Bengtie: My death fueled their madness.

"Now that you have a goal, what do you think your reaction would be if Xiao Mu suddenly remembered everything you've been through together?"

"..."

Ruan Mei was stunned, lost in deep confusion.

In fact, she had imagined this scenario countless times and considered the subsequent reactions.

No matter how you look at it, it's just a fantasy with an unknown level of difficulty in achieving it.

Now that Yu Qingtu has suddenly asked her this question, she still doesn't know how she will truly react.

Considering her recent situation, Ruan Mei pursed her lips, her gaze wandering for a long time before finally closing her eyes slowly.

The tone of voice when the answer was given could not conceal the fear mixed in.

"Qingtu, if I said I was scared, would you believe me?"

"Are you afraid he'll completely cut ties with you?"

"right……"

Ruan Mei's voice grew softer and softer, trembling almost imperceptibly.

"I said we're even, and I agree with that. But if we're going to rebuild our relationship, or get Amu to willingly 'cross the line' again, what I'm doing for him now is far from enough to move him."

What transgression?

That is to ignore the last words she left behind, to refuse to acknowledge or accept that they are even.

"I've already let go of the past; I can't let go of the future too..."

"So now I'll listen to you and do my best to minimize the possibility that I'll be powerless to help Amu when he needs me in the future."

"...My childhood experiences distorted my true understanding of love and many emotions, and I still don't fully understand them even now."

"I still only have a vague understanding of what it means to love someone, and what it should be like."

"It's always right to try to be good to someone, isn't it...?"

After hearing every word, Yu Qingtu acquiesced.

While she excels in the study of emotions, it's impossible to say for sure that she has completely deconstructed human emotions.

Regarding this topic, she tends to believe that the emotions between people are never definable.

It is precisely the differences in emotional cognition among individuals that create unique intelligent life forms with countless possibilities.

Ruan Mei's approach was not wrong, but it could also be wrong.

Blindly giving doesn't necessarily guarantee a good result; it depends on who is giving.

If someone is a normal person, even if the outcome is not what they hoped for, it's unlikely to be bad.

But if they aren't normal people, then they're ungrateful wretches, vampires who only take and never give.

The reason I say it's not wrong is because Qi Zhimu is a normal person who knows how to be grateful.

It's that same hindsight quote she and Black Tower have almost worn out: If we don't mention the fact that we haven't seen each other for a century, we'll forget it; but looking back in this life, we'll have the upper hand.

At this point, Yu Qingtu and Ruan Mei reached the same conclusion: unless Qi Zhimu overstepped his bounds again...

"If you were afraid, why did you risk traveling with Xiao Mu?"

"...Instinct will overcome fear. Being able to look at him up close like this and say a few words is enough for me right now."

"But wouldn't you feel instinctively uncomfortable seeing Xiao Mu being intimate with another woman?"

Yes, it will.

"And then they hide in a corner, stabbing themselves again and again, suffering in silence?"

"No, I can now resist that impulse and stop degrading myself." Ruan Mei's tone was quite frank, not like she was just being stubborn.

"Sigh..." Yu Qingtu shook his head gently: "Jingliu, like you, has a similar instinct towards Xiaomu."

Ruan Mei understood the meaning behind Yu Qingtu's words.

After the death of Amu II, they experienced his instincts firsthand when they spoke with Kagami Ryu.

It's uncomfortable to discover that your loved one is having a relationship with another woman.

Not to mention, the woman who makes you uncomfortable is standing right in front of you, discussing the future of the same person you both love.

Back then, in front of Jingliu, they were victims of such instinctive reactions.

However, during their time on the space station some time ago, both Black Tower and Yelena became unspeakable victims due to Ruan Mei's instinctive discomfort.

Only Yu Qingtu noticed the problem and slapped her awake.

"Humans can hardly resist their instincts. Perhaps I should be grateful that I can still be called a human being and retain the emotions of a human being."

"It's good that you think that way."

"Speaking of Mirror Stream... Kiyoto, do you think that Amu II's style was influenced by me?"

"You mean the subconscious imprint of thoughts, right? I don't think Xiao Mu's treatment of Jing Liu has anything to do with you."

Yu Qingtu recounted Qi Zhimu's experiences in his second life and offered his own opinions.

"In the Immortal Ship Alliance, falling into the demonic body basically means death, even for generals, who are subject to the jurisdiction of the Ten Kings."

"The year Cangcheng was destroyed, Xiao Mu first revealed his demonic nature. Once discovered, he would never have any freedom again. Losing his Cloud Cavalry membership meant that the rest of his life would be no different from waiting to die."

"To preserve the possibility and power of revenge, Xiao Mu had no choice but to activate the forbidden magic of the Immortal Ship and embrace abundance to suppress the demonic yin."

"The judges of the Ten Kings Division possess methods similar to soul-searching, while the Pill Cauldron Division has methods to test the stability of the spirit and memory, to ensure that the Cloud Cavalry is not at risk of falling into demonic influence in the near future."

"Therefore, Xiao Mu, who has dabbled in forbidden things, cannot reveal it to anyone, especially his disciple with whom he spends every day."

"If Jingliu returns to Danding Division after a battle and undergoes relevant examinations, and unfortunately a clue is discovered, Xiao Mu will have nowhere to stay on the Immortal Ship."

"Given Mirror Stream's obsessive nature, who knows if she'll also activate her own Incarnation after learning the truth?"

"It's one thing for her to activate it, but in Xiao Mu's eyes, it means she didn't take good care of Jing Liu and failed Qiu Zhiyan's dying wish."

"Given Xiao Mu's character, she would absolutely not tolerate such a thing happening."

"With so many concerns, he could only keep all the secrets to himself, both for revenge and to avoid implicating Jingliu."

"In conclusion, I believe that the seeds of Jingliu's unrequited love were sown from the moment Cangcheng fell, and the ending was already predetermined."

"Xiao Mu's ability to clearly recognize that she fell in love with Jing Liu at a certain point in time is relatively conclusive proof, which is fundamentally different from your misunderstanding of feelings."

"Therefore, there is no need to feel guilty about what happened to Jingliu. Xiaomu's choice back then was mostly unrelated to you."

"...Most likely..."

"If you want an accurate answer, you can only ask Xiao Mu what he thought in his past life."

"Never mind..."

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Family members, please, let's generate some energy with love!