If we were not married

Why, why do you always treat me so well that I think I'm different in your heart.

When I decided to have the courage to believe, tell me that you already have a person in your heart, that person is not me.

I slowly helped Xu Lei up. This is the house she just moved to today. There is nothing in the house. Even I want to make her a night's sober soup, there is no material.

It's getting late. Too many things happened tonight. Now I don't have the strength to go out and buy materials.

He went straight to sleep next to Xu Lei.

the second day.

Jingling.

Maybe it's because I'm too tired. I always feel that when I just lay down, the alarm clock rang, and Xu Lei on one side still slept soundly.

"Wake up."

"Why, don't make noise when you sleep."

Xu Lei said impatiently that she was well. She didn't know anything about last night. Of course, she is very comfortable sleeping now.

I'm different. I'm still a small man working for others. Gu Binyang was angry yesterday. I don't know how to face him today.

"Get up, let's go and have something to eat."

Knowing that she drank so much wine last night, her stomach would be uncomfortable today. If I left like this, she might not eat breakfast.

That's a great challenge to the stomach. No matter what happens to women, they can't treat themselves badly. This is the most right thing for me for so long.

A woman, if you don't even feel bad about yourself, if you do, who do you expect to feel bad about you? It's also your fault to embarrass yourself for so many scum.

It's not worth it. I believe Xu Lei will come out. I also know that she is a person who will only be difficult for herself.

Especially now, at the most rare time, she is unwilling to forget, but she has to forget, so she can only choose to forget by torturing herself.

Xu Lei has always been such an extreme person. I don't deny that she is really stronger than me. Isn't she no worse than others in running her own fashion design room.

"Why are you so annoying!"

Under my constant harassment, Xu Lei finally got up impatiently and took me to the morning shop downstairs to have breakfast.

At breakfast, I told her everything about yesterday, but she listened with interest.

I didn't feel how thrilling it was last night. Naturally, I wouldn't tell her about the relationship between Gu Binyang and her.

First of all, I have nothing to do with Gu Binyang, not now, not even in the future. Second, to keep her from worrying about me.

"You won't go to that place in the future."

I'm afraid she won't listen to me and go to that place again. If something happens like last night, I'm afraid she will regret it all her life.

"I see. When did you change such ink?"

Now she thinks I have ink stains. If the person who got drunk last night was me and she had experienced so many things and so dangerous, then the person who wrote ink this morning would not be me. It should be her.

"Well, I'll go to work first."

I've said almost what I said. It seems that the time is almost. I'm going to go to work.

"Well, I've been eating for a while. I'm leaving. You go first."

After hearing Xu Lei's words, I left in a hurry.

However, I didn't see Gu Binyang until noon. I didn't know that Gu Binyang had gone on a business trip.

As his secretary, I'm a little incompetent. My boss has gone on business. I'm the last one to know.

However, the person he took on a business trip this time was not me, but our secretary general. I was still a little lost. Did he think I didn't have the ability to accompany him on a business trip? So you don't even want to tell me.

In the past, I thought if Gu Binyang was on a business trip, how comfortable I would be at home alone. I don't have to think about serving him anymore.

However, when I really got this, I didn't mean to be happy at all. I always felt like something was missing.

No one is willing to give me a lift. I'll get up early tomorrow and go a long way to take the bus, but I know I'm not comfortable because of this.

It's been three days. I haven't heard from Gu Binyang at all. Because I'm Gu Binyang's exclusive secretary, Gu Binyang's work that isn't in my hand now has been reduced a lot. Tomorrow, I'll just look at those documents over and over.

But even if I just read such a little file, I always can't let go. I always feel that there is something in my heart, which makes me feel uncomfortable.

I always unconsciously think of the expression on Gu Binyang's face that night. It can't be pretend. I did see the meaning of worry, and he worried about me again.

In Gu Binyang's heart, what am I? Why was he so worried about me when he was drunk that night.

Is it because I am his employee that he is so worried? Is he the same to every employee? These problems have plagued me for a long time.

The more I think about it, the more I can't be calm. I think I've underestimated everything, but in fact, I've never let go of myself.

I'm used to burying my thoughts in my heart until it's a little weak and impossible, so I have to give up.

Just like now, even if there are many questions in my heart, I don't have the courage to ask. No matter what his answer is, I don't have the courage to accept it.

These days, my working environment is also surprisingly quiet. Except me, everyone seems to be surprisingly busy. Only I am idle.

It's good. At least no one comes to trouble me. I'm also free. I'm very upset now. If someone really comes to trouble me, it's just asking for trouble.

Now I'm not a little white when I first came in. Now I can protect myself very well. Gu Binyang has been away for several days. It is said that the secretary group transferred another person today.

However, I don't need to care about these. Even if I have become Gu Binyang's secretary, I know clearly that I haven't become a regular yet.

Maybe I'll leave sometime. It usually takes half a year to become a regular here. I think I can use my own ability to become a regular.

This is what I have to do now. I don't think about other annoying things. Because of Gu Binyang, I haven't been able to work well and concentrate for some time.