Just Mine

Sky got into her car, the moment she got into the car...it was as if she was on painkillers and the effect just wore off ...she felt really exhausted, she felt like sleeping, she ached all over. She plugged her phone to the car and played the song on her playlist, so she won't fall asleep on the steering wheel. She smiled as she heard one of her favorite song-Human by Christina Perri, she rolled down the window and enjoyed the night air...she sang along with the song....singing the solo quietly when it got to the solo, she sang out loud....

But I'm only human

And I bleed when I fall down

I'm only human

I crash and I break down

Your words in my head, knives in my heart

You build me up and then I fall apart

Cause am only human.

Yes she is allowed to make mistakes, she's only human. Ruky was a mistake she wanted to make but her baby isn't a mistake, she wished her family will forgive her, she isn't perfect....the only thing she'd done wrong was keeping her relationships away from them and it was cause she feared they wouldn't accept her choice. Her baby isn't a mistake....she is sorry for whatever shame she will bring the family in the future but her baby is her life now. She wouldn't be who she is if not for her family, her mother never remarried....even after her dad was sick for 5 years, they spent all they had during that period and he was going for treatment when he had an accident. Her mother and sister struggled to make them have a normal life, her sister started working before the age of 18 and has been working ever since.

Her mom together with her sist sent her to secondary and university. Her sister always made her feel among, all her clothes, shoes, bags and even hairs were taken care of by her sister. That's why she feel bad cause they are sad because of her, she didn't wanna disappoint them . She had to fix things, she had to make things right. Ruky has taken enough of her life and her thoughts, enough is enough....he's somewhere enjoying his life and here she is, she has burnt everything about him, deleted his number and messages, blocked his number from calling or texting her....why can't she forget him? She even started a friend's with benefit relationship with Neto to get over Ruky. Hearing the song say....I can hold the weight of worlds if that is what you need, be your everything....she hit the next button on her phone....

She gave her all to Ruky, broke all her rules, yet he left her...enough of that. The next song was by Burna Boy- On the low. Hearing the beat of the song she smiled, from now on She would leave for her child .....never ever again will she ever love any man the way she loved Ruky, she would never give her heart completely to any man again. She made the right decision...she isn't getting married. Dancing to the beats of the song, she drove home.