If we were not married

I said anxiously, I don't know what I'm afraid of?

"You're back, too."

"Do you know me?"

I asked curiously. I'm sure I'm here for the first time. I didn't think I'd been here before, but how does the waiter look like he knows me.

"This is my secretary, Lin Qi."

Gu Binyang introduced my identity in advance before the waiter spoke. I really don't understand. Do you want to eat like this? Is this showing off that you have a secretary.

But now I don't have time to argue with Gu Binyang. I looked at the waiter with a puzzled face and wanted to verify whether we had met before.

"Sorry, I accidentally admitted my mistake."

The waiter said angrily.

"It doesn't matter."

In this world, there are many people who look like me. It turns out that I recognize the wrong person. How can I have the opportunity to come to such a place.

I have been an orphan since I was a child. At the beginning, I would pay attention to everyone who looks like me and think he might be my family, but I gradually found that I was wrong.

I gave up completely and went to find my family, because they don't want me anymore. What's the use of finding them.

Over the years, I have been in contact with the orphanage. What I think is that the Dean told me one day that my parents came to me, but so many years have passed.

Finally, I'm tired of waiting. I don't want to wait. Can't I live well alone? Just like now, work hard for your goal.

I have also been used to fighting anything by myself. It is also because the life of the orphanage let me know my ability.

Let me learn to be strong. I won't be defeated by emotional things so easily. I can read all the separation with a smile, but God, are you really fair to me.

Did I do too many sins in my last life, so I can't be happy in this life, but God, your punishment for me is too cruel.

Never let me get it, but I don't want to believe in fate. I have to be right with God to find my happiness.

"Is there something on your mind?"

Maybe I was too excited to attract Gu Binyang's attention. Gu Binyang's eyes were full of concern as when he was in the car last night.

But how long can this concern last? Is Gu Binyang so gentle and jade like to everyone.

How many women are immersed in the gentleness made by Gu Binyang. I just don't deserve Gu Binyang, so I avoid it carefully.

But even if I don't want to admit it, Gu Binyang is really beginning to become different in my heart.

What I can do is to try my best to restrain my emotions. My life all the time allows me to control my emotions well and never show too much.

"May I ask you a question?"

Perhaps it was driven by the tenderness in Gu Binyang's eyes. I suddenly wanted to ask him a question. Maybe after this time, I will never have this courage again.

"Ask."

Gu Binyang's tone was as plain as ever, as if he didn't care about what I said, which made me shrink back from me.

"What's the matter? Why don't you say it?"

I think I'd better forget it. It's better not to ask that he and I are people in a different world after all. His life has never been accessible to me.

"Nothing, just don't want to ask."

At this moment, I have calmed my mood. Gu Binyang must have been so gentle to me these days that I almost forgot.

In the company, I'm just his little secretary who hasn't become a regular. In his home, I'm just a nanny who pays off debts.

In addition, there is no other identity. Gu Binyang's willingness to be good to me may be to see my pity. It's just his pity.

"Let's go to dinner."

Gu Binyang seemed not curious about what I wanted to say and didn't mean to ask again. I was just saying if Gu Binyang was asking, would I tell him.

However, after all, I thought more. Gu Binyang didn't mean that at all.

Originally, I was full of expectations for this meal, but now I have no appetite for a moment, but I can't see anything with appetite in front of the menu.

I just ordered a few dishes casually, but I didn't have the previous enthusiasm. Maybe I can see that I'm not very happy now.

Gu Binyang didn't say anything more? Let me immerse myself in my own world. I think of revenge every day, but when will I have a chance.

Now I don't have the ability to revenge those two people. Now I haven't become a regular. As the saying goes, it's not too late for a gentleman to take revenge, but have I really waited for ten years.

After a while, Gu Binyang answered a phone call and left. It should be very urgent, so that he didn't have time to eat.

He told me to go back after dinner. I nodded and said yes. Now I want to be quiet and think about my future.

It's good for Gu Binyang to leave and give me my own space. Otherwise, as long as we play together, we can't help but focus our eyes on him.

I can't calm my mood, but now that he's gone, I can take him alone for a while.

Just the dishes on the table, but I no longer have an appetite. I just think that this is what I dreamed of when I used to want to eat. Isn't it a waste not to eat now.

Unfortunately, because of my mood, I can't taste such good food. I'm just full. It's just a pity that I have eaten the good dishes on this table.

After eating, I had no interest in staying here, so I got up and left. When Gu Binyang left, he left me a bank card.

It's for me to buy vegetables. Since I'm free, it's good to go to the mall. For me, I might feel better if I buy something I like to eat.

"Miss Lin, are you leaving?"

When I went downstairs, I met the waiter again. When he saw me, he greeted me warmly.

"Yes."

I have a good impression of him. He doesn't look down on others like other waiters.