Star Dome Railway: Why Life Sighs

...Is there anyone who can help me?

Can you give me some hope?

If... I had turned into a monster, wouldn't I be in so much pain now?

If... I hadn't survived, would I not have felt lonely?

in case……

The tendency of self-destruction broke out from Banxia's subconscious mind

This is the side of him that he keeps hidden in his heart. In the past, he has always used his rationality to suppress all negative emotions.

But they exist after all, and they are growing

Now that Banxia's rationality could no longer suppress them, these huge negative emotions emerged from the deepest part of his memory, destroying his rationality.

"What a poor child...

No wonder Elio said you'd go crazy if you regained your memory.

You have more humanity than divinity

Listen to me: "Live!"

As Kafka's voice appeared, the negative emotions that were originally rioting were suppressed.

However, what Kafka didn't expect was that this was just a beginning, a small beginning.

After the parents' screen disappeared

The young Banxia appeared, looking at the medical book numbly, and went to some battlefields that had not been cleaned up yet to secretly take away corpses to help him complete the experiment.

Over and over again, Banxia herself couldn't remember how long it had been.

But when he noticed, the whole basement was full.

It's amazing that the corpse of the demon can actually keep other corpses from decaying.

Why would he do this anyway?

why……

Because he wants to be cured.

The existence of these monsters is a disease in itself

He wants to completely eliminate the existence of this disease...

He wants to prevent tragedy from happening again.

At this time, Banxia was like a madman, tirelessly experimenting, cutting up corpses, picking up corpses

Then the whole thing took a turn for the better.

A new test subject appeared in front of Banxia. It was a secret message from the three Medicine Kings. They wanted to kidnap Banxia and become a loyal believer of the Medicine Kings.

But in the end, they didn't expect that they would be poisoned as soon as they entered Banxia's house. In fact, that was originally what Banxia intended to use to end her own life... but they accidentally got infected with it.

Now that you are here, don't leave...

The long-accumulated anger finally has a place to vent

These three people were tortured to death by Banxia, ​​and they gave up the idea of ​​living and hated their immortality.

He remembered the pain and unwillingness on his face when he extracted the bone marrow of the vidyadhara alive.

He remembered that he had given the foreigner poison and watched him struggle to survive.

He remembered that he had tortured the immortal boat man continuously, just to make him fall into the devil's shadow in front of him.

But they didn't die.

Why! Why!

Why can rubbish like them survive, why can mom and dad never come back!

He took a small knife in his hand and skinned and stabbed the three men again and again.

He didn't know what was the point of this, he just felt helpless and sad

Seeing Banxia so depressed, Kafka wanted to stop him from self-destructing again.

But the following content made her stop

She saw Jing Yuan, who was not yet a general of Shen Ce seven hundred years ago, appear in Banxia's world

The two had a great conversation and became close friends.

The time spent with him comforted Banxia, ​​and her depressed mood actually dissipated a lot.

But the scene changed, and the scene of Jing Yuan falling into the evil spirit appeared in Banxia's memory.

He could only watch Jing Yuan suffer, helpless.

"How could it be...his perception is wrong!"

Listen to me: "Jing Yuan is not trapped in the demonic body, everything is your imagination, nothing happened to him"

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Silver Wolf and Blade saw that Kafka's face was getting more and more embarrassed, but Banxia's memory bubble had not even been absorbed halfway.

Although Elio said that the process was extremely difficult, this was the first time they both saw Kafka having such difficulty using the word spirit technique on others.

Elio sees a successful future

But if Kafka fails, all three of them will really die.

Maybe the only one who is happy is Blade

Recalling that it was already midsummer when he entered the company and met the man he had known for most of his life—Dudley

He is very eccentric, always deliberately using exaggerated movements and tones to liven up the atmosphere and make people laugh.

No matter what he asked, he would do it without questioning it.

At the same time, he is also the second person who truly cares about me after Jing Yuan.

She would go to him to talk about her depression and distress, and Banxia felt at ease when he was around...

The scene changes again, and begins to enter the ten years when he became a nameless guest.

During this period, Banxia's mood was very stable.

Kafka also breathed a sigh of relief. She really thought it was all a tragedy...

But this situation did not last long. When Banxia proposed to get off the bus, she and Pam agreed to part ways.

Suddenly, a scene appeared in his memory where Pam told Banxia in person seven hundred years later that all his former companions had passed away and he was the only one left alive.

sorry……

sorry……

I failed to keep my promise...

The whole memory is filled with turmoil and Banxia's murmuring confession

"here we go again……

His true thoughts began to emerge in his memory.

But he suppressed his emotions too deeply.

Now they all emerge

I can’t control myself anymore…”

Kafka never thought that one day she would meet someone who almost broke through her word spirit technique just by emotion.

"How many are there..."

The memory flashed again, and finally came to the darkest moment in Banxia's later life.

Trapped in the devil's shadow, all six senses are lost

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Dandingsi

Fu Xuan had already led the Cloud Cavalry to come, but she felt uneasy for some reason. She also tried to divine, but nothing came out. It was really strange. This situation had never happened before.

When she led the Cloud Riders to the deepest part of the Dan Ding Division, Taizhen Dan Room, the scene before her really shocked her.

All the evil creatures of abundance and the rebels of the secret teachings of the King of Medicine actually knelt down on the ground and worshipped the same place.

These Medicine King secrets shouted together

"The Medicine King is merciful, and Jianmu is growing!

Those who plant the seeds are of one mind and will attain paradise together!

This strange scene made the Cloud Cavalry Army at a loss as to what to do.

"Everyone, don't act rashly. Let me observe for a while...!!!"

The army of Fengyu, who had just been kneeling, stood up in unison and attacked them.

The morale is even higher than that of the Cloud Cavalry, which has been training for many years.

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Banxia remembered that he had saved many people, and almost all incurable diseases were easily cured by him.

But when it was his turn to be infected with the evil spirit, he couldn't even save himself.

His memory was becoming increasingly blurred, and he could no longer remember many people and events...

That was one of the few times he felt scared.

He thought of Chadwick, the genius he had only met once.

His words from many years ago echoed in my ears again

"I'm afraid. I'm afraid that after I die, the rational defenses I built will completely collapse..."

Chadwick feared his memory would be used after his death

As for Banxia, ​​he can't die... just being alive has almost worn away his rationality.

Once he completely falls into the evil, what will happen to him... He has no idea

A doctor cannot heal himself...

Chapter 52 It’s time to wake up from the dream

Kafka's body began to shake and she could hardly hold on. For some reason, although all her memories had been transferred to Banxia's body, he still hadn't woken up.

Finally, Kafka fell to the ground, holding her head and gasping for breath.

"It worked... He regained consciousness.

Ah Ren, the pain of the demonic body is really torture."

"What happened?" Silver Wolf asked

"I was almost destroyed by his memory.

The resentment deep in his heart is too strong.

The ever-present self-destructive tendencies, pain, sadness, remorse… the suppressed emotions burst out.”

Kafka turned and looked at the two of them.

"You know about the sudden rebellion seven hundred years ago.

In what state did he participate?

In order to go further on the path of abundance, he planted Jianmu in his heart.

Every heartbeat, every breath

They will suffer the pain of tearing their bodies apart

Jianmu had already taken root and sprouted in his body by then...