If we were not married

"Lin Qi has something in my heart that has bothered me for a long time. I think and think that only you can help me, so please."

When Gu Binyang said this to me, I was stunned, but soon I couldn't help laughing.

"Really, Lin Qi, I'm not kidding. I'm very serious. I'm talking to you."

I didn't expect that Gu Binyang's handsome face was obviously more resolute than just now, which made me unconsciously think that if I continued to laugh, would it be too unfair.

So I held back my smile and said to Gu Binyang, "well, you say, I'll listen."

When I said this, I was also very serious in my heart and said to Gu Binyang.

"Lin Qi, I want to take you to meet my mother. You know, if I want to be with you, I must win her consent," Gu Binyang's eyebrows seemed to be frozen with a thin layer of ice.

I looked up and saw that he looked really serious and was staring at me.

"I don't agree," I replied, Gu Binyang's words.

"I mean, I want to take you to my mother and win her blessing for us."

I didn't expect that Gu Binyang would repeat what he just said to me again, and look at me more seriously than at the same time.

"Well," I said, "I disagree."

In response to him, I repeated it again.

I saw Gu Binyang. After listening to what I said, his face obviously showed a trace of loss and melancholy.

"You..." after loss and melancholy, a trace of anger took its place on his face.

I didn't say much, but Gu Binyang turned and left in front of me.

I know Gu Binyang is really angry with me this time.

I can see this from his back.

He is very serious and wants to be with me. He even hopes that his family can accept me like him.

But I refused him.

Because I know that Gu Binyang and I are not people in the same world. I am just a person standing at the bottom, and Gu Binyang is just like his name, the son of the sun and the focus of attention.

If Gu Binyang takes me home to see his family, there will be a lot of gossip between me and him. Gu Binyang will also bear a lot of pressure from the secular world, from his admirers and admirers, from his company and friends.

However, he still wants me to go to see his family with him. On this point, I know that Gu Binyang is very serious and loves me.

I also know that he is very serious and loves me, so I didn't nod and agree to his proposal.

Because of me, I don't want him to be under pressure because of me.

Even though I know, he is ready to bear the pressure with me.

However, Gu Binyang still left, with anger and determination.

But I stood in the same place and looked at his back from a distance.

At that time, I had enough reasons to explain to him; There are enough reasons to hug him from behind him and tell him how much I don't give up when I leave him, and I have so many excuses that I can't help myself.

However, I actually didn't say anything.

The moment he turned and left, I couldn't help crying.

Although there have been many rehearsals about leaving him in my heart before, there has never been such a real one as now.

In fact, it's not that I don't understand transposition thinking; If I were Gu Binyang, how painful would my heart be.

But I can't abandon my birth.

So that day, I stayed in place and recalled my past and Gu Binyang's past, which was full of happiness and sweetness.

It was not until a voice in my heart said to me, "well, Lin Qi, you should accept the reality and live a good life", that I came out of Gu Binyang's thoughts.

At that time, it was late and I went home alone.

I lay in my rented temporary apartment, tossing and turning, and couldn't sleep. Or, it's really time to find a job.

I think, since I used to like singing and want to enter the performing arts circle, I might as well go to the bar.

Working there has two advantages. I concluded: first, I found a job in a bar, where I had the opportunity to accept all kinds of people, and there would be a lot of handsome guys. In this way, I might have the opportunity to meet someone I like, and I could also have the opportunity to start a new relationship and put Gu Binyang down completely.

Second, singing in the bar can be closer to my dream. Remember, when I first entered Binyang international, my dream was to step on the shoulders of giants. In that way, even if I was just a dwarf, I would be very tall in the eyes of ordinary people.

But I didn't expect that I would know Gu Binyang, and inexplicably began a love affair with him. I think this is the most bizarre meeting in my life.

But fortunately, in my heart, I may never meet a boy as special as Gu Binyang. However, and he has become the past, but it is a fact, and now I just want to engage in a new field, start a new life, meet new people, and say goodbye to the past completely.

I haven't mentioned my idea to anyone. Even if I know, if anyone knows, I will think that I'm too crazy.

In fact, I didn't say anything, but ordered a plane ticket to Xiangxi from the Internet. Although I was looking forward to traveling to Western Hunan with Gu Binyang, this proposal has not been put forward. Because Gu Binyang is too busy, there is no chance at all.

Now I went there alone, and when I was on the plane, I still had a book in my hand - border town by Shen Congwen.

The girl Cuicui in the border town left a deep impression on me. Although I didn't experience a similar fate with Cuicui, after all, it was a novel, not a life.

However, I will be as independent and strong as her.

I believe that sooner or later I will get my own happiness, although I don't know whether there will be him in my happy life in the future.

I also forgot to tell myself that when I saw the ancient town of Xiangxi called "phoenix" on the map of China, I unconsciously flew there.