Chinese Entertainment: Becoming a Superstar After a Breakup

Chapter 83 My Dear Hot Bar (Long Chapter, Requesting Monthly Tickets)

"My dearest Reba, my dearest Reba, my dearest Reba, it's like seeing you in person as I write this. I'll say it three times because it's important. Please forgive me for saying goodbye in this old-fashioned way."

We will definitely meet again in the future, but when we meet again, I feel like I won't have the right to call you that anymore. I'll just call you that a few more times for now.

Hot, I have so much to say to you, and I've prepared myself mentally several times, but facing you, I feel like I really can't say what I want to say.

I'm terrified, I'm scared. I'm terrified of facing your surprised gaze, not knowing how to respond. I'm also afraid that my long, rambling explanation will be dismissed with a casual, "Baby, we're not joking," turning my decision into a joke.

Hot, you know, I always seem unable to refuse your requests. I enjoy our relationship, but I also know clearly that there are serious problems between us, and it seems like we really can't go on.

While writing this letter, I wanted to give up several times. Some things, even if you are really prepared, will always hold you back when the imagination becomes reality.

Those memories we shared, those wonderful days we spent together, always erode and wear down my resolve. I've thought about it time and again, maybe I should just give up, deceiving myself, thinking that things are fine as they are.

There was love between us, and I know very well that as I write this letter, I still feel reluctant to let go of our relationship. However, reality doesn't allow us to continue.

Some of the things I say may sound sentimental, but they are truly what I feel in my heart. For example, right now, I've come to terms with things, but the next moment I'm falling back into them. I don't know when I'll be able to bear handing this letter to you, even though I wrote it on my birthday.

"Let's break up, okay?" When this idea came to me, I was shocked, but it also seemed to make perfect sense.

This idea was born in early March. When I first had this idea, I thought I was crazy. But seeing the rift between us, I realized that someone has to do some things first.

First of all, I want to apologize to you. You made me learn what boundaries are, and after thinking about it, I realize I do have a lot of problems.

I did not betray you, but I did lack respect for you. I should take the initiative to stay away from anyone and anything that might damage our relationship and trust.

I knew perfectly well that you didn't like her, but I still accepted her help. Looking back now, I realize I was taking a chance. You trusted me completely, and even though you knew I was filming a TV series for Tangren Media, you didn't suspect her. That's where I fall short of you.

I kept her a secret because I felt that if you knew, it would hurt our relationship. I didn't want you to get angry for no reason because of something that didn't exist.

But now that I think about it, if I had told you, the problems between us wouldn't have accumulated to such a large extent. We might have been angry, argued, and vented at the time, but once it's over, it's over.

Unfortunately, there are no "what ifs," and it still happened. I understand your anger; I deeply understand that feeling of betrayal. You know I'm a very possessive person, and sometimes, seeing you standing next to other men makes me uncomfortable.

This is before anything has happened. If you did what I did, I might be even angrier, except that I would be the one in the wrong.

After this incident, I understand your anger, and I never thought about breaking up. Some misunderstandings can always be resolved with time.

But I've discovered that things aren't like that between us. You've actually started to doubt our relationship, but you haven't thought about letting go.

It must be painful for you. We've known each other for so long, I can understand your grievances. You're the one who did something wrong, Shen Ze, so why am I the one who's suffering?

You weren't driven by anger to break up with me, but the resentment lingered. You deliberately checked my WeChat and acted suspiciously, trying to vent, but you didn't want to be truly controlled by your emotions.

You can sense the change between us, right? Actually, there's no need for this. If you're angry, be angry; if you're venting, vent. You've always been pursuing perfect love.

By hiding this from you, I've left an indelible stain on your emotional investment of the past five years and your perfect life plans for the future.

I tried to wipe it off, but the ink spot got bigger and bigger. A single drop of ink can really turn a vat of clear water black. Even if I didn't do anything, you would believe I didn't do anything, but this is just an ink spot on a piece of white paper, it's so disgusting.

For both of us, this relationship has been a form of mutual torment, and it's gotten worse over time. That's why I had this idea: let yourself go, and let me go too.

Writing it out definitely brought a sense of relief, but it inevitably brought a sense of regret. The future you envisioned was beautiful, but it seems it can't accompany you all the way.

When I was with you, I never thought about breaking up. But things don't always go as planned. We meet, and we also miss each other.

I'm so glad I met you back then, but sadly, we only met and walked together for a while before we had to part ways.

Suddenly I feel a little pessimistic. One day, you will forget me, forget the memories between us. I'm being a little selfish. Can you think about me a little longer, even just for a little while?

One day we might become familiar strangers. Actually, I've thought about it, maybe if we just let it go, the feelings will wear off. But it seems like I can't do that.

Our relationship is so strange; it's like we see each other as too perfect, so we can't tolerate even the slightest mistake. If we were a normal couple, this would probably just be a misunderstanding.

However, if you can take it easy, I might still be disappointed. Our relationship is just more special than others'.

Thank you for your companionship over the years. It's already a great fortune that we've made it this far. I treat everything as the best arrangement, including our meeting and our separation. Everything is just right. It's a pity there was no ending, but that's how it should be. Movies have endings, but life is what doesn't.

Hot, I won't be by your side anymore. If you really value our relationship over the years, I hope you won't hurt yourself or give up on yourself. You are a wonderful girl.

As I write this, I'm reminded of the past. I miss those days, but sadly, they're gone forever. Things shouldn't have turned out this way between us, but now, this is all we can do. Perhaps fate only allowed us to meet and cross paths, and then miss each other.

Fortunately, our separation is beneficial for both of us. You no longer have to go against the company repeatedly because of me. Although those older women are despicable and were just using you, it's actually the best arrangement for your career.

I think I like you even more than I thought. I've actually grown to the point where I don't want to possess you, but just letting you go and no longer having you makes me happy.

The ending was too rushed, and I always felt it didn't do justice to our meeting. But that's life; there are too many things we can't hold onto. Just do your best.

I'm already very content to have known you in this life. At least I know your name, have heard your voice, held your hand, kissed your lips, and felt your embrace.

No matter how estranged we become in the end, the kindness I showed you was genuine. I hope you never regretted meeting me and that you were truly happy.

Okay, I'll stop here. If I keep writing, we'll really just keep torturing each other. Forgive my selfishness, but I'm afraid that one day all our memories will be gone. It's better to preserve some beautiful memories now.

Hot, I'm leaving. Don't be angry, don't be furious. You should be happy. The people and things that caused you so much distress are gone. Don't punish yourself with past memories. In your heart, I am no longer the boy who first met you. But I believe that if Shen Ze back then saw you now, he would be very sad.

Hot, I hope you have a bright future ahead of you. Let's meet at the top. I've never doubted our future. Maybe that's a bit too polite. Hot, let's not contact each other for a while. I need to focus on the contract. You understand, right?

Goodbye, it's coming to an end. Whether it's this letter or our relationship, no matter how reluctant I am, at this moment, my heart seems to have stopped for a moment. Perhaps it's to make up for the extra heartbeat I felt when we first met.

My dearest Reba, my dearest Reba, my dearest Reba, let's end it the way it began. Reba, from now on you are you, and I am me. It seems I have no right to talk about "us" anymore. Be happy every day. I'm getting off the train of life you've planned. Goodbye.

The letter had been written for several pages. Reba looked up at the familiar ceiling and felt her breath quicken. Had we finally come to this point?

Shen Ze, this is not fair at all. You made all the preparations. You were ready to break up. You had one last dinner together and one last meeting. You had no regrets.

But I don't know, I don't know, this isn't fair, but what else can I do? It turns out, it's not that you like tidying up anymore, it's that your things are gone. You made all the preparations, leaving me to be the clown.

Should I come find you? Shen Ze, my love has always been perfect. You're right, I'm just internally torturing myself. But you broke up with me under the pretense of doing what's best for me, without even daring to say it to my face. Are you even a man?

Do you know how much I've sacrificed, Shen Ze? You coward, you owe me so much, both financially and emotionally. You owe me for the rest of your life.

What should I do? She doesn't even dare to dial that phone number that she remembers so vividly. Just like Shen Ze said, her expectations for love are too perfect.

She shook her head. "Shen Ze, I'll assume you've been busy lately and won't bother you. But if I haven't seen this letter, then it's not true."

Dilraba ultimately didn't make the call. She was afraid that if Shen Ze really broke up with her in person, there would be no turning back.

Shen Ze, when did the concept of separation even begin between us? Shen Ze, I'm a stingy person, and debts owed to me can never be wiped clean.

Dilireba stared at the ceiling, thinking about the past and the present. From day to night, her phone rang again and again, but it wasn't Shen Ze. She didn't even want to answer it until there was a knock on the door. When she saw Zhao Ruoyao outside, Dilireba was disappointed. It wasn't Shen Ze who had returned.

However, some things can indeed be resolved. Shen Ze, you said you don't like owing others, so I'll help you one more time. I will collect these debts.

"Reba, what's wrong with you? I can't get in touch with you at all. I missed my flight this afternoon. Luckily you're home, otherwise I would have reported you missing." This was Zhao Ruoyao's first time visiting Dilireba's home, but she always knew where Dilireba lived.

"Sister Ruoyao, am I really not suited to be an actress?" Dilraba asked.

"Hey, what's wrong with you? You're acting weird," Zhao Ruoyao said.

"Sister Ruoyao, what stage has Shen Ze's contract reached?" Dilireba asked.

"Hey, even though you're dating him, this is a matter between the company and him, and you can't interfere."

"I didn't interfere. If possible, could you add my name to the contract?" Dilraba said.

"Reba, do you know what you're saying?" Zhao Ruoyao thought Dilireba had gone mad.

"We had a fight. I don't want to see him at the company, and I don't want to owe him anything. I brought him into the company, but now the company has effectively sidelined him and doesn't need him anymore. Can you return his contract?" Dilraba said.

She was going all in. She knew she might actually be sued for breach of contract, but if that happened, wouldn't you come back? That's just how love-struck she is; she loves it so much.

"It's hot, I'll just pretend I didn't hear those words."

"Sister Ruoyao, you know, I'm actually a newcomer. The company has always been very supportive of me, and I'm very grateful to you all. I haven't done anything outrageous. I'm actually quite afraid of you, but I know I don't want to owe him anything. Let him go," Dilireba said.

"Go to the company, it's hot. The company isn't a charity. Have you thought about the consequences? There are indeed many artists in the entertainment industry who have successfully terminated their contracts, but you need to understand that without a solid backing and without the company's recommendation, you wouldn't have gotten this far."

If you leave this company and other companies find out what happened to you, who would dare to train you? It's not that simple.

"I know, so I'm very grateful. But I can't hurt people. Shen Ze is in this situation because of me, both professionally and personally. If it weren't for me, he would have signed with Tangren Media in the first place," Dilraba said.

"Come on, let's go eat. Look at the state you've become. We can talk about this later." Zhao Ruoyao didn't say anything else. Dilireba isn't Shen Ze. If she terminates her contract, it means all the previous investments will go down the drain, and it's not just a matter of one or two million.

"Sister Ruoyao, I want to get a good night's sleep. I'll go to the company tomorrow, and I'll accept whatever decision the company makes," Dilireba said.

"Okay, get some rest." Zhao Ruoyao left.

Shen Ze, there are some debts you can never repay.

(I didn't even finish writing one letter, so I've already combined two into one. Brothers, it's a proper breakup.)

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