want to go?"

I don't know if it's my illusion. Gu Binyang is actually angry, but now Gu Binyang has no qualification to take care of my affairs.

Is Gu Binyang going to act with me now? The person he likes doesn't come back. He shouldn't let go of me quickly.

In this way, it can be avoided that the woman is jealous. Gu Binyang really plans to keep me and tell the woman at that time.

He loved her so much because she wasn't here, so he found a woman who looked the same as her to be her double.

Lin Qi can't stand this insult, so I'd better leave now, even if I have a bad headache.

But I still have to leave here right away.