Inner Demons

Liu Laodao finally couldn’t help it, looking at Li Yunxin: “What happened to Brother Xin?”

Li Yunxin only sighed:” How is she now?”

The old way knew that he was still reluctant to say—perhaps because of “reluctance to say”—that he was changing the subject again. But what Li Yunxin asked was also what the old Taoist often worries about. Li Yunxin refers to her as Shikuizi.

Liu Lao Dao knows that his heart brother is sometimes like a big child who makes a small child. The question is too tight, maybe we will leave. So first talk about his own business.

He accompanied Li Yunxin and sighed: “Before you left, you used a talisman to seal her up. I watched these days and felt that it was not good, like…people are gone.”

Nothing means death. If a few months ago, Lao Dao had encountered such a thing as “people are gone,” he wouldn’t have said so “serene”. For the worldly people, the boundary between life and death means eternal separation, which is insurmountable by manpower. However, in these short months, he has seen more life and death. Therefore, I know that death does not mean the end in Xuanmen means. Maybe he can’t do anything himself… but Li Yunxin will always have a way-he believes him.

Li Yunxin was un’ed frowning. I thought about it again: “As expected. My talisman was not originally to keep life. It was just to seal the soul and calm the corpse. She is dead now, but my soul is sealed in the corpse. You… if you have a heart, just I often talk to her. The soul is still conscious, trapped in the dead every day, and suffer.”

The old way was stunned for a while: “This way? I just think she is fainted…Is this way?”

“You know, when people die and leave their souls, Yan Jun will come and lead people. So it’s impossible.” Li Yunxin lifts the head to see Old Tao Liu, hesitated for a while, “Sanhua It turns out that I didn’t do well with that body. Now I know that another method is better than my previous method. But I haven’t figured it out yet. For her good… I will wait a little longer.”

Liu Laodao was only sighed, and it was agreed.

So the two people were silent for a few breaths, Li Yunxin lightly coughed, raised his hand and touched his nose: “Why do you like it?”

He said that Briskly, the veteran frowned and let out an “um”, only when he heard it wrong.

Li Yunxin slowly extended the hand and approached the copper stove, leaning back slightly, staring intently at the red charcoal in the stove, repeating it inadvertently: “I mean you Two, when did you…like her at the beginning?”

After speaking, he muttered, “It’s autumn after all.” Turning his finger around, he drew a curse and bounced it into the fire, and the flame rose violently, covering his face.

Liu Lao Dao heard this time this time-his face was also red by the fire. The fire was raging and the heat wave hit people. There’s no such thing as a fire for warmth, it’s almost a roast. His heart brother is the body of gods and demons. It doesn’t necessarily cause any major problems if fire burns in a short time, but he is different. So he hurriedly backed away-I sat down and pondered for a while…

I finally realized that Li Yunxin might be in trouble again.

Last time he thought Li Yunxin was dead, so he stayed in Shikuizi’s Nanshan Mountain Temple. But Li Yunxin came in in the middle of the night and sat silently and asked him “what’s the trick?” The expression back then…it looks a lot like now.

It’s just…he just got out of the house only a few days before getting into such a romantic debt again?

The old Dao didn’t know what to say for a while-he was not a romantic seed, and he didn’t know much more about the relationship between men and women than ordinary people. But this kind of Liu Dao looked at this kind of Li Yunxin, and his heart felt a little different. He and Li Yunxin are both teacher and friend of both the master and the servant…These four “yi” characters, it is hard to say who is in front of them and who is behind. Sometimes he is like Li Yunxin’s older apprentice, and sometimes he looks like an elder who takes care of him.

It was the fact that two people on the horizon came together to implicate a period of fate. Now, for Liu Laodao and Li Yunxin, the two people are probably the only people in the world that can I’ll talk about it in detail.

As a result, the emotions that have been in my heart a lot of time before are born again-some sorrow and some comfort. It’s like the old grandfather saw that the grandson of to rebuke Heaven and Earth was awakened by a nightmare at night and kicked the quilt, so he walked slowly over and fell asleep softly…

Knowing that his heart brother is now in trouble that makes him scared and panic…hide back.

So even at his age and experience, he is especially embarrassed to say something like “like or dislike” straightforwardly, but at this moment he has to keep his face straight-just like listening As usual gossip came, he cleared his throat: “This is something. I can’t remember it clearly. Things from more than ten years-I want to say when I like it, when I have some thoughts… This thing is It’s hard to say.”

“If two people didn’t know each other before and didn’t have any impressions, how could they meet each other, they would just… uh… would you like it? If you get along for a long time, Slowly, that, I like… This thing is like ice and snow melting, how can it be said from which time it began to melt. But Brother Xin, you… have you met a girl you like?”

The veteran is not very used to saying the word “like”. But somehow he squeezed his tongue and spoke these words smoothly. Then he asked casually, just as if he was talking about some short content in the parents, or saying, “Tomorrow, I should go north to see the Demon there.”

After he said this, Li Yunxin was silent for a while-his face was hidden behind the fire, so the old man could not see it.

After a while, I heard him cough slightly: “…I don’t know.”

The old Tao thought that there might be an answer like this, but didn’t expect it. There is such an answer. According to his understanding of Li Yunxin… Once he says “don’t know”, it is almost equivalent to “yes”. He was stunned for a while, and couldn’t help asking: “Whose girl has such… ability? Is that… Bai Yunxin?”

“How come.” Li Yunxin replied immediately.

The curiosity of the veteran was aroused by him: “Which one has you seen before?”

After a while, Li Yunxin said after the fire: “I haven’t seen it.”

The old Dao was stunned again: “I haven’t seen it, why did you like it?”

Li Yunxin stood up abruptly, with energy The flame was swayed by the wind, and the shadows of the two people also danced on the wall: “When did you say you like it!”

The old man raised his hand quickly: “Well, don’t say so . But since Brother Xin wants to ask me, he has to say something about the whole sequence of events. Those old things about me… Well, Brother Xin knows. What’s so embarrassing about you? Nowadays, it can be regarded as mutual companionship and mutual dependence for life!”

Li Yunxin heard these words, and his expression softened again. He stared straight at Liu Laodao for a while, then raised his hand and waved it to suppress the vigorous fire momentum. Then he sighed and sat down: “Yes. Isn’t it? But my business…”

He was frowned and knocked in the palm of his hand with that tearful folding fan: “I It’s going to be a long time to talk about.”

Slightly paused, staring at the fire for a while, finally said: “There is a kind of person who does not experience any emotion. I… It used to be that kind of person.”

The old man knew that Li Yunxin was finally willing to say something that had been hidden in his heart for a long time. Therefore, as usual, accompany him to talk, so as not to make him feel discouraged. So he also sighed in a low voice: “Oh. People are not grass and trees, who can be ruthless. The sad things in the past… will pass.”

But Li Yunxin shook the head: “What I said. There is not much emotion, it is not what you mean. I mean…I really don’t feel it. Well, I used to teach you psychology, this is also an example of psychology. I told you earlier What do you mean by “psychological reasons” and “physiological reasons”-what I am talking about now is physiological reasons.”

The old Taoist heard this, but he knew it, but he knew it in his heart. It is Li Yunxin who is trying to use other methods to conceal his emotions-originally said that he does not want to recall his life experience, but now he only teaches himself to “learn from the heart”-take yourself as an example, maybe it is easy to talk about Not so embarrassed.

He also has an exquisite heart. By this time he knew Li Yunxin’s thoughts, so he just nodded: “Okay, brother Xin, tell me about it. I’m old-fashioned, and then learn.”

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Li Yunxin laughed: “Then I won’t talk about serotonin or the like—it will take a long time to explain. It’s just that some people are born with different brains from ordinary people, or they are incomplete, so I can’t experience many of ordinary people’s emotions. This is an example that I can’t experience… a simpler example, for example, when the person is in his teens, he can’t distinguish a smiling face from an angry face. There are so many to ordinary people. He has to remember the emotions he was born with, and then he can understand them carefully.”

The old Dao frowned slightly.

Li Yunxin thought for a while: “For example, when you walk into an alley at night, you see two gangsters robbing a woman with knives. You stand there for a while and one of the gangsters saw you. So he was full of anger, turned around and took the knife and pointed at you from a distance—what do you mean by that?”

The old waybrows frowned even more tightly. After thinking carefully for a while, he tentatively said: “Could it be that… tell me to go away and don’t be nosy?”

——He thought the answer was too simple, Li Yunxin thought This will never be the question. But for a while, I couldn’t think of anything else.

But Li Yunxin laughed faintly: “That’s what it means-ordinary people would think that way. But for that kind of person… Maybe he has to be stunned for a while. Stunned for a while, think about it. Think about what the gangster’s expression is—oh, it means being angry. Then think about it again, he pointed a knife at me angrily, what is he going to do? But how does he know? One person pointed at another , It may be something to talk about, it may just be a casual point, it may be the person behind him-how does he know, what did the gangster mean to him?”

Lao Dao Liu was indeed This example fascinated. He frowned and thought for a while, and then asked suspiciously: “But… the thief was committing a crime-he would naturally be afraid of being seen after doing this. Now he has seen it, and he should know that the thief is threatening him.”

“The problem is here.” Li Yunxin paused, whispered softly, “Ordinary people think it is bad for a gangster to rob with a knife. But if that person doesn’t think it’s bad—he doesn’t know robbing others, Is it a bad thing to cut someone with a knife? He can’t understand the feeling of the person who was robbed or cut by the knife?”

Liu Lao Dao was stunned for a while, and he experienced some of Li Yunxin’s experience. What I said, I was stunned: “…really there is such a person?”

Li Yunxin looked down at the charcoal fire in the furnace, picked up the furnace hook on the side and dialed. Then he whispered softly: “I’m that kind of person.”

The old way didn’t know what to say for a while, so he listened to Li Yunxin softly and slowly: “That example is a bit exaggerated. Actually. When I was a kid, I was like that—I didn’t often feel pain, and everything was numb. It’s difficult for me to understand the emotional behavior of others. I have to think carefully about what others do out of instinct.”

“So I was treated as a mentally retarded place. The kind of place I lived in when I was a child was not a good place. A group of large and small children are in a circle, where is someone to manage. The mentally retarded is always bullied… Beating, scolding, and not giving meals are all commonplace things. Ordinary people may find it difficult to live or die. But at my time…it didn’t feel much.”

“I am not very capable I feel pain. Others scold me and laugh at me. I don’t know what they mean. I don’t know what it means, and of course I’m not afraid to be sad. Someone treats me secretly and gives me something to eat, and I don’t feel anything— I don’t know what that person meant to be nice to me. I… just have one body. The body of ordinary people contains Seven Emotions and Six Desires, but I don’t have one.” Li Yunxin paused and thought about it, “So come here. Here, you know, my cultivation is very fast.”

“What do those Taoist priests have to overcome, they have to give up their desires…I have already experienced these things they do. Taoists want Supreme Indifference, Swordsman also wants Supreme Indifference. The result they wanted for hundreds of years… I was born that way.”

Old Liu was dumbfounded, really didn’t know what to say. Staring at Li Yunxin for a long time, he squeezed out a sentence with difficulty: “Then you…now…”

Li Yunxin laughed: “Now? Now is naturally now. But then, ah …What should I do?”

“People say that I am mentally retarded, but I am not. Actually, I am smarter than those people—but I have many, many things to observe , To study, to think. For example, I slowly realized later that someone was going to hit me with a fist. Ordinary people would be afraid when they saw it, and would hide. For me, first saw him shook his fist at me, and then Think clearly about several possibilities—what he probably did. Then, according to the circumstances and circumstances at the time, find the “most likely” one among these possibilities, and then think about how they would react to such a probability. Will I laugh, cry, or cry?”

“Think of so many things, and then react-pretend to be afraid, avoid it. I grow up slowly , These things gradually become proficient…so they said that I have grown up and my head has become awkward. In fact…I need to learn a lot more than them that’s all. One thing they did accidentally , I need dozens of thoughts in my mind.” Li Yunxin lowered his head and thought, “After a few years, I gradually realized…I am surrounded by a bunch of idiots. In my eyes it is extremely stupid—— Like a kitten or a puppy.”

“In a few years, it will be easier for me to know what they are thinking and what they might do-because of their unintentional emotions and actions… Actually I have simulated and analyzed that many years in my head. The probability of that many-I want to come over one after another.”

Li Yunxin turned his face to look at Mr. Liu and said, “Later I was Adopted by one person. The conditions are better…have clean clothes, eat enough, and sleep peacefully. Then, read some books and do some things. It turns out that not everyone in the world is like cats and dogs— There are still people who are as smart as me. Those people have written things, books, theories—some of which I find ridiculous. Some of them make sense to me.”

“This look…finally Become a psychiatrist.” He stopped and thought for a while, and seemed to find it funny, “Ha…I’ll talk to others about feelings and counseling. You see, this is the power of knowledge.”

He was silent for a while, and raised his head slightly, as if thinking about the past.

“Then… come here.”

“You ask me what I am like now-I am an ordinary person now. But you know, why a person It’s Zhang San instead of Li Si, Wang Wu, Zhao Liu. What is the reason?”

“The Freemason Quantums ran around body possession, and changed their gender and body. What do you use to prove that you are yourself? It’s a memory.”

“I came to this World with the memories of the past. The feelings of…the past. The feeling of numbness and emptiness, I don’t know what the feelings are. The feelings of things… are stuffed into an ordinary person’s head.” Li Yunxin frowned slightly, “I can understand the emotions of ordinary people. But I can’t fully understand the emotions of ordinary people-past experiences, memories, It’s in the middle.”

“So when I was in Weicheng, that Yueyunzi thought of me as a scorpion, and ran to the other courtyard to talk to me about despairing, rebuilding, and Taoism. Just kidding…they need Taoism, Transcending Tribulation…isn’t it just to become what I used to be.” Li Yunxin smiled and shook the head, “It’s all leftovers from my play. I don’t need anything. Abandoning what desires. I understand that feeling. I don’t need Dao intent…At least I thought that way before.”

Liu Lao Dao has heard foolishly. At this moment Li Yunxin mentioned Daoxin, and he suddenly woke up: “Before? Brother Xin’s trouble now, is this Daoxin anymore?”

Li Yunxin was silent for a while and sighed. Tone: “Yes. A…I did not expect a situation. A feeling that is extremely strange to me. If I am an ordinary person, there are opportunities for trial and error. But now I am a monster cultivator in the real world-a wrong step , Maybe you have to consigned to eternal damnation.”

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A chapter of 5000 words.

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