If we were not married

I thought no one could recognize me. Because, all the time, I hide myself well.

However, when I was casual, I found a very strange look, staring at me coldly.

Although such eyes made me blush involuntarily, it always accompanied me and refused to leave.

I thought I had a dream.

In fact, I always thought that the job manager Wang gave me was only temporary, because I applied for the job of singing in the bar, but I was assigned to clean the men's toilet.

So the strong belief in my heart supported me. Even on the way, when someone passed in front of me, he spit at me.

But I still insisted and wiped it clean.

However, I was inadvertently angry with the man, because after spitting, he scolded me "shameless".

This really annoyed me for a moment. I thought I would attack, but I felt very soft and weak all over.

I suddenly remembered that I didn't have breakfast in the morning, but I had been working for three hours, bearing the incomprehension, anger and even insult from others.

Until a little faster at noon, I finally couldn't bear it anymore and was about to faint.

At this time, Su Meng suddenly came to me. She asked me, "sister Lin, how are you now? Are you okay?"

"Everything is OK, just a little hungry, and then chest tightness, thirst and want to eat," I heard Su Meng say to me in surprise as soon as I finished saying, "ah, sister Lin, don't they tell you that eating here is voluntary?"

I shook my head and said I didn't know anything, but I heard Su Meng say to me, "maybe it's because I'm too busy today. It's coming to the new year. Sister Lin, you know, it's going to be the peak tourist season, so everyone is very busy for this."

I was confused and nodded. When I was about to leave, I suddenly softened my knees and squatted on the ground, but I couldn't move forward any more.

"Sister Lin, what's the matter with you?" seeing me like this, Su Meng quickly asked me.

I quickly shook my head to her and said, "it's all right. I probably forgot to eat breakfast in the morning because I had low blood sugar..."

"Ah, sister Lin, go to the hospital quickly," Su dreamt that my situation was not very good, so she couldn't help getting nervous and said to me, "sister Lin, hurry. Don't make trouble. The manager, I'll ask for leave for you. It's important to go to the hospital first."

Although I am reluctant, I know that if I refuse again at this time, it will seem a little hypocritical.

So I had to let Su Meng arrange everything for me, and I ate a little. After the bread sent by foreman Dulin to me, I was sent to the hospital.

Because I was alone in a foreign land and forgot to eat breakfast at work, I accidentally had a hypoglycemic attack, so there was no one around me.

On the way, all the friends in the bar came to see me and expressed their willingness to stay and take care of me, but I refused.

After all, I've only been on duty for half a day. How nice and troublesome.

So I was left alone in the hospital ward.

Maybe it's because a person is too boring, or maybe it's because people who are sick are more likely to be lonely.

So, because of a sudden whim, I made a phone call to the man who wanted to love and didn't dare to love. However, what I didn't expect was that a woman would answer the phone.

"Hello, Gu Binyang, long time no see..." unknowingly, at the moment when the phone was connected, I cleared my throat and said the monologue I had rehearsed for a long time in my heart.

However, a soft female voice has interrupted all my thoughts: "Hey, beauty, Hello, who are you and what's the matter with my husband?"

"Er," when I thought of the sentence "Gu Binyang in our family," I couldn't help but be a little surprised that Gu Binyang had a master of famous flowers so soon. He changed a new person so soon. I think I should change my mouth. I might as well turn my thoughts on him into a blessing for the success of his relationship.

So I coughed softly. For some reason, I suddenly had the illusion that the woman who appeared on Gu Binyang's phone should be Gu Binyang's current girlfriend, so I said to her, "Hello, is president Gu there?"

To my surprise, it was the woman's abnormal response. However, she seemed reluctant to answer me and asked her questions: "Hello, who are you? What can I do for him?"

"Hello, I'm his friend. Is Mr. Gu there?" I said.

The other end of the phone actually repeated the question again: "Hello, Hello, who are you? Hello..."

I suddenly heard that there was no signal at the end of Gu Binyang's phone. I don't know whether it was natural or man-made. In short, I think at that moment, when I put down the phone, my heart was too painful. It really hurt my heart.

I really didn't expect that Gu Binyang found a new person in such a short time after he separated from me. He is really very marketable.

But it's hard for him. I turned to think that since Gu Binyang has such a market, he hasn't gone to find another woman for so long with me. In fact, because I've always been by his side, if he has any clues, he won't escape my eyes.

But he was not with the other women.

Maybe it's because of my existence that Gu Binyang doesn't have time to make other girlfriends. Now that I'm gone, Gu Binyang can't wait.

When I put down the phone, I really don't know whether I should be happy for Gu Binyang or cry secretly for losing such a good man around me.

In a word, even though I have many feelings, I can't do anything.

I can only lie in the hospital thousands of miles away from Gu Binyang. At the moment, I am trying to warn myself that I must keep my inner peace.

However, facts have proved that my practice is just self deception.

Because soon, soon after, when Gu Binyang's phone called my mobile phone again, my heart was messy for a time.

He called me. It was so sudden that I hung up without any precaution.